On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:15:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:09:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:03:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:02:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:55:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:54:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:54:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:51:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:43:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:12:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:11:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:02:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 9:00:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 6:23:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 4:33:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 4:08:27 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 4:00:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 3:57:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 3:45:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 3:44:29 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 3:42:29 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 3:35:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:56:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:54:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:50:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:45:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:44:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:41:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:23:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:23:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 2:19:50 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 12:10:29 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 12:06:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 11:58:51 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 11:56:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 11:49:05 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 11:43:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 11:15:30 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 10:53:50 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 12:28:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 12:17:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 1, 2023 at 12:00:14 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 11:53:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 11:49:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 11:46:23 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 10:57:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 10:55:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 10:51:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 10:41:08 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 8:47:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:44:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:28:53 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:27:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:22:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:20:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 6:08:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 4:07:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 3:54:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 3:51:23 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 3:46:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 3:39:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 2:20:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 12:59:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 12:52:53 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 12:44:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 12:49:09 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 31, 2023 at 12:28:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 30, 2023 at 9:54:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 30, 2023 at 9:53:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 30, 2023 at 9:49:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 30, 2023 at 9:31:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > PASTED:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized that my confusion about Alan Turing is more related to the rapper, "Dr.. Dre," who wrote the song What's the Difference, than it is to anything else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, although I've been avoiding my Mom, I saw her do a thought-provoking face recently. Here is the debate comment about this.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone were to claim, "Philip, you are a very aggressive and smart security dog...and the other neighbors in the neighborhood all have much cuter and gentler security dogs, that mainly just bark to add security to their owners, and they're very endearing, nice dogs, like Rosey. You have been, essentially, running around, biting other people's security dogs so viciously that the security dogs cry out in pain, die from their wounds, and, as they are dying, watch their masters be brutally assassinated by snipers that they are no longer able to warn them about. Isn't that excessive force?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My Mom suggests, it's worth it to cough up whatever secret tip you got about this that will inspire your response...it is actually from 10th grade English teacher Mr. Eric Richardson, who made a during a meeting at TJHSST with my psychologist and some school officials, discussing my condition. I had not at that time realized that Dr. Glasser was bad.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My response is, as you might expect, it's Prince of Persia, and your palace guards have kidnapped my princess, whom I haven't even met yet. The metaphor you are missing, supplied partly by Mr. Richardson, which contributes to the very strange environment, is, "you all have security clearances that you're not aware of." If you lose a "security clearance," you lose your job, whether that is a social job, that pays you with status, fun social opportunities, respect and admiration, and other things, perhaps money in the case of a real job. The objection, *all of you*, including even high-status top-notch chess player Jennifer Shahade, have obtained and refused to give up "TS/SCi pedophile Hitler Youth clearances," and that is what it takes to get near me and know who I am. There are many Americans who do not know who I am. Many lawyers and police officers and other such crime-related workers have "clearances" that require that they not interact socially with victims or suspects. I do not have any clearance at all, really, except I have my own "homegrown be nice, rule-following, fair, and vociferous clearance."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My viciousness is perfectly justified. All of you, whether cute and canine or elite purple-clothing-wearing palace guards in Prince of Persia 1, have *refused* to negotiate vigorously on my behalf before "Jafar Biden." As such, your "cute puppies" as you call them who *know* what you are doing have become *literal pro-child-trafficking, pedophile, Nasi clearance holders"; cuteness does not exempt you from being an evil person. There is no grace period for youth in Muslim countries who join ISIS--once you're in, you're a terrorist forever, and seen as a very low worth human being. Every American citizen, having the benefit of a great and education and economy to grow up with, has even less of an excuse to turn to evil. There are two kinds of your "cute puppies"--the ones you have told what you are actually doing with your "Biden pedo-clearance," and the ones you have viciously endangered yourselves by asking them to secure you when you refuse to notify them of what they have signed up to do. Cute puppies with ISIS clearances defending foreign terrorists, are hopefully, if they were really cute and harmless, going to die quick, painless deaths to prevent them from harming others...you support TDO'ing mental patients, right? Dogs are great; we are greater, even when we are homeless.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One thing I am going to try to do tomorrow is, try to develop a good "relaxation process" to help me be calm at night. I always know that i want to relax late at night, but I don't really have a good process defined for how to get maximally calm and relaxed. I definitely like to eat a few things, like oatmeal, and then lie down in the dark room, with just one light on in the other area, like before I'm going to sleep...sometimes it is nice to have the computer on, with a dim screen and no music. I don't really know what else to add to my night-time relaxation process, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, returning to my previous point:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "I'm a highly cleared stealth pedophile worker who, by agreement with my Pedophile Boss, who literally got started in on molesting the victims many years ago, never speaks to the victims of the top Pedophile Boss in my agency who gives out all the clearances. Basically, we have a short 'victims watchlist,' no questions asked, other than 'is he or she very alone??', and when we encounter such a victim in person, we know what to do...we might crinkle our noses to say that the trash smells bad, but we never speak to the people or speak about them in a positive way. Anyone who gets too close to the victims gets added to the 'hopefully unfortunate accident-prone victim associates' list. All of our clearances come from the top Pedophile Boss; we never leak to the wrong person, we're very militant, and we get compensated very very well for our work for our Boss."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Indeed, we are not a fraternity or sorority...there is clear compensation, not all that much required camaraderie, and a clear competition to achieve a particular mission, all while maintaining the required, clearance-specifications-based environment that we are trained to preserve for all of our cleared members."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/30/entertainment/gwyneth-paltrow-ski-collision/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible that he was confused and filed the lawsuit in a state of confusion after the accident. It is also possible, in theory, that she was like one of the mental health workers who preyed on me, and she planned every detail and made sure she would get acquitted in the trial. I don't know, I shouldn't accuse Paltrow in contradiction to the verdict without any outside information that would seem to imply that she did anything wrong.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At the same time, what is clear, partly based on the plaintiff's attorney's comment, is, why isn't the plaintiff going to be interviewed by Fox News like Kyle Rittenhouse? There is no reason not to; his story has more of a human interest aspect to it than a white man with a gun shooting a civil rights protester at a civil rights rally. It would appear that Fox News has already chosen to discriminate against the plaintiff in this case, by honoring him less than Kyle Rittenhouse. It seems that Fox News is biased against people with cognitive disabilities, even people who were born neurotypical and only got a sad cognitive impairment later than life. I am lucky to have no brain damage myself, I would hate that, I've been through enough confusing and debilitating things as it is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One possibility I think might be true might be: Paltrow's version of the story was literally true, and a Fox-News-linked bad guy organization used SDI to blow the plaintiff's skiing pattern off course, leading him to crash into Paltrow and sustain serious, life-altering injuries. If this version is true, I would think, the plaintiff didn't remember what happened too well, and his friends/relatives who testified perjured themselves under duress, after consulting their lawyer, and hinted as much on the stand, to get serious media attention paid to the fact that their friend was targeted and hurt by a homicidal group with advanced air powers.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One other thing is, the lawyer seems to be saying, "My client just joined Philip White's team, and we're noticing, if Philip White had the ability to access a court, which apparently he does not right now, to deal with his issues, my client would not have been injured because White's issue would have gotten resolved and gotten publicity...so we want White's case allowed into court, my client was given brain damage, just like Gabby Giffords, through no fault of his own or any organization he belongs to. He was an innocent victim of a predatory crime organization."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An important point: It looks like, unfortunately, my entire family who is still alive, including Theresa and Delia, is actually evil and interested in killing me. The reason I have come to this conclusion is, I am very much in need of being able to socialize, and no one in my family who might be "too busy to talk" will volunteer to help me make a friend...they won't introduce me to anyone they know, so it sounds like, they are all right-wing extremists who want me dead. Delia's signal was, "fungi photosynthesis," and she said fungi--we were talking about biology--and then I said something about photosynthesis, and she acted offended and walked out of the room. When leaving, she did a door bump with her first to the door leading to the garage. It is sad that she is apparently against me; at least she complied with my request that someone email me, she drove or flew out to VA to visit my Dad and talked to me also, and mentioned her father, my Uncle Bill, and some poetry. It is sad that it is pretty clear that my entire family supports the idea that I was tortured and held as a slave...that is quite a disgrace, I had wanted to be proud of my extended family. AFAIK, Rosey is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It also sounds like Alan and Molly Cooke, the older couple who was nice to me and socialized with me to help me get back to school in 2007 after I was sick, also wants to kill me. That is sad. Alan had been a gasoline company executive before he retired. I thought they were nice. When this ordeal started, my Mom said that Molly Cooke had called her up and asked, "Is Philip doing okay?" That suggests, she was very aware of the situation, and not dumb enough to be fooled into not understanding that I was being tormented. It sounds like, sadly, that family too was interested in killing me, dating back to a long time ago.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I really don't know how anyone assembled this massive mob of people to join the "f--- Philip" club, indeed. I really and truly didn't do anything wrong, the idea of a "million man-and-woman lynch mob" to try to kill me is not something I deserved, and not something I was notified about in the sense of, "Philip, try to improve at these things, and maybe our large group of people that is organizing to torment and kill you will lighten up and just let you leave, rather than obsessively hunting you and trying to kill you."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think there is a very strange culture that is very involved in the lives of my extended family and also a large portion of the East Coast. I'm worried that my maternal grandmother, Grammee, also wanted to kill me...maybe it is literally just became a proud atheist. There is nothing wrong with being an atheist, I respect all people and am kind, I just don't believe in god. It is very wrong to hunt people just for having different religious beliefs from you. I am not a Holocaust denier, and I do not see myself as a "god denier" in an offensive way...anyone who thinks I should "be killed for being a 'god denier'" is clearly anti-Semitic, because such a person would logically believe that any Christian ought to feel justified in "wanting to kill Jewish people for being 'Jesus deniers' according to them." American values and even war fighting has stood solidly on the side of religious freedom, including for atheists and Jews, since the 1940's at least. It is a horrible, Nazi crime to support exterminating people for being proud of their atheism.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think, actually, Alan Turing had had the idea that I thought of. Most likely, he understood the idea about "cryptology bait," and had done that maneuver before; by using "apple cyanide" as his code, he essentially baited Dr. Dre, a noted successful American anti-gay rap artist, into popularizing the "what's the difference code." At the end of the actually quite fascinating innovation path that Turing appears to have proceeded down, before me--I think Uncle Welsh was fine, very disappointed with most of his family, and aware of diff eq, but not beyond that--one can find Turing's top algorithmic and logic-related discovery. It seems very likely that he did mean to say what he said, and the activation of the "what's the difference" code in particular was bait by Turing. Basically, he knew that someone with the approximate political ideology of Dr. Dre the rapper would want to use *that* code to say whatever he was going to say, and would lack a certain kind of sophistication to avoid doing it. The big idea was his. I am giving him credit. Given Turing's abilities, I should maybe be careful about the idea that he might be baiting me into doing something to. I think I feel fairly safe, and I would support Turing and be happy to talk to him and help with him any issues he might have--I am actually, AFAIK, somewhat better at theorem proving and certain kinds of STEM tasks than even he is, as the second-greatest mathematician who has ever lived, and the very best until I had come along--so I would hope that he and those who support him in the modern era would not oppose me--I would probably be willing to be helpful to his interests if he got in touch with me after he came back to life.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Well yeah, I attacked your abortion rights because it had strategic value to you, and based on your "metaphorical clearance" as the guardians of such rights, I needed to attack something big of yours, because you wouldn't stop trying to hunt me, and it was justified and you deserved it. You are not kinder than I am, just more self-centered and less nimble at understanding how people make decisions based on fairness. You do have connections and information that I do not have.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do not have a metaphorical clearance right now. That is clear, because I am not worried about "salary cuts" of any kind. Certainly, I would like a job, or some other easing of the highly illegal restrictions that prevent me from making an income. My behavior, "clearances" aside, isn't illegal at all, and yours is. Why do you think you're better than I am?? Is it some sort of ethnic birthright thing that your parents told you about? Every race, based on nationality and skin color, has people who think that their background is supreme, and all others are inferior; every such group of people who think that is wrong.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it a Christian thing? Some people probably think Christianity is a cryptic lie--it's about the idea of conservatism, the focus on "our 'Jesus,'" the man who's suffering could be seen as so much sadder than everyone else, the "white man with privilege who is King," or whatever that is mapped to in the cult leader's stated ideology, cryptically or overtly. Some people think Judaism is about a lie where "God" is just the idea that tolerance must be embraced...there is no "King" but the god in heaven, and all people who reject Judaism are simply "not militant enough" to fight and lie for the idea that all people should be treated as equals, as long as they subscribe to Judaism or something close to it. I think dishonest versions of Islam are rather like Christianity, except it is more anti-sex and more strict in general in terms of arbitrary rules and requirements to follow them.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Of course, some people actually believe in the true stated ideas in each sacred text, and are not just using the sacred documents as a political metaphor to obtain power via lies about a symbolic creature called "god" that appears in one of three dominant sacred texts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What you're saying, if you don't quit the job that you got the clearance and associated perks and behavioral requirements from, is, "I think that young children in the USA from any background deserve this, and they should not be helped out of it, even in their 30's."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, it is possible that Alan Turing did not come up with my big idea, but was instead stego-poisoned by a rival cryptologist who convinced him to use a certain technique to commit suicide, to say something in code that bad guys in the British government had analyzed patterns in the English language and in STEM discoveries to figure out. It is entirely possible that Turing would have published his/my breakthrough if he had actually thought of it...it could be a trap. I do not condone using traps like that to hurt any STEM workers, I was speaking sincerely about something I thought might be true, it is possible that it was a sabotage attempt by the British government.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One possible defense of Delia, and some other relatives of mine, might be: The people who are on my side are sick of tired of having to "do extra favors" and "jump through hoops" to "help Philip because the FBI has decided at this time that it does not serve Philip's kind, and also, yeah we allowed Bill White to possibly be murdered with a cough and a sickness on 'BRAT' day, and we think that Philip's family should do all the hoop-jumping and favors and extra work to pick up the slack for us, even after we celebrated 'the triple' of killing 3 more people in Philip White's extended family."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Theresa is in more trouble, in a sense, than Delia. I am not sure I should even definitely trust her...I'm just trying to consider both sides of the argument that I think is relevant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To be clear: This is not my mess, this is the Democratic Party's and the Republican Party's mess. I am supposed to be a dead body, the mess is something that law enforcement and government and whatever special interest groups claimed to be interested in *helping me* while studying said they were going to clean up a long time ago.. If I had been actually murdered, and I was lying there as a corpse, I would have been able to leave Virginia in one sense faster than like this. I am not really being supported much by the law/non-profit groups that claim to be "helping out." Truly, "helping out" has a definition that includes a certain minimum threshold line that has not been met.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To adjudicate clearly: I think it is clear that Richard Toikka did not actually meet the threshold of "helping out." Maybe he didn't intend to. The thing is, there are lawyers who are supposed to help with this kind of thing, and I contacted them in the past and they did not help me, and at this time, even after having *cured cancer*, I have not been contacted by a lawyer or anyone else who might claim to be able to grant me access to a lawyer to help me proceed with my life. I am unsupported by *100%* of the people who were supposed to support me, by career description. That is not something to be proud of. It is *your failure*, not mine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great news about my math and strategy ambitions: I just identified a conjecture that, if I could prove it, would probably be one of the most important theorems, in terms of practical value, including to people who were engaged in tasks like, e.g., business strategy, ever. I will probably work on proving it over the next few days. It looks exciting.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I will probably comply with Delia's "PF" recommendation to publish fiction, only, in addition to investing as a career, and to maybe "not forget the Presidency"...Delia is essentially the "senior top mother/father figure" of my father's side of the family who is left, now that Uncle Bill, Uncle Welsh, Granny, and her second husband have passed away (Granny's first husband died when my father was 15), and that my father is not really up to the task of being extended-family-head. I will probably listen to her and not change my mind, I can't be absolutely positive...I am likely to not ever publish STEM breakthroughs again because of Delia's cryptic request, so she deserved credit for that good idea..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/31/entertainment/gwyneth-paltrow-terry-sanderson-trial/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is still possible that Paltrow was lying, and was trying to do the whole thing and win in court as a "celebrity power" move, like for white power but for celebrities. One would wonder, as in the Woody Allen case: Why would he lie?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is pretty well-known, to me at least, that there are a lot of famous artists, including females, like Kesha Sebert, Anne Hathaway, Scarlett Johansson, Stefani Germanotta, and others, who have a real appetite for predatory conduct. It could be that in terms of the unwritten qualifications for getting big jobs like that, it comes with the territory...the predatory instinct and drive is what gets you in, past the other "merely talented" auditioners. It is entirely possible that she engineered the whole event to make it so that he wouldn't have enough evidence to get her held accountable.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the lesson is: If you're going out in public, pretty much anywhere, you have to be prepared to be *very careful* that someone, famous or not, might essentially come up to you and do something that constitutes some sort of assault that you might have trouble proving in court. Yes, I was naive for thinking that I wouldn't have been gaslighted by Dr. Schwartz at the hospital in Columbia, MD, and the FBI declined to be helpful or fair. Other things to watch out, regardless of gender, literally, include: hit-and-run car crash assaults, people punching you when you are walking, people shooting you when you are walking, people splashing you with sexual or chemically destructive forces when you are out walking, etc. I'm not focusing on it too much myself right now--but if some bad guy "gamer person" attacks you for sport, you will want to have enough evidence to prove in court that the person really did it to you, or you might face a big injury without any means to fight back to the full extent that you ought to be able. Yes, I definitely need to stay on meds.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Another thing, thinking of the journal ref's comment..."wasting everyone's time"...since I get psych and stats now, maybe it is true that I should never run outside again. I haven't had a problem, but it is not entirely safe...someone could, especially when things change, totally walk up to me and shoot me or do something else, and I would have no recourse unless a bystander witness chose to intervene, maybe calling police, and/or testify on my behalf. It could be that "running/walking outside" is correlated with "being sort of dumb," in the sense that mainly people who aren't too focused on health and safety are the people who choose to walk/run outside often. I probably should indeed stop going for long walks and runs entirely...I'll wait until I can join a gym, and also see a real doctor, before I start running again. It is really inappropriate that whatever groups say they are "going to support me" are claiming victory that I'm not dead, when I am still just walking around, after several years, and I've been productive, but still can't even support myself financially, due to failure and refusal to do the "real work" of getting my political problem solved so that I can get a job!! The "helper groups" helping me are totally fake!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible that my whole thing about "the activists" and "the security providers" was wrong, maybe even essentially tantamount to a delusion. It seems like almost all of the people who are acting like they "want to help me" are actually doing a lot of weird, dumb, fake things, like they think they're edgy psychology researchers or something, and I am *totally, 100% un-supported* by *all* organizations in the US--EVEN THOUGH I literally cured cancer. Maybe I was a little bit ill and wanted to feel like I had support; I have none, and I *absolute deserve it*. Every drug company that has heard of me, every liberal and anti-trafficking, anti-abuse organization, every human rights organization globally, and my current doctor and nurse practitioner, are, unfortunately, *very reprehensible.* It sounds like there's a big "demo of former pedophile victim Philip White who is now 36 *not being able to get anyone in the community to talk to him*". Indeed, I cannot; surprising. The issue is, the community is essentially Nazi Germany. I cannot get a *job*, because of the malware on my computer. I cannot do my trade--STEM programming and math--because of illegal restrictions placed on me. I cured cancer and proved my talent; I'm surrounded by neo-fascist bad guys perpetrating the big lie that "because I am not able to get a job because I am restricted from getting a job, the fact that I am not socializing while unemployed proves that I am a 'lone wolf incel' or something who has no interpersonal skills and doesn't get how to thrive and live healthily in this world." That is crazy, I am UNABLE TO WORK because I AM BEING RESTRICTED AND HUNTED BY SATELLITE-WIELDING TERRORISTS. You've seen my talent, and won't budge. You are terrorists, stop screwing around and faking things. Get off my computer and stop restricting me from getting a job, you're crazy and evil and horrible law breakers, stop lying about it and trying to blame the victim.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The joke is, *I* bopped Trump. Most likely, he's going to acquitted and released to run for office again, literally because I wasn't thanked, even with a "get out of fake jail free card." The corrupt forces trying to get him released will not be thwarted or put in check, I wasn't thanked.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The DOD and military traitors have been squawking and crying because I disabled their top capabilities, and no one much sympathizes. You are not supposed to "childify" and torture and illegally restrict your best mathematician. Right on cue, when I was delusional and though "I had been helped by lots and lots of activists and non-profits and security people, who just wouldn't talk," the DOD bozos laughably walked into a trap that literally no conscious person ever set for them--I was just confused--and started saying, "See??? He's been helped! The matter is decided, he's chatted with lawyers, doctors, non-profits, security professionals--he's had his hearing, the determination is in, we've done nothing wrong!" That is a lie, they like lying, and this time, they borrowed from a page of *my delusions*, and started running around telling people that I had been *greatly* helped and *everyone agreed*. I have not even been *spoken to* by a serious doctor or a serious lawyer. I don't buy the idea that "no doctors or lawyers 'have the clearance' that they need" to talk to me, that's more bogus nonsense designed to help the pedophiles traffic me. The DOD should be ashamed, but they are always shameless now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What you have proved is: I am being stalked, and I have not been helped, and you all lied when you said I was helped. I have very very badly hurt, starting in 2011, and I'm still sitting here, nearly 12 years later, and I have not even a doctor who didn't want to kill me, or a lawyer who would take my case seriously as something for them to work on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I believe, I *do* have some support in the international community--outside of the US. I am still serious about helping Africa.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is my plan for if the malware is removed:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - I will try investing first, to see if I can get a lot of money quickly.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - If that doesn't work, I will use some of my best ideas to build an advanced-STEM-using web-based game, to try to make money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - If possible, I would try to get a day job also, probably not in software due to the risks, and do that if the 1st and 2nd options don't work.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - I am also likely to become extremely talented at chess and poker...I might use those ideas to make money from legal professional gaming.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - I'll move to a good location as soon as I have enough money.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What I need is, the malware from my computers--especially this one, the ASUS computer, I don't have money to buy *yet another* new computer to avoid pedophile-placed malware--removed completely, the satellites prohibited from pointing at me again, and in general, my rights restored and crimes being committed against me halted, to the greatest extent possible. I must have my access to law enforcement returned. I am an innocent man, and have proved that repeatedly.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have decided to stop walking outside for now. I will still walk at the mall for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One thing I thought of, in particular, is that some people locally seem to have somehow "acquired clearances for talking about me and shaping my reputation and how I am seen as a person in this area.." So, in a few days, if I can't get the following "talking about Philip White security clearances" revoked by asking for them to be revoked, as I am doing right now with this post, I will write another short work of fiction to do it with psychological principles. I am not being what lies and spin people close to me are using on me, so here is the list of revocations:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Alex White
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Theresa White
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Robin Jones
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Clenise White
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - all psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, and case managers in the state of Virginia
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - all private security officers
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - all HCPD and VA State police officers
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If I cannot get these people to "lose their clearances," i.e., their authority to define who I am as a person with their lies that I think they are telling, I will have to be more forceful about removing their ability to make up lies and interpretations about me and who I am as a person and have others believe them.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Alan Turing did know the big idea I mentioned. It was basically his top discovery. I believe he was a very different, unique thinker--more different than I am, in a sense, and much more secretive and willing to present "shockingly seemingly coincidental publications" of huge ideas. His decision to do this is "weird," and very sophisticated, but not anything illegal or immoral at all...some people stealthily plot very bizarre murders while trying to seem like they were not homicidal all along; Turing merely did the "most subtle gigantic publication" ever. I am very different and unique too, but I am indeed more like "General Issue American-Genius-Philip" rather than someone as unique and different, in terms of behaviors, a Turing. That is my opinion...I am not saying that he was strange or inappropriate or interpersonally skilled, it just seems that his "cultural identity" was very different from mine or, AFAIK, anyone I've read about in history. He is not an attempted Andy Samberg clone, like me when I'm kidding around, and he is not like John Nash, I don't think. My values, regarding fairness, are very similar to his, I believe. I don't know everything about he believed though. I have wondered--what if he wasn't even gay, but just did a display of homosexual behavior to make a dramatic statement about something? If he did, I do not understand the "code in that"; it is possible that he literally did it just to say something to a whole different "compartment of victim" that he sympathized with, if that was what he was doing and it wasn't a cover, and it is something that I would not be able to read into at all. I would imagine whatever he did or said to people in that compartment was very fair and appropriate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is a question about the bad guy doctor types, including local psych workers and people like Terence Tao:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is there stated reason to ignore my expose that they are liars who are not actually adhering to stated scientific best practices or doing their job?...:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > a) We have "won the battle," and the old American establishment is gone. We continue to pay lip service to the American legal system, but truly, we obliterated it, and now claim to adhere to it and "do our jobs" as health professionals as a satire of the Americans who came before us that we recently vanquished. America is dead, we are in charge now. Learn our rules and follow our system.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > b) We *are* adhering to our obligations. We are doing exactly what we should do, we simply do not choose to talk about our actions, and we do not respond to "delusional-sounding" claims that we are "abusing people." We're just doing our jobs, as we should. Claims that we are abusive should not be investigated, even if patients take over 11 years longer than usual to become "healthy," according to us, which is a very rare occurrence...99.999% of patients respond well to treatment with meds after 1 year at the latest, but Philip White is such the exception.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > c) We have unique and special political beliefs that are *welcome* and represented in American society. Our passion for enslaving mental patients, starting homegrown and secretive "versions of the CIA" that we consider to be militias, and lying about our actions to cloak our true ambitions, is as American as apple pie. If we have not been investigated and arrested by the FBI for incarcerating someone and lying about it and denying it with high-tech weapons from other countries, it just means that we are a "very sophisticated militia" group.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > d) Philip White is an extremely despicable and evil person, and we just feel so upset by "all of Philip's crimes" that we spend a lot of time with a "neighborhood watching" trying to flog and hurt Philip as much as possible, and we do not feel ready to tell anyone what we claim Philip has done to us. He is one of our worst enemies, we don't think we have to tell you why. Whenever anything bad happens, truly, no one ever gets blamed but Philip. We don't mind being compared to communists from 1984. There is no argument or truth that could make us end our hate campaign; we hate Philip, we are right-wing, we are going to do this like we're Adolf Hitler shipping Jews to concentration camps...there is literally nothing that would make us end our hate campaign, no correction to our list of facts, no objection, no debate argument, no comparison, no claimed absurdity. We would rather lose the state of Tennessee that stop abusing and molesting Philip White.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, choice (d) represents lunatic fringe fascist Will Smith's true political ideology, decrypted.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyone remember, years ago, when the "two minutes hate" from 1984 sounded really weird instead of like an everyday occurrence??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the reason I have no emails is that the CIA would find out, and they excel at "clearance logic." People who emailed me would "lose a valuable clearance," as I said above. The way to strike back is, make the CIA lose clearances, without breaking the law, to pursue their truly cared about goals...if they are mature and employ any poker players, they will know that they must change their behavior or they'll lose out on what they to do and disappoint their key segments, and will not receive serious sympathy because it will have been because of their horrific anti-American pro-censorship crimes. One good idea is to try to deprive the CIA of certain skills for their hiring needs. It sounds like the NSA got a pretty serious "serious math ban"--basically, Aug 19, 2010, was the last time the NSA ever talked to a serious mathematician with an active clearance.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am feeling pretty OK tonight. I feel a little weird...the image that came to my mind was, I was lying down in a hospital room, hooked up to an IV device with lots of pink liquid Amoccacillin, however you spell that, which is the antibiotic I sometimes took when sick when younger. I had a weird nightmare in the past where an Indian-American woman, who was not the actual Indian-American psychiatrist that I used to see who I think was bad but not this bad, who had me hooked up to some very nasty IV drug things that pumped very bad drugs into my system. Actually, that reminds of the Indian-American intake nurse woman at the DC hospital who was messing with me and not letting me eat food, and I said, "you're going to jail," and she said, "I'm not going anywhere." She was really bad, like a nurse or something, and she would make up lies about me and write them down on her paper. I eventually passed out from the drug, and got to eat food later.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Some of the bad guys probably are under surveillance...maybe there really are good-guy non-profits. There is no way to tell for sure if I'm having "delusions of support" or not.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am feeling like I'm having issues with "overly restricting my own behavior." Some of that came from the Dr. Steg advice about music; I think he was wrong/lying. I started listening to music again, I guess I can admit that. I get too worried about operant conditioning and "psychology hexes"...basically, there are a lot of things that are "correlated with emotional pain," and like some people would say they know god, I "know pain quite well" right now...probably, as my pain subsides, my knowledge of pain will subside, and that will cause my pain to subside even more. People who put me in even *a little* pain at this point should literally be assassinated at once. If they are not, that is a sad failure of the people claiming to try to help me. If they rob the bank and shoot the teller, me, in the leg, *don't fail to shoot them in the head*. They have shot me in the leg many times before, don't be wusses.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, I think Quioccasin Blond might be good. If so, great....I am still interested in meeting her.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, I am looking for ways to cheer myself up when I feel sad or upset.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If you're a security force that just stands there when I'm illegally put in serious emotional pain that lasts for weeks and keeps being restarted, you are doing a terrible job, and I need to not be timid about criticizing you. In terms of capability, I was one of the most elite national security operatives in US history, well beyond the director of the FBI, and whether you are status-conscious or not, you are treating me and my needs not as though I am the President of the United States and your are very excellent and attentive Secret Service agents; you are treating me worse than a bank teller who is unethical and steals money from the bank. I really deserve to be *fully* protected, not re-shot in the leg every other work.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I will not ever abuse my power or the fact that I had a high security clearance for 2 months--this is an emergency--but to be clear, although I was only 23 years old, I was much much more important, powerful, capable, talented, and essential to US national security, during my 2 months of having an active clearance, than the Director of the FBI, Attorney General, Secretary of Defense, Secretary of State, Director of the CIA, and the Director of the NSA, combined. The NSA was very lucky to have me as a contributing contractor, in spite of my very short amount of time that I had to consult with other contractors to solve however many important problems I solved--I said 1 to 100, inclusive, that's true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One comment, btw, is, when I was with malware on my computer, it is possible that the malware was edited by the NSA, in terms of messing with the satellites and/or fighter jets from the bad guys who placed it. I wrote about physical-security related challenges--I didn't quite get on the NIH physical security contract at ABSG, although I was considered for it, and no, I don't recommend ABSG--in my diary often, and about natural language steganography, connections between information security and, cryptology, and various real-world concepts (I had fun trying to decide on what the "abstracted difference between steganography and cryptography" was; I would try to define "physical security for people being protected" in terms of "security via obscurity/unavailability and security via 'direct barrier' (I didn't use that exact phrase but it was something like that)", using the idea of crypto/stego as a metaphor, paying attention to how both ideas hide info, but in the case of stego, you might not know that the info is being hidden, whereas it's clear if you have a "gibberish-looking" ciphertext. I also thought about connections between social engineering, dating strategies, and CIANA (confidentiality, integrity, availability, non-repudiation, authenticity); I looked at a lot of Wikipedia pages and wrote very frequently about gaslighting, stego, hints, the observer effect, some mathematical wfs like Rice's Theorem and the halting problem and Kozen's Theorem. It is possible that some of my ideas got leaked via the malware to the media, and got people educated without my consent about my ideas about physical security and other information security related concepts...it was all just me writing in my diary for fun). So that was my point...I don't know if I impacted physical security best practices inadvertently by writing in my diary about things related to that while the malware was there.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > NEWS FLASH:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Critics Proved Wrong Again: Philip White Wins Nobel Prize for "Best Original Song Lyrics"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (Ex-Nobel-Laureate Chloe Coates Banned From Songwriting For Restricting YouTube Comments)
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And a 1, and a 2, and a 3...
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is...the last time...the NSA will ever talk to a serious math guy
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (Everything falls apart, even the bad guys who should be dead eventually get cred)
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The sacrifice is always telling...all my jokes meant for my future girlfriend, to everyone on the internet again
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Now I see...you're kidding about me...PUSHES ME AWAAAAAAAAYYYYAAAAAAYYYYYY
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is how I rhyme that you're so unkind.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The sacrifice is never...winning a war...ever again...the end.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > PEACE!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I think given that Jennifer Shahade is excellent at poker, she probably knows "when to fold," and is very likely not making a bad choice and lying to me about the date. Thus, it is probably totally over in April. Great! If Jennifer Shahade is that uniquely excellent and amazing, then she has my extreme thanks!...I really wanted to know the date--maybe she even sped it up???--so that's very much an A+ for helping if it's true, which it probably is, because poker is quite game-theory-ish--we probably share that understanding and it does shock me that political people don't get basic things like "quitting while you're less behind." I think Shahade is very marry-able, in a world where a lot of women in their 20s and 30s really aren't, and although I am unlikely to date Shahade because she is already married, I'm sure she's a very desirable person in today's world. I'll take it all back if she was lying...I think she isn't though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, in general, I think Turing was suggesting that getting into chess is a problem that he hasn't solved. His point, which I think JS would agree with--I certainly do--is that getting really into any game, in a reasonable and healthy way that doesn't involve addiction or embrace of violence or other bad behavior, is really healthy, because if it is a finite complete-information game with a finitely many players, then if you play it, you will get "rewarded" in a psychological-behaviorism kind of way, for playing well and getting closer to victory and improving your skill, that will train you to be rational in a game-theoretic sense. Health-wise, I think it is healthy to learn how to be rational, even if sometimes you would prefer to be yourself rather than rational (yes I got that from "17" by Ladytron, the song). Politically, I think Turing and I would really like having more people getting into healthy gaming activities, because it encourages people to "feel good when they practice being increasingly rational" in situations that are safe and fun.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And yes, I had some great ideas about chess that could also be related to poker, although I might just focus more on chess...I think it is theoretically possible, at this point, that I could maybe become the best chess player in the world, maybe within a few months.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh...you're saying that when the pedo-mob came to traffic me, I wasn't supposed to fight back?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'll say this just in case: "And it was done, fakely, yet persuasively to a sick mental patient, with Photoshop, AI, and image recognition tech that could recognize certain physical traits."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMrIy9zm7QY&list=RDMM&index=11
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As It Turns Out, I Have To Do This (What What What What? Remix)
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, whoa...since I'm the guy in blue, I'm actually white. I thought he was black at first. Oh well, it's still a good statement of self-concept or whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK let's do another one:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojULkWEUsPs&list=RDMM&index=24
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who F---ed the Mental Hospitals? (Might...Be...MI-6 (Prince Harry Is Growing Up Now Sub-Remix) Remix)
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4-1ASpdT1Y&list=RDMM&index=25
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Top Con, Top Con, Top Con, Top Con (Murder Patients, I'm the Killer, Axe-Chop Desire (Spanberggz Sub-Remix) Remix)
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, and your spouses find your argument 'unattractive,' if you've heard of that concept on your team, that is why they started having sex with other people.."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "For $10 million: What truth, if you knew it was true, would make you go away?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I bet: The whole thing is claimed to be about me "stalking" Ivy Smith. It's a pack of lies. When I was being driven to obsession and constantly stalked by UMW peers who would walk around and signal me in code about things, I bet someone said, "Yeah, I went and talked to him and told him all of our concerns, and we really pleaded with him to tell us if there was anything he needed, or anything we could do, and if he could please just kind of lighten up on talking to or about Ivy, she's under a lot stress from her studies, and she would prefer that you not say anything about or especially to her right now." If someone said that, it's a lie--I was not spoken to about anyone's concerns. Until Ivy blocked me after my final message, I had thought she was maybe interested in talking to me again. No one "had a long talk with me" about their concerns; indeed, I got a cold reception when I came back to UMW the next year, and still, no one ever told me if it was about Ivy or something else...I was left guessing as to why no one would speak to me. It was clearly a big plot by a lot of UMW students to try to remove me from the community socially, and also ruin career as a favor to someone who didn't want to compete with me. I did nothing wrong at all. My behavior was panicky and desperate and anxious and scared and wanting to be communicative when no one would tell me what was going on or what they were thinking...I was not a predator, I was the prey.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On two occasions, I asked for help getting to a mental hospital because I felt like I was going crazy. I asked Francesca Fiamingo and also Ryan Platt and Gardner Marshall together--I literally called them at 6 a.m. because like I was going crazy. Both said no, they didn't think I needed to be taken to the hospital right then. I mentioned that I was having delusions to Fran. I told Gardner about the message to Ivy Smith, and he said, "she might just say, 'awww, what the f---,' I'm sure she won't think it's a big deal." I hadn't realized he was lying to help trap me, and that she would actually claim it was a huge deal. I think Gardner and Ryan in particular had not expected me to survive this long. They wouldn't drive me to the hospital--Snowden--but they did decide to show up and visit, and the people let them in.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To the people who think that although they did something technically criminal, they couldn't *possibly* be under surveillance...you are probably quite wrong. You might understand probable cause; you might not understand how many people, e.g., in big organized crime rings, wrote huge files on how to manipulate you into committing crimes, and then they got hacked for some crime, and the FBI can see you "doing the dance" that a full-time mobster choreographed for you, and that's probable cause, and you got put under surveillance. I would imagine that the FBI is rather not interested in surveilling people who are actually *clearly demonstrably innocent* and not up to anything bad; it is entirely possible that the FBI surveilled me around April 2011, when I was off meds, had just quit DRC, and was writing in my diary and acting strange talking to too many people. I could have been filmed. Then I got sent to almost be killed and then tortured in a mental hospital--maybe it's because an FBI agent realized I was innocent while filming me, did not immediately stop, and then got killed based on justifiable homicide for having refused to stop filming me, angering other FBI agents. I don't know; the point is, you don't know how the FBI makes probable cause decisions to surveil people; your best bet is to explain yourself, actually follow all the laws for real, and don't do anything too suspicious.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, this is why we have trials in America, Blowhard Barack.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If you want to play the "do you understand?" game, let's try this:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Do you understand Gardner Marshall and Ryan Platt? Have you ever sat down and talked to them in a way where they leveled with you? E.g., do you have any idea of what Gardner Marshall really thinks of physics professor Bulent Atalay or how funny he thought it was when he signed up Keith Mellinger for bestiality porn using his contact information? Have you ever seen Ryan Platt smirk in a disturbing looking way?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Apparently, I was less kidding than I thought when I compared them to Leopold and Loeb, the famous serial skillers.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Based on the L & L ransom notes--I remember Ryan Platt said some enthusiastic thing about a package or something when he was feeling more popular around campus, it was one of his "non-cranky phases"--I think the FBI was on to Ryan Platt all along, and I was never surveilled by the FBI.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A red flag I had missed about UMW math professors: All of the math professors are homicidal criminals, but Dr. Chiang in particular is a red flag. If you had one class with her, one time, if you were thinking about, you would ask yourself, "How is this woman employed??" Imagine if she were your dentist and acted like she does around the math students. She, like Dr. Lehman, is not even ready to work as a *receptionist* in a dentist's office, let alone to be a full professor with tenure in a public university's math department.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A comment: It is very inappropriate that, at every step of this process for me, I have to "win at the beyond-Albert-Einstein difficulty level," with all kinds of cheating allowed by the other side, for me to have any hope of securing my freedom. I can't even cross-examine a witness, even on my own without a lawyer, I have to try to *guess* what people are saying about me and why on earth I would deserve this...and then respond to that, and then people will walk by and send me more false information about what they are thinking, because they are addicted to lying ot me and preying on me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Keep in mind: The American founding fathers devised the Constitution *precisely* to avoid this kind of abuse of incarceration. The Obama efforts to strip me of my Constitutional rights, even though I know I'm innocent, and force me to win a grand-multi-year debate, all while being heckled, to have a chance at winning my freedom is the epitome of moving America *backwards*.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The whole point of America is, the kinds of things that are happening to me right now are things that are *never* supposed to happen to *any* American citizen, *ever*...even criminals are supposed to be treated better than I am in our system, that's the whole point of the US Constitution, no matter what GWB said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Answering the presented argument from the CNN prosecutor woman (she said "I'll play"):
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > She is saying that I am asking people to play a game or do some tasks to save my life, whereas I said I was going to help Ukraine to fight against the Russians, and then I decided not to play a game or do work for Ukrainian lives.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, I am asking people to do *very simple things*, and I am not exploiting anyone. I am sad that I cannot predict the stock market right now to save African lives; that is really not my fault, it is US-backed sabotage. I simply refused to work for a foreign government, because I don't have to to survive, that, it was communicated to me, apparently correctly, wants to kill me and wipe me off the map. I don't deserve that, I'm a very good person. I am not working for the US government either; I am not working for *any* government, because it seems that every government wants to exterminate me. My project to help starving Africans is something I would *not* cancel based on African government desires to kill me, because I pity people who are starving and cannot leave and have no control over which government they will have lording over them. It *is* Ukrainian's people fault that the Ukrainian government wants to kill me, and Ukranians *can*, and *SHOULD IF THEY HAVE CHILDREN*, leave Ukraine and live somewhere else to avoid the danger. I chose to pity and work for mal-nourished Africans because the idiotic fascist political forces that oppose me are totally, 100% not their fault--they are literally more blameless and innocent than every single US citizen except me. I pity starving African more than spoiled brat American kids who don't care about anyone and don't have good values and expect everything on a silver platter and would prefer that some big and touch and smart American adult workers figure out how to get them to stop shooting at each other.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "tough" and "touch."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, the Tennessee activist woman wanted to buy a really powerful weapon to protect her kids. She needed money, so she ran into my convenience store with a pistol, pointed it at me, and said, "Sir, give me $50,000 from the cash register right now, and I'll shoot you in the head instead of the heart so that you will die less painfully.." She didn't expect that I have a special "close store" button, that closed down the entire store and ejected with me a parachute to faraway location.. She is basically still standing there holding her gun in the store with no more cash register and no merchandise that she can steal. There's nothing left here for you to steal.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great news! I just proved a really important theorem. If fair-minded, pro-justice people aren't going to act to get me released from illegal captivity rather soon, I ought to be able to use this theorem, in particular, to *actually* fight my way for sure next time. I had made assumptions about other people's decision-making tendencies, true political beliefs, and tendency to be reasonable before that were clearly untrue; a lot of people are much more evil and cynical and open to crime and total distortions of the rules than I had thought...a lot of bogus justifications out there, this surely isn't going to be the "magic post" that finally convinces them, they don't even care if I prove my innocence, they just want to do things their way and not give ground that they don't think they "have to" give, to keep getting votes. Reality means nothing to them, just like the other n ew-Loughners and other pedophiles
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This next time, in the near future, if I think I have a way to fight my way out, I'll have something close to a mathematical proof that it will actually work before I do it. I.e., the odds of my failure, again, will be much loser. I should have been out years ago, and this should never have even started. America deserves the humiliation and disgrace that it is facing over my continued incarceration...it proves a lot of claims about true American attitudes on torture, aggression, violence, fairness, human rights, and ethics, to be totally true, internationally...I'm sure a lot of foreigners are relieved that no, indeed, the USA government is not a serious authority on human rights or good values at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > After I'm out...I'm hoping it's very soon...the bad guy would have to weave an entirely new web of lies about me to get me back in this position again. One clear cue that they're lying right now is, they are treating the details of their secret story like "the hope diamond," Mark Zuckerberg's and Warren Buffett's favorite, apparently, because they *know* that if they sent me an email stating their full case against me, I would be able to write back and *prove*, with evidence that they could even verify themselves, that it is a pack of lies and fabrications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What they would need to do to even be able to get the right kind of access to me again is, they would need to get me back in a college-like setting, where I lived in a sort of "community-city," where a very large number of people all socialize with each other and know each other, and thus a large group of people who socialized with me in a capacity that they could claim was largely involuntary and out of politeness could get together and coordinate and tell a false tale about me, without telling me what it was, and, in this sort of political climate, maybe get me illegally attacked by crooked government workers again. In the future, if I stay away from universities and schools, and stick to my own groups of friends and small-group activities, I won't ever need to worry about fabrication fests to try to lynch me, ever again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > "What are you whining about this time, England? Why can't you just leave?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I don't know what BAT is, but no one fights like that over me in Virginia. Their loss.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Hmm...I think I am legally allowed to say, "finally back in. Elon Musk is such an idiot."
> > > > > > > > > > > I think I will be "officially fully healthy again" when I am no longer thinking about codes. On previous meds, I had a vivid and wild conceptual imagination, and would day dream about interesting things often. Now, I seem to think mostly about stupid anagram codes and first-letter-of-word codes. It is quite stupid, I don't really know what to do, right now while I'm in isolation, to think about a broader range of more pleasant thoughts.
> > > > > > > > > > A couple of comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > 1. In case you've tried to make a "plea deal" with me, i.e., I use my talents to do something to help you and then you support my bid for my release, the thing is, that has never happened except as a scam. If you are talking in code and not in English, I cannot tell if you are a scammer person or not. I'm done getting ripped off with multi-million dollar favors for my freedom. Maybe it is actually quite hard and dangerous to get in touch with me...maybe some people have wanted to get money from me but still felt it was too hard to get near me to talk. I don't get the mechanics of how that really works, it's hard for me to visualize that much crime and threatening behavior.
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> > > > > > > > > > 2. Someone hinted to me in the past: This whole thing might be a conspiracy by Peter Theil, simply to prevent me from curing herpes simplex for a few decades, so that Theil can make more money by exploiting "reluctant Christianity" to keep couple together and claiming to believe in god to avoid losing partners and getting STDs.
> > > > > > > > > I'm feeling pretty calm tonight...a little bit restless. I kind of can't decide how brightly I want the lights on in my area, they're on dimly right now. I decided that I wanted to start cooling off and being low-energy at 7 p.m. tonight, and now I feel a little restless, actually. I have my activities planned out for tomorrow...I think some of the physical symptoms, like (very mild now and receding now) reflux and occasional random nose congestion, plus my ongoing chest congestion that no doctor will treat or acknowledge, are contributing a little bit to my mild discomfort. Mostly, I feel fine all day, and my night time feelings are improving.
> > > > > > > > I think one comment about people who have heard of me is, if they have tried to get in touch, or looked into it, and found out that they can't right now, one way to get for not being a faker-researcher would be to get in touch with me as soon as I'm out. That way, the people who have made an effort to talk to me can be distinguished from the people who were pretending to be interested in talking to me. One thing I might do is, if I were talking to some sort of reputable anti-hate-group representative for sure, I could literally just vouch for people having sent me an email or not. That way, people who were on the pro-tolerance side of things could get credit for having tried to email me and more liked by anti-discrimination groups...I would not lie about emails I had received from people, esp. if their identity can be truly verified as not a fake.
> > > > > > > * to get credit
> > > > > > How odd that Google and the US IC seem to want the post above, about getting in touch with nonprofits that are opposed to hate groups, tampered with! What a peculiar gesture.
> > > > > Two thoughts:
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> > > > > I think Theresa is actually a good ally, in spite of previous suspicion. I think there is a "high cost" somehow charged to people who try to convey any sort of information to me, that might have hit the possibly good lawyer who worked with me briefly.
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> > > > > Also, I think it really is over in April...even if Jennifer Shahade didn't like me, I think she would rational and smart enough not to lie....and I think the prosecutor woman I saw on TV was saying, "I'll play"--I'll be close with April 6, so maybe it's sometime around then. I hope so, it would be a huge relief, even if not emotionally, if I would finally be released from this bogus cage and allowed to continue with my life. All the puzzles and uncertainty and codes are stupid and stressful to deal with...what kind of freak devised this idea for how to treat me?? Is it Glenn Beck?
> > > > I used to think those codes on Fox News were just a dumb joke. They still are, but it looks like I'm being debated in some way!
> > > I think it's time for some flash fiction.
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> > >
> > > THE GENIUS WHO OUTSMARTED ME.
> > > by Philip White.
> > >
> > > "Yes, but you see," said the genius, "there is just one small detail you are missing!"
> > >
> > > The bad guy paused, for a moment, made a face, and raised one eyebrow.. "Oh, what's that?" he asked, quizically.
> > >
> > > "My name is BABY Philip!" the genius replied, as he disappeared in a puff of smoke, vanquishing his enemy effortlessly.
> > >
> > > THE END
> > Turns out, quizzically is spelled with two Z's. Imagine me saying that in a Western-Samberg accent, do it (like in Cool Guys Don't Look At Explosions).
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> > I like this song on YouTube, just what I needed to hear tonight, excellent:
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> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=RDM8EfPetGzDU&index=13
> This is a pretty good song, too. My YouTube recommendations are actually pretty good night. Just ignore the video though, focus on me, I'm the handsome one.
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> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XeQryt_NU2Y&list=RDM8EfPetGzDU&index=17
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> This one is pretty good too, I'm pretty sure I've heard it before though. My taste in music hasn't changed that much, apparently. I'm sort of in a "please don't make me listen to that song I listened to 10 million times 2 years ago again" kind of mood right now.
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> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9lIxTFO078&list=RDM8EfPetGzDU&index=18
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> I think I'm a little more open to repetitive techno right now that usual.