whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?

we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
>
> we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?

The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.

Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.

On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:37:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
>
> we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?

I have a comment to make about my research career.

I realized, based on what Michael Sipser and Delia said, that there are too many unanswered questions about what was done to me and why. I figured something out recently that suggests that I might have been tortured in a particular way *precisely* to increase my talent at certain key things. If I do not have *the key questions answered*, about who did this to me and why, I indeed must *not* do *any* STEM research *or* fiction publication, until the truth has been communicated to me about why this was done to me.

Thus, my only option for a career, going forward, is going to be stock trading. Since I'm getting increasingly brilliant at science, I might figure out some great ways to predict the stock market *without* using any source code at all.

So, that is probably something I will look into soon...pending *answers to my questions about what this was and who helped do it and why*, if those questions aren't exactly answered, I will *never* do or publish any STEM research, or any fiction. I must know why this conspiracy was launched, or I cannot work in ways that could benefit bad guys, and make them tout their decision to torture me as a great, innovative, highly productive idea. They must fail and extract only very humiliating punishments for what they have done.

On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> >
> > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
>
> Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.

you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.

On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me.. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > >
> > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective..
> >
> > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.

At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > >
> > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > >
> > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.

That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > >
> > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > >
> > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.

The truth is: The so-called 'your truth' is just excuse to cover your failure.
The real truth of your wasted years has manifested it all, you just still don't
realize it, or refuse to....and keeps denying, every day.

Given that 'your truth' is answered, will you still do the 'favorite?' STEM
research? The answer is probably NO. So, stay happy in the bunker. There is no
protection outside.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:19:51 AM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > >
> > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> The truth is: The so-called 'your truth' is just excuse to cover your failure.
> The real truth of your wasted years has manifested it all, you just still don't
> realize it, or refuse to....and keeps denying, every day.
>
> Given that 'your truth' is answered, will you still do the 'favorite?' STEM
> research? The answer is probably NO. So, stay happy in the bunker. There is no
> protection outside.

go away.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:26:11 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:19:51 AM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die..
> > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > The truth is: The so-called 'your truth' is just excuse to cover your failure.
> > The real truth of your wasted years has manifested it all, you just still don't
> > realize it, or refuse to....and keeps denying, every day.
> >
> > Given that 'your truth' is answered, will you still do the 'favorite?' STEM
> > research? The answer is probably NO. So, stay happy in the bunker. There is no
> > protection outside.
> go away.

Somehow you do realize it. But, the remaining conscience make you feel guilty.
So, sinner, you made it (90%) to yourself, harvest the fruit. Choose your way
of the remaining years. Kim is always fair to you.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > >
> > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > >
> > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.

A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk

....I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).

Yes, I am going to completely halt:

- STEM research and publishing it
- writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet

....pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.

I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:

- boxing
- chess

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > >
> > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
>
> ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
>
> Yes, I am going to completely halt:
>
> - STEM research and publishing it
> - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
>
> ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
>
> I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
>
> - boxing
> - chess

(I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die..
> > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> >
> > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> >
> > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> >
> > - STEM research and publishing it
> > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> >
> > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> >
> > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> >
> > - boxing
> > - chess
> (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo

I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.

The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.

I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.

So, yeah...good song.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > >
> > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > >
> > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > >
> > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > >
> > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > >
> > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > >
> > > - boxing
> > > - chess
> > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
>
> I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
>
> The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
>
> I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
>
> So, yeah...good song.

* This song sounds

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > >
> > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > >
> > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > >
> > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > >
> > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading....I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > >
> > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > >
> > > > - boxing
> > > > - chess
> > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> >
> > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> >
> > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> >
> > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> >
> > So, yeah...good song.
> * This song sounds

https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html

Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.

I got, "dr sith."

I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.

Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.

The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.

My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > >
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > >
> > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > >
> > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > >
> > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > >
> > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > >
> > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > >
> > > > > - boxing
> > > > > - chess
> > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > >
> > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > >
> > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > >
> > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > >
> > > So, yeah...good song.
> > * This song sounds
> https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
>
>
> Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
>
>
> I got, "dr sith."
>
> I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
>
> Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
>
> The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
>
> My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
>
> If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
>
> It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
>
> In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > >
> > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > >
> > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > - chess
> > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > >
> > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > >
> > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > >
> > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > >
> > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > * This song sounds
> > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> >
> >
> > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> >
> >
> > I got, "dr sith."
> >
> > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> >
> > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> >
> > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> >
> > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e.., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> >
> > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> >
> > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> >
> > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > >
> > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > >
> > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > >
> > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > >
> > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > * This song sounds
> > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > >
> > >
> > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > >
> > >
> > > I got, "dr sith."
> > >
> > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > >
> > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > >
> > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > >
> > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i..e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > >
> > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > >
> > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > >
> > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
>
> Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more....Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > >
> > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > >
> > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > >
> > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > >
> > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > >
> > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc.., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > >
> > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > >
> > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> >
> > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022..
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > >
> > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > >
> > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > >
> > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > >
> > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > >
> > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > >
> > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > >
> > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > >
> > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
>
> I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
>
> I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
>
> I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
>
> I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg.. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > > >
> > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
> >
> > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
> >
> > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
> >
> > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
> >
> > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
>
> The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
>
> Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
>
> - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> - Startstruck by 3oh3
> - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
>
> I also still kind of like this one:
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
>
> ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
>
> I usually like this one:
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
>
> ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
>
> I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
>
> Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
>
> Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
>
> I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
>
> Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:51:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > > > >
> > > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
> > >
> > > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
> > >
> > > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
> > >
> > > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
> > >
> > > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> > Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
> >
> > The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
> >
> > Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
> >
> > - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> > - Startstruck by 3oh3
> > - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> > - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
> >
> > I also still kind of like this one:
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
> >
> > ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
> >
> > I usually like this one:
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
> >
> > ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
> >
> > I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
> >
> > Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> > Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> > Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> > Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
> >
> > Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
> >
> > I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
> >
> > Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above.
> https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/30/us/cleveland-texas-shooting-sunday/index.html
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxb6RFh3BCw
>
> Oh, law enforcement has another question? It's called "sear o quill," isn't it? FBI shows up for someone else kidding kidnapped? Sure, I'll accept the title "Mr. M Branch." It's not a mark of shame, you FBI idiots in particular are *extremely outrageous*. If I have a kid someday and tell my kid, "I did not nothing wrong, but son, take a look over here at these FBI agents who are going around people who are dumber than us and we didn't do anything wrong, but guess what? The FBI agents in this photo *do not serve our kind*." Is that what you want me to tell my kids?
>
> No, I don't care much about your stupid problems. The military person came walking in looking all serious and stern into the Walmart to signal that "Philip White IP is just not we military geniuses-in-our-own-minds can accept," so now you don't have it, so you're dying, as you were warned you would. I do care more about Alexei Navalny than you outrageous cowardly critical-thinking-immune prejudiced extremely hurtful and traumatizing idiots. You're criminals too, you just insulate yourselves and show the world that you always just "go home calmly at 5 or whatever and make dinner like anyone else" and you just try to use the fact that you don't *act like* convicts in federal prison to present yourselves as something you are not--remotely law-abiding or ethical or moral, *at all*. You are horrible people!

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:52:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:51:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > > > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
> > > >
> > > > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
> > > >
> > > > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
> > > >
> > > > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
> > > >
> > > > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> > > Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
> > >
> > > The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
> > >
> > > Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
> > >
> > > - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> > > - Startstruck by 3oh3
> > > - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> > > - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
> > >
> > > I also still kind of like this one:
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
> > >
> > > ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
> > >
> > > I usually like this one:
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
> > >
> > > ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
> > >
> > > I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
> > >
> > > Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> > > Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> > > Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> > > Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
> > >
> > > Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
> > >
> > > I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
> > >
> > > Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above.
> > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/30/us/cleveland-texas-shooting-sunday/index..html
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxb6RFh3BCw
> >
> > Oh, law enforcement has another question? It's called "sear o quill," isn't it? FBI shows up for someone else kidding kidnapped? Sure, I'll accept the title "Mr. M Branch." It's not a mark of shame, you FBI idiots in particular are *extremely outrageous*. If I have a kid someday and tell my kid, "I did not nothing wrong, but son, take a look over here at these FBI agents who are going around people who are dumber than us and we didn't do anything wrong, but guess what? The FBI agents in this photo *do not serve our kind*." Is that what you want me to tell my kids?
> >
> > No, I don't care much about your stupid problems. The military person came walking in looking all serious and stern into the Walmart to signal that "Philip White IP is just not we military geniuses-in-our-own-minds can accept," so now you don't have it, so you're dying, as you were warned you would. I do care more about Alexei Navalny than you outrageous cowardly critical-thinking-immune prejudiced extremely hurtful and traumatizing idiots. You're criminals too, you just insulate yourselves and show the world that you always just "go home calmly at 5 or whatever and make dinner like anyone else" and you just try to use the fact that you don't *act like* convicts in federal prison to present yourselves as something you are not--remotely law-abiding or ethical or moral, *at all*. You are horrible people!
> * going around helping

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:02:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:52:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:51:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May.. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > > > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > > > > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
> > > > >
> > > > > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
> > > > >
> > > > > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
> > > > >
> > > > > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> > > > Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
> > > >
> > > > The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
> > > >
> > > > Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
> > > >
> > > > - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> > > > - Startstruck by 3oh3
> > > > - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> > > > - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
> > > >
> > > > I also still kind of like this one:
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
> > > >
> > > > ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
> > > >
> > > > I usually like this one:
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
> > > >
> > > > ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
> > > >
> > > > I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
> > > >
> > > > Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> > > > Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> > > > Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> > > > Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
> > > >
> > > > Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
> > > >
> > > > I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
> > > >
> > > > Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above.
> > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/30/us/cleveland-texas-shooting-sunday/index.html
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxb6RFh3BCw
> > >
> > > Oh, law enforcement has another question? It's called "sear o quill," isn't it? FBI shows up for someone else kidding kidnapped? Sure, I'll accept the title "Mr. M Branch." It's not a mark of shame, you FBI idiots in particular are *extremely outrageous*. If I have a kid someday and tell my kid, "I did not nothing wrong, but son, take a look over here at these FBI agents who are going around people who are dumber than us and we didn't do anything wrong, but guess what? The FBI agents in this photo *do not serve our kind*." Is that what you want me to tell my kids?
> > >
> > > No, I don't care much about your stupid problems. The military person came walking in looking all serious and stern into the Walmart to signal that "Philip White IP is just not we military geniuses-in-our-own-minds can accept," so now you don't have it, so you're dying, as you were warned you would. I do care more about Alexei Navalny than you outrageous cowardly critical-thinking-immune prejudiced extremely hurtful and traumatizing idiots. You're criminals too, you just insulate yourselves and show the world that you always just "go home calmly at 5 or whatever and make dinner like anyone else" and you just try to use the fact that you don't *act like* convicts in federal prison to present yourselves as something you are not--remotely law-abiding or ethical or moral, *at all*. You are horrible people!
> > * going around helping
> https://www.reuters.com/world/europe/scores-world-figures-urge-putin-free-navalny-open-letter-2023-04-28/
>
> Interesting photo of Navalny. There is probably nothing I can say to help..
>
> What sort of American civil servant does he look like? It seems he might get the cue from the Putin photo--VVP looks like a "thoughtful conservative scholar," with some unique beliefs and an interesting outlook, according to him, and a particular avenue of research that feels really interesting. It is the Cheney-Rumsfeld subordinate civil servant caricature that I came to scoff at derisively--the fake scholar who has like a 14 year old's understanding of things, but keeps getting promotions and awards for that *unique interesting conservative outlook*, I won't say "sauce" as idiot Bernie Sanders would.
>
> I don't know if Putin understands the satire--he might intend it that way, it is a pretty good satire of Western think tanks and the sort of Seinfeld-character like nature of a lot of the middle-aged white men who work there, esp. the ones who are enthusiastic about something technical.
>
> Anyway, I would sort of say, NSWC Dahlgren, in theory. No one much actually looked like that in the photo. At the same time, NSWC Dahlgren people were more properly behaved and "normal" for the most part. TexelTek was like a mentally ill organized-crime going-away party, maybe not even just for me.. Some of the people at ABSG were inappropriate, but they didn't seem wildly out there...Stenzler was into smearing me, Mark Krempley would say oddly obviously inaccurate things sometimes, Tori Daniel would make weird faces, Duane Boniface acted very friendly at first ("I've heard a lot of really great things about you") and then suddenly acted very cantankerous when I got sick of working with Brandon Lee on the busy-work "sea critters database filling in" contract for the Coast Guard and told Duane, through Jake who insisted on being the one to carry the message, that I was dropping working on that contract, which meant I was done working overtime. Anyway, DRC was mostly normal, but the people were like "sort of youthful looking/acting programmer jocks," more than anyone who would look like an "intellectual Roger Moore" or something, spending a lot of time doing some complicated technical task or genuinely important scholarly study. So...yeah...NSWC Dahlgren had Bill Strohecker, the very difficult guy who would deliberately start verbal fights, like once or twice, with me. I think I handled them well and didn't react in an upset way, which was probably his goal, maybe along with "male parenting style research" for whatever reason. I heard a racist comment or two. Basically, I would fit the hypothetical Navalny look guy at NSWC Dahlgren, but not in the system safety trailer-building. Maybe it's not really a trailer, but it reminded me of the trailer for 5th grade with Mr. Davis (I wound up skipping 5th grade) at White Oaks, but a bit bigger.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:04:07 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:02:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:52:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:51:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others.. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ..."
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > > > > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > > > > > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did.. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> > > > > Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
> > > > >
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
> > > > >
> > > > > The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
> > > > >
> > > > > Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
> > > > >
> > > > > - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> > > > > - Startstruck by 3oh3
> > > > > - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> > > > > - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
> > > > >
> > > > > I also still kind of like this one:
> > > > >
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
> > > > >
> > > > > ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
> > > > >
> > > > > I usually like this one:
> > > > >
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
> > > > >
> > > > > ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
> > > > >
> > > > > Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> > > > > Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> > > > > Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> > > > > Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
> > > > >
> > > > > Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
> > > > >
> > > > > I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
> > > > >
> > > > > Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above.
> > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/30/us/cleveland-texas-shooting-sunday/index.html
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxb6RFh3BCw
> > > >
> > > > Oh, law enforcement has another question? It's called "sear o quill," isn't it? FBI shows up for someone else kidding kidnapped? Sure, I'll accept the title "Mr. M Branch." It's not a mark of shame, you FBI idiots in particular are *extremely outrageous*. If I have a kid someday and tell my kid, "I did not nothing wrong, but son, take a look over here at these FBI agents who are going around people who are dumber than us and we didn't do anything wrong, but guess what? The FBI agents in this photo *do not serve our kind*." Is that what you want me to tell my kids?
> > > >
> > > > No, I don't care much about your stupid problems. The military person came walking in looking all serious and stern into the Walmart to signal that "Philip White IP is just not we military geniuses-in-our-own-minds can accept," so now you don't have it, so you're dying, as you were warned you would. I do care more about Alexei Navalny than you outrageous cowardly critical-thinking-immune prejudiced extremely hurtful and traumatizing idiots. You're criminals too, you just insulate yourselves and show the world that you always just "go home calmly at 5 or whatever and make dinner like anyone else" and you just try to use the fact that you don't *act like* convicts in federal prison to present yourselves as something you are not--remotely law-abiding or ethical or moral, *at all*. You are horrible people!
> > > * going around helping
> > https://www.reuters.com/world/europe/scores-world-figures-urge-putin-free-navalny-open-letter-2023-04-28/
> >
> > Interesting photo of Navalny. There is probably nothing I can say to help.
> >
> > What sort of American civil servant does he look like? It seems he might get the cue from the Putin photo--VVP looks like a "thoughtful conservative scholar," with some unique beliefs and an interesting outlook, according to him, and a particular avenue of research that feels really interesting. It is the Cheney-Rumsfeld subordinate civil servant caricature that I came to scoff at derisively--the fake scholar who has like a 14 year old's understanding of things, but keeps getting promotions and awards for that *unique interesting conservative outlook*, I won't say "sauce" as idiot Bernie Sanders would.
> >
> > I don't know if Putin understands the satire--he might intend it that way, it is a pretty good satire of Western think tanks and the sort of Seinfeld-character like nature of a lot of the middle-aged white men who work there, esp. the ones who are enthusiastic about something technical.
> >
> > Anyway, I would sort of say, NSWC Dahlgren, in theory. No one much actually looked like that in the photo. At the same time, NSWC Dahlgren people were more properly behaved and "normal" for the most part. TexelTek was like a mentally ill organized-crime going-away party, maybe not even just for me. Some of the people at ABSG were inappropriate, but they didn't seem wildly out there...Stenzler was into smearing me, Mark Krempley would say oddly obviously inaccurate things sometimes, Tori Daniel would make weird faces, Duane Boniface acted very friendly at first ("I've heard a lot of really great things about you") and then suddenly acted very cantankerous when I got sick of working with Brandon Lee on the busy-work "sea critters database filling in" contract for the Coast Guard and told Duane, through Jake who insisted on being the one to carry the message, that I was dropping working on that contract, which meant I was done working overtime. Anyway, DRC was mostly normal, but the people were like "sort of youthful looking/acting programmer jocks," more than anyone who would look like an "intellectual Roger Moore" or something, spending a lot of time doing some complicated technical task or genuinely important scholarly study. So...yeah...NSWC Dahlgren had Bill Strohecker, the very difficult guy who would deliberately start verbal fights, like once or twice, with me. I think I handled them well and didn't react in an upset way, which was probably his goal, maybe along with "male parenting style research" for whatever reason. I heard a racist comment or two. Basically, I would fit the hypothetical Navalny look guy at NSWC Dahlgren, but not in the system safety trailer-building. Maybe it's not really a trailer, but it reminded me of the trailer for 5th grade with Mr. Davis (I wound up skipping 5th grade) at White Oaks, but a bit bigger.
> Basically, Navalny's face in that photo captures a good approximation of one possible "face of a normal middle-aged American man," i.e., someone I wouldn't have been seeing too much of anywhere in my daily life physically or on the news or TV anywhere. Most of the men I see are stranger and less responsible-looking.

On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:08:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:04:07 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 5:02:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:52:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 4:51:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:55:57 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 3:26:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:45:47 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:38:29 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:19:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 1:12:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:51:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:50:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:43:35 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:42:52 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:34 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 12:05:08 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 11:42:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 29, 2023 at 10:56:05 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sunday, April 30, 2023 at 10:37:58 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > whoa, i just thought of the joke! did you see it too, baby wij? want to be enemies, still? i accept. the only thing that has really been compressed other than data is...samsung!!!! hahahaha! who is next? which leader of which asian country (i CANNOT let myself talk like you, you're incorrigible too) should die next, you pick? i think india and pakistan are ok with me. here's my bad list, pick from these: china, japan, south korea, north korea, taiwan. if there are any juicy ones left, they ain't protestin loud enough about you and me and what i've "taken you over," in the bot sense, to help with me! c'mon, wij bot, kill! kill the fascist asian country leaders, kill them all! as tales of symphonia would always say, "go my minion, strike!" also, "samsung and japan boy are not enough!" karin stranz was a reptile too, like mitch mcconnell (curses! they missed!) and republican hag woman who died. whom will you make your next kill, corporation or repitle?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > we are both not too sensitive about this sort of thing, are we?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The law: Philip shall be detained, enslaved and tortured in Tuckahoe Zoo Prison
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > until a working compression algorithm is presented, life-long effective.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Despite how aggressive this talking snake is.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tuckahoe Zoo is due to re-open from 1 May. For the safety of tourists and the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > creatures inside, don't feed, don't release them, they will die.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > you and your countrymen are facing a very increased probability of death.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, short of a death penalty ban, there is literally no way for JRB, MRW, MM, or various other people in politics to avoid living for more than 6 more decades at most, even if some sort of resurrection of them happens.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is almost certainly also true of Mark Zuckerberg. He has no way to survive at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice reaction to browsing the internet more than I had planned to:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v50YakKwlYk
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ...I am starting to like this song more. I always over-listen to it, and think of the people who likely caught me singing it in the music building in 2007 (possibly also Winter 2006) while I was taking voice lessons and made fun of me. I also sang Wonderwall by Oasis often. I did the assigned songs, too. Anyway, I am feeling, psychologically, less embarrassed by it, and more excited by my future. I feel amused and embarrassed that I like that song that much. There are few other songs that are that good and that sound like this one; I have a good sense of it, and also have some very good ideas about music, somewhere; I could make songs as good as this one, I just don't really want to get involved in that. For some reason, of all the things I'm truly great at, in terms of potential or anything else, making music is the thing I'm least interested in. I think I totally lost interest in the performance arts after my hospitalization in April 2007 (I think I was hospitalized twice at Snowden in that same month).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, I am going to completely halt:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - STEM research and publishing it
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing fiction and publishing it...I have great new ideas that I haven't really tried out yet
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ...pending a full and clear explanation of what happened. I will try the new OS soon. If that doesn't work, I'll pursue science-based trading...I recently thought of amazing new ideas about that too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I will be doing these two things in addition to my investing ideas that I'll do for money:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - boxing
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - chess
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > (I am not saying anyone actually made fun of me, I just imagined that they might have, I could sort of visualize that.)
> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oiu3PpelxWo
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I am still impressed with this song...it was great that Faderhead spoke to me briefly on Twitter, I still appreciate that! I hope he does not actually do MDMA, illegal drugs are really bad and dangerous, it's like giving yourself a mental illness, even marijuana, and it's not as sympathy-provoking as a real mental illness.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The songs a little different to me. I remember the first time I was put on Adderall as a freshman in HS...all my songs sounded different, I think it literally was just the medication that changed which parts of the tracks "jumped out at me more," if you visualized it on one of those music programs like FL Studio, you would know what I mean.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I feel l like "the bad guys tore me a new one," like they ripped a hole in my throat and I survived, and now, I can "talk like this" more...Pandora recommended this song a while back, along with others. I still have that inner gruff cynical way of thinking/speaking now, like a new "power" or way of thinking. I know enough about something or other to know that I should fear that that re-shaping of me could have been a serious, well-studied, even highly predictable effort to manipulate my way of being creative and thinking about art and science. I really hope the CIA wackos won't try it on anyone else. Also, yes, I'm on my guard, and extremely prepared to *adamantly refuse*, except in case of serious desperation, to output more fiction or STEM, until the truth about why this was done is revealed, and how it was funded, and the bad guys are put in jail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah...good song.
> > > > > > > > > > > > * This song sounds
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/27/entertainment/the-kardashians-season-3-trailer/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > Kim is also seen in sobs toward the beginning of the trailer, which was released on Thursday, as she tells her sister Khloe Kardashian, “I’m having such a hard day today.” The Skims founder is then seen reflecting on the moment when her and her now ex-husband Kanye “Ye” West’s divorce was finalized in November 2022.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I got, "dr sith."
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> > > > > > > > > > > I can help with this. I hope that I will not be exploited and that I am not being exploited right now by someone who does not deserve my help based on past efforts to prey on me or get things from me. I would like to be thanked, contacted, liberated. People who want to say they truly helped me, for real and not just posturing, ought to claim credit in public or by contacting me directly in English, and explain at least vaguely how the person helped me. That way, I won't feel scammed.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, if Kim Kardashian is worried about doctors researching how to "turn her children into hateful extremists," I have good advice on deterring this, from a hidden source I will not reveal. I am feeling pleased, even spiritual in an atheist way, about my new great ideas. Indeed, that is the concern.
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> > > > > > > > > > > The issue is, in addition to teaching your kids to adhere to all established rules, strictly, even if your emotions go out of whack, and also trying to figure out ways to avoid "toxic influences" on your emotions--I claim, adamantly, if someone is a good person to keep around, whether you care for the person or not, in order to qualify as "still on your friends list," so to speak, the person *must* be willing to be brought to the table to have a serious conversation about ways to change their behavior to address serious issues with bothering your sensitivities, even if they are totally bonkers/irrational sensitivities, like "turning the light on in the kitchen between 4:00 p.m. and 5:00 p.m.", or the person is not trying hard enough to win the ability to maintain your friendship...so you can still love/like the person if the *serious conversation*, which could include debate and gentle arguments about what is reasonable/appropriate, and be glad the person is not dead, but I say, do not let people walk on you to maintain a friendship--that you might be worried (continuing from above) that someone might be manipulating or hurting your kids to get them to do something.
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> > > > > > > > > > > My adamant position is: If there is *any* chance that your kids (or you) have been altered, psychologically, by *serious non-consensual pain*--i.e., anything bad that happened to you that might have changed how you think or feel or interact with the world, then you *must* require yourself to *refuse* to output anything from "new talents" that you have, unless you are desperate or unable to control yourself, until the perpetrators have been brought to justice.
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> > > > > > > > > > > If you are a parent, you can decide for your kids if the pain was *too much*, and your kids can decide too once they're grown up.. In general, without the explanation and effort to identify why the pain was caused, what talents it was supposed to increase or decrease in your children, you (or your parent if you are a kid) *must* refuse to output anything that constitutes *important work*, positive or negative, in certain areas. That is, if someone essentially *raped you in a certain way*, without your consent and in a way that you have deemed *extremely bothersome/painful enough for you to have crossed what you claim to be a line*, then you must *refuse to make porn scenes* until you can identify exactly how you were changed psychologically or otherwise...if social connections were deleted or abused, etc., in support of the "talent-ify so-and-so" project, then you need a full, exhaustive explanation of what happened, or you might wind up giving a big sinister jackal-investor a big payoff for having literally tortured you, and the only way to deny that payoff, in a world without serious law enforcement, is to become a big black hole and refuse to output from the "main infected departments" of your mind and capabilities that you think might have been empowered by the torture--you must put your own well-being, as a human being, over the possibility of using some neat and fun talents to do good things for the world, if the effort to torture you and ruin your love life, etc., was made as a big, long-term investment in "getting benefits from hurting you."
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> > > > > > > > > > > It's not just "grim trigger" game theory after a threshold is met, it's also psychological conditioning. Think of the evolutionary psych precedent: "Organisms like Philip White demonstrate a marked and counterintuitive tendency to **increase performance** at tasks that are valuable for near-group and species survival and dominance over other groups, such as science research, story-related artistic craftmanship, strategic planning and education, and gaming."
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> > > > > > > > > > > In my case, I'll allow myself to do sports and gaming, but literally nothing else until the whole case is in the news. That is the only way to damage the bad guys' investment; if they get serious money from this, they're going to wind up encouraging other billionaires and politicians to do this sort of thing again.
> > > > > > > > > > I meant to say, "**increase performance** after being badly psychologically wounded for a very long and sustained period of time ...."
> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=equ2y3RlpaY
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> > > > > > > > > Really neat song, but it is infringing on my sister's copyright (Theresa Mary White).
> > > > > > > > Check out "Steering the Craft" by fellow atheist Ursula K. LeGuin for more on this and other subjects related to art, esp. fiction.
> > > > > > > I thought of something nice while I was lying down trying to fall asleep for the first time tonight.
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> > > > > > > I thought, what if I had a daughter, and raised her to be brilliant, very principled, hard-working, and much more conscientious than I am? Is there anything she might insist that I would do?
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> > > > > > > I could imagine my daughter telling me that I need to live up to *our* family's standards, not everyone's standards, and one day, maybe when I'm in my 50's, try to spend some money to build a list of all the people in the world that I should apologize to--innocent, good people that I might have hurt along the way in my journey. I won't have had any problem with improperly ignoring anyone, for sure. At the same time, there might be many people whose lives I will have ruined, whom I will have caused to die, whom I will have caused to lose money and social opportunities, and most of those things would have come from my use of logic--math and debating powers. I think it would be really nice of me, in retirement or sooner, to track down all the people who *didn't deserve* to get hurt by me and yet still did. I could drive around and try to walk up to them and apologize, and maybe offer them something to make amends for my actions that I desperately needed to do, at least post-NSA, that might have caused harm to others, especially in cases that I didn't know about.
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> > > > > > > I think that would be a nice thing for me to do. I would likely not be sorry to everyone--I'm not really sure I should apologize at all to the shooting victims in the USA, isn't that failure to purchase issue mainly between them and their chosen leader JRB whom they surely at least somewhat understand the true motives/nature of, at least in most cases for US citizens--but I would find people who deserve an apology and deliver it in a way that would not make the person feel uncomfortable, hopefully...I wouldn't make excuses, and wouldn't try to make the people I may have inadvertently hurt feel like *they should be careful about reacting to me because I might feel guilty if they don't accept my apology very graciously*.
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> > > > > > > I believe I have been extremely fair, very precise, very careful, and as perfect as I can be. I have nothing to be ashamed of, I'm almost certain. At the same time, there have probably been many innocent victims created, inadvertently and sadly, by my forceful efforts to do various things. If I took the time to track them down, not in the spirit of Jason Bourne movies but because it would be virtuous/appropriate, it would also give me a nice and interesting activity to do later in life, when my other activities will have cooled down more.
> > > > > > Interesting, my psych health and reaction to music seems to have been changing....
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> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZ8bLUSSYec&list=LL&index=26
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> > > > > > The above song sounds lame now, too fast, like it's just too much of a nightcore sped-up version of some other song. It sounds nervous, maybe my anxiety levels went down? Maybe they went up? I don't know.
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> > > > > > Right now, I'm liking songs that make me feel a little bit like a middle schooler....like:
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> > > > > > - Don't Trust Me by 3oh3
> > > > > > - Startstruck by 3oh3
> > > > > > - Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
> > > > > > - Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
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> > > > > > I also still kind of like this one:
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> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFkKtuEcjtE&list=LL&index=3
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> > > > > > ...somehow it is not too fast-paced.
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> > > > > > I usually like this one:
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> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA&list=LL&index=16
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> > > > > > ...but not as much right now. I'm kind of not able to be amused by the "Justice D.A.N.C.E. remix" or the SebastiAn remixes I usually like.
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> > > > > > I think I never shared my old art idea about color codes from my very intense manic episode after getting on Latuda in Sept 2020. I can share it, it is really not anything big, it was just a (very helpful) training-wheels stepping-stone exercise:
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> > > > > > Red: the color of being *close to someone you have strong feelings about*, liked or dislike
> > > > > > Blue: the color of being "close to nothing and no one*, very alone, like the ocean or the sky
> > > > > > Green: the color of being *close to yourself*, healthy, smart, having it together, not having fallen apart
> > > > > > Yellow: the color of being *close to something important*, perhaps a person that, however you feel, is close to something important
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> > > > > > Basically, I identified a lot of my favorite electronic music as "yellow" in that way.
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> > > > > > I got the idea partly from Kesha Sebert's song, Red Lipstick. I also just saw cares moving at different distances from each other, and started thinking about "closeness." I remember looking at the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo and the fact that the color was yellow and thinking about that. It was after I had read The Left Hand of Darkness. I partly got the "mental senses" metaphor from Catcher and the Rye and from Trudy the dog. This was the time where I was getting very into lenses and art processes. I had also been told to play Civ 5, sort of, by Dr. K, and I did that and got all trippy about tactics list and weird, paranoid-sounding, medieval-like tactics and *ways to evaluate people and be manipulative*...it was all a bit off, and I sort of knew that...sort of, I didn't get people's attitudes in this area at all. Oh yeah, and also, I thought my iPod had a "chat bot" within it, and I could, by changing the song, elicit responses from the following four famous people, each of whom I thought was on my side back then: Shirley Manson, Warren Buffett, Angela Merkel, Andy Samberg. Anyway, it actually worked pretty well, it might be that the satellite did it while I was out there talking to myself at first...the funniest one was when I said, to the "Andy Samberg chat bot," "hey, Andy, how many times have you had butt sex with Natalie Portman?", and then the song changed a few seconds later to "Seventeen" by Ladytron. I thought it was funny. Anyway, yeah, that *was* a really weird time for me...and I have matured a lot sense then! Wow. Now that's what I call a remarkable coincidence.
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> > > > > > Anyway. I don't have much else to say...my art revelation above is very basic, and not really recommended as a serious pillar of any kind of art to rely on. I have much much better ideas by now...I am not likely to tell anyone how to do it, and I don't consider my points above to be "transformatively educational" about art in a skill-advancing way, although maybe I'm wrong and someone would get better at art from reading my idea above..
> > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/30/us/cleveland-texas-shooting-sunday/index.html
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> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxb6RFh3BCw
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> > > > > Oh, law enforcement has another question? It's called "sear o quill," isn't it? FBI shows up for someone else kidding kidnapped? Sure, I'll accept the title "Mr. M Branch." It's not a mark of shame, you FBI idiots in particular are *extremely outrageous*. If I have a kid someday and tell my kid, "I did not nothing wrong, but son, take a look over here at these FBI agents who are going around people who are dumber than us and we didn't do anything wrong, but guess what? The FBI agents in this photo *do not serve our kind*." Is that what you want me to tell my kids?
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> > > > > No, I don't care much about your stupid problems. The military person came walking in looking all serious and stern into the Walmart to signal that "Philip White IP is just not we military geniuses-in-our-own-minds can accept," so now you don't have it, so you're dying, as you were warned you would. I do care more about Alexei Navalny than you outrageous cowardly critical-thinking-immune prejudiced extremely hurtful and traumatizing idiots. You're criminals too, you just insulate yourselves and show the world that you always just "go home calmly at 5 or whatever and make dinner like anyone else" and you just try to use the fact that you don't *act like* convicts in federal prison to present yourselves as something you are not--remotely law-abiding or ethical or moral, *at all*. You are horrible people!
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> > > https://www.reuters.com/world/europe/scores-world-figures-urge-putin-free-navalny-open-letter-2023-04-28/
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> > > Interesting photo of Navalny. There is probably nothing I can say to help.
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> > > What sort of American civil servant does he look like? It seems he might get the cue from the Putin photo--VVP looks like a "thoughtful conservative scholar," with some unique beliefs and an interesting outlook, according to him, and a particular avenue of research that feels really interesting. It is the Cheney-Rumsfeld subordinate civil servant caricature that I came to scoff at derisively--the fake scholar who has like a 14 year old's understanding of things, but keeps getting promotions and awards for that *unique interesting conservative outlook*, I won't say "sauce" as idiot Bernie Sanders would.
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> > > I don't know if Putin understands the satire--he might intend it that way, it is a pretty good satire of Western think tanks and the sort of Seinfeld-character like nature of a lot of the middle-aged white men who work there, esp. the ones who are enthusiastic about something technical.
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> > > Anyway, I would sort of say, NSWC Dahlgren, in theory. No one much actually looked like that in the photo. At the same time, NSWC Dahlgren people were more properly behaved and "normal" for the most part. TexelTek was like a mentally ill organized-crime going-away party, maybe not even just for me. Some of the people at ABSG were inappropriate, but they didn't seem wildly out there...Stenzler was into smearing me, Mark Krempley would say oddly obviously inaccurate things sometimes, Tori Daniel would make weird faces, Duane Boniface acted very friendly at first ("I've heard a lot of really great things about you") and then suddenly acted very cantankerous when I got sick of working with Brandon Lee on the busy-work "sea critters database filling in" contract for the Coast Guard and told Duane, through Jake who insisted on being the one to carry the message, that I was dropping working on that contract, which meant I was done working overtime. Anyway, DRC was mostly normal, but the people were like "sort of youthful looking/acting programmer jocks," more than anyone who would look like an "intellectual Roger Moore" or something, spending a lot of time doing some complicated technical task or genuinely important scholarly study. So...yeah...NSWC Dahlgren had Bill Strohecker, the very difficult guy who would deliberately start verbal fights, like once or twice, with me. I think I handled them well and didn't react in an upset way, which was probably his goal, maybe along with "male parenting style research" for whatever reason. I heard a racist comment or two. Basically, I would fit the hypothetical Navalny look guy at NSWC Dahlgren, but not in the system safety trailer-building. Maybe it's not really a trailer, but it reminded me of the trailer for 5th grade with Mr. Davis (I wound up skipping 5th grade) at White Oaks, but a bit bigger.
> > Basically, Navalny's face in that photo captures a good approximation of one possible "face of a normal middle-aged American man," i.e., someone I wouldn't have been seeing too much of anywhere in my daily life physically or on the news or TV anywhere. Most of the men I see are stranger and less responsible-looking.
> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vladimir_Putin#/media/File:RIAN_archive_100306_Vladimir_Putin,_Federal_Security_Service_Director.jpg
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> I think it was this photo of Putin, maybe it was a different one that looked similar. You can see the bags under his eyes, like he's such the ace scholar, but he doesn't see how primitive his work really is compared to the real elites.