Here is what I had remembered to paste:

OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.

I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> Here is what I had remembered to paste:
>
>
> OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
>
> I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!

I said "stated," not "seated."

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> >
> >
> > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> >
> > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> I said "stated," not "seated."

!!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.

Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > >
> > >
> > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > >
> > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > I said "stated," not "seated."
> !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
>
> Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???

1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.

2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.

3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever..
> > > >
> > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> >
> > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
>
> 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
>
> 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!

Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr.. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?

All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > >
> > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > >
> > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> >
> > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> >
> > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
>
> All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.

A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:

- Very low attention to detail.
- Always optimistic.
- Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
- Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
- Believer in destiny, as claimed.
- Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
- Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
- Very focused on himself.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300.. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > >
> > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > >
> > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > >
> > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> >
> > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
>
> - Very low attention to detail.
> - Always optimistic.
> - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> - Very focused on himself.

Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.

*in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > >
> > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > >
> > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > >
> > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > >
> > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> >
> > - Very low attention to detail.
> > - Always optimistic.
> > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability..
> > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > - Very focused on himself.
> Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
>
>
> *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"

It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > >
> > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > >
> > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > >
> > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > >
> > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > - Always optimistic.
> > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > - Very focused on himself.
> > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> >
> >
> > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.

In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving.. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > >
> > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > >
> > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > >
> > >
> > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly.. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.

The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.

The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > >
> > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
>
> The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.

"Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"

"Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> >
> > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
>
> "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."

I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > >
> > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> >
> > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
>
> I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
>
> I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
>
> It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > >
> > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > >
> > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> >
> > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> >
> > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> >
> > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
>
> I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
>
> (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > >
> > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > >
> > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > >
> > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > >
> > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > >
> > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> >
> > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> >
> > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
>
> I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
>
> So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > >
> > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > >
> > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway..
> > > >
> > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > >
> > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > >
> > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > >
> > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> >
> > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> >
> > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
>
> That's basically the setup.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > >
> > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > >
> > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway..
> > > >
> > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > >
> > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > >
> > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > >
> > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> >
> > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> >
> > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
>
> That's basically the setup.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh....yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > >
> > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > >
> > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > >
> > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > >
> > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > >
> > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > >
> > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > >
> > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > >
> > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> >
> > That's basically the setup.
> It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa....that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies..
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > >
> > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > >
> > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > >
> > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > >
> > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > >
> > > That's basically the setup.
> > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing.. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > >
> > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > >
> > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > > >
> > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:19:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr.. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store....I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > > > >
> > > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> > I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.
> Uhh...they edited that, I said, "go for it, *push the pedal*, as Kristen once said. Kristen said, "push the pedal," not go for it. She also said her name was Kristen. I believe her. Maybe I shouldn't. Whatever. She was not a bad guy.

On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 11:05:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:19:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now.. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work.. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > > > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > > > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> > > I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.
> > Uhh...they edited that, I said, "go for it, *push the pedal*, as Kristen once said. Kristen said, "push the pedal," not go for it. She also said her name was Kristen. I believe her. Maybe I shouldn't. Whatever. She was not a bad guy.
> I took my meds about an hour late today. Right now, I am trying to write out some simple pseudocode for my macro task tomorrow.
>
> I realized, based on a hinted communication from a veteran military person who was nice in the past, that probably, Quioccasin Blond actually is good. Excellent! I won't say anything flirty right now because I can't be sure, but yes, I'd be happy to get a date with Quioccasin Blond once this is all over...someone hinted to me outside tonight that it might be over in 9 days, maybe that's true.

On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 12:11:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 11:05:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:19:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so....their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible..
> > > > > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work....I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > > > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > > > > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > > > > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> > > > I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.
> > > Uhh...they edited that, I said, "go for it, *push the pedal*, as Kristen once said. Kristen said, "push the pedal," not go for it. She also said her name was Kristen. I believe her. Maybe I shouldn't. Whatever. She was not a bad guy.
> > I took my meds about an hour late today. Right now, I am trying to write out some simple pseudocode for my macro task tomorrow.
> >
> > I realized, based on a hinted communication from a veteran military person who was nice in the past, that probably, Quioccasin Blond actually is good. Excellent! I won't say anything flirty right now because I can't be sure, but yes, I'd be happy to get a date with Quioccasin Blond once this is all over...someone hinted to me outside tonight that it might be over in 9 days, maybe that's true.
> I just watched a little bit--not much--of Jennifer Shahade's interview. I saw her sort of looking up and to the left and to the right with her eyes in the interview.
>
> I re-read my post about the sexual assault allegation. What I noticed was that it seemed like maybe she was sort of saying, "I appreciate / don't mind your perspective that much, but I think you are acting a bit partriarchy-linked regarding saying that crime victims, including sex assault victims, should not 'publicly flog' their defendants."
>
> I hadn't mean to be condescending or trying to "use the fact that I'm male" to throw my weight around. I think she is disagreeing politely and not accusing me of anything. I saw my perspective as an articulation of my political beliefs, applied to one "case" that I've heard of. Come to think of it, I think life experiences are pretty much inextricable from political beliefs, at least in many cases. To me, "public flogging" and "appreciation of cessation of harm" are a big deal to me. I didn't intend anything hostile or resentful to Ms. Shahade or other sex assault victims, but if I had been trying inject a criticism, which I wasn't, I would have said, "It is probably very hard to come forward as a female sex assault victim to get help, but it is much much harder for men, at least including mentally ill men, to find a shoulder to cry on." I once saw a woman sitting down on the sidewalk on Quioccasin Road, looking sad and like she needed help. I felt certain that even though I am always ignored, she was going to have a man who found her pretty walk up to her and offer to help her with her problem within the hour...pretty young women can get that within 60 minutes, I cannot get that kind of help within 6 years...not even close.
>
> I think it is definitely true that crime victims ought to be allowed to speak freely about their feelings about the crime. I think the case could go either way regarding my claim about "public flogging" or "sadism"; if the person is not in jail, is the goal to get the person in jail? Does it deter future bad actions? I guess, deep down, what I was thinking without realizing it was, the *volume* of the criticisms are competitive. I see myself as having accepted, on grounds of realism, some extremely unusual things about how our society seems to actually work...e.g., a lot of people I knew in the past have literally no interest in getting in touch with me or each other, for no particular hostility-related reason, and I just learned to accept that, like, "Nobody says hi near the Metro outside of the train in DC," when I was young kid. So I guess I would say, the high volume of claims about sexual assault isn't exactly disappointing to me in an absolute sense, but maybe I agree that it is totally allowed, defensible, and acceptable to discuss one's own personal crime issue, after it has been "partially resolved" to the extent it can be...maybe I inadvertently resent literally everyone who is a victim of a crime who can rally some amount of support to their cause. Imagine an Iraqi civilian killed in a US bombing in 2006; he or she might have been stood up for as part of a bracket when Britney Spears sounded like she was saying "Iraq-fuls," like "Crackerfuls," the Ritz cheese snack (those were great, where did they go?), but other than that, everyone will be silent about whoever that person was in the US media for the next 10 years, almost for sure.
>
> You could see it as like a personality trait...my personality may have been altered. Maybe in 2010, I would said, "Yeah, women should totally speak up and talk incessantly if someone dares to sexually harass them--go for it, talk up a storm, never be quiet until you want to be"...I can still see that perspective as plausible, but my mentality is more jaded, at least right now, and "willing to accept cynical interpretations regarding how many people ever get justice," and inclined to see "a long line of crime victims who are metaphorically being helped by someone behind a desk, as though at the DMV, and some people are *able* to be shooed away from receiving the help and support, in my case after 0.00 seconds, and some people are better at staying at the front of the line to get more help from the assistant." It's the same thing I always saw when I would go shopping at the grocery store when younger; everyone would always answer my Mom when she approached strangers and started up a conversation...that has literally almost never worked for me, but I still give scathingly vicious reviews to grocery store workers who won't let go of the discrimination. Anyway, that's a big of a tangent...but there is a "mentally ill male" perspective, regarding "being treated as a chronic eye/presence-sore/whatever" wherever you go in public, and the mild resentment regarding the sort of unsympathetic perspectives of some women--I am not criticizing Shahade, I think she is well above average at caring about issues like mine, and I think she is thoughtful enough that she is quite helpful and smart about issues like mine--towards some mentally ill men who did not take the exit route of killing people or jumping off a cliff when the "legions of stalkers and vigilantes" came charging up to put the mentally ill men in terrible pain and new agony at very high levels that most people will never experience and that changes you like if you were a sword being re-made being put in a furnace, changed forever chemically (involuntarily as a person) while being subjected to very high temperatures without wanting to.
>
> Anyway I'm getting tired...I'll go grab something to eat and go to sleep soon. Overall I think Jennifer Shahade is fine, I'm just saying, I wasn't trying to be condescending...to use one of my metaphors, it's, "I'm a very intelligent and hard-working ex-Marine veteran with one leg wheeling myself around in a wheelchair, and I reflexively bristle, properly or not, at people who have high abilities, like 'rights' in a sense, like equal water fountain use rights, to speak out about assaults against them, that go well beyond mine." Maybe I am irrational. I could be wrong. I am just identifying where my feelings that provoked a reaction must have come from.

On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 1:17:18 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 12:11:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 11:05:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:19:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work....I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > > > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > > > > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > > > > > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > > > > > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> > > > > I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.
> > > > Uhh...they edited that, I said, "go for it, *push the pedal*, as Kristen once said. Kristen said, "push the pedal," not go for it. She also said her name was Kristen. I believe her. Maybe I shouldn't. Whatever. She was not a bad guy.
> > > I took my meds about an hour late today. Right now, I am trying to write out some simple pseudocode for my macro task tomorrow.
> > >
> > > I realized, based on a hinted communication from a veteran military person who was nice in the past, that probably, Quioccasin Blond actually is good. Excellent! I won't say anything flirty right now because I can't be sure, but yes, I'd be happy to get a date with Quioccasin Blond once this is all over...someone hinted to me outside tonight that it might be over in 9 days, maybe that's true.
> > I just watched a little bit--not much--of Jennifer Shahade's interview. I saw her sort of looking up and to the left and to the right with her eyes in the interview.
> >
> > I re-read my post about the sexual assault allegation. What I noticed was that it seemed like maybe she was sort of saying, "I appreciate / don't mind your perspective that much, but I think you are acting a bit partriarchy-linked regarding saying that crime victims, including sex assault victims, should not 'publicly flog' their defendants."
> >
> > I hadn't mean to be condescending or trying to "use the fact that I'm male" to throw my weight around. I think she is disagreeing politely and not accusing me of anything. I saw my perspective as an articulation of my political beliefs, applied to one "case" that I've heard of. Come to think of it, I think life experiences are pretty much inextricable from political beliefs, at least in many cases. To me, "public flogging" and "appreciation of cessation of harm" are a big deal to me. I didn't intend anything hostile or resentful to Ms. Shahade or other sex assault victims, but if I had been trying inject a criticism, which I wasn't, I would have said, "It is probably very hard to come forward as a female sex assault victim to get help, but it is much much harder for men, at least including mentally ill men, to find a shoulder to cry on." I once saw a woman sitting down on the sidewalk on Quioccasin Road, looking sad and like she needed help. I felt certain that even though I am always ignored, she was going to have a man who found her pretty walk up to her and offer to help her with her problem within the hour...pretty young women can get that within 60 minutes, I cannot get that kind of help within 6 years...not even close.
> >
> > I think it is definitely true that crime victims ought to be allowed to speak freely about their feelings about the crime. I think the case could go either way regarding my claim about "public flogging" or "sadism"; if the person is not in jail, is the goal to get the person in jail? Does it deter future bad actions? I guess, deep down, what I was thinking without realizing it was, the *volume* of the criticisms are competitive. I see myself as having accepted, on grounds of realism, some extremely unusual things about how our society seems to actually work...e.g., a lot of people I knew in the past have literally no interest in getting in touch with me or each other, for no particular hostility-related reason, and I just learned to accept that, like, "Nobody says hi near the Metro outside of the train in DC," when I was young kid. So I guess I would say, the high volume of claims about sexual assault isn't exactly disappointing to me in an absolute sense, but maybe I agree that it is totally allowed, defensible, and acceptable to discuss one's own personal crime issue, after it has been "partially resolved" to the extent it can be...maybe I inadvertently resent literally everyone who is a victim of a crime who can rally some amount of support to their cause. Imagine an Iraqi civilian killed in a US bombing in 2006; he or she might have been stood up for as part of a bracket when Britney Spears sounded like she was saying "Iraq-fuls," like "Crackerfuls," the Ritz cheese snack (those were great, where did they go?), but other than that, everyone will be silent about whoever that person was in the US media for the next 10 years, almost for sure.
> >
> > You could see it as like a personality trait...my personality may have been altered. Maybe in 2010, I would said, "Yeah, women should totally speak up and talk incessantly if someone dares to sexually harass them--go for it, talk up a storm, never be quiet until you want to be"...I can still see that perspective as plausible, but my mentality is more jaded, at least right now, and "willing to accept cynical interpretations regarding how many people ever get justice," and inclined to see "a long line of crime victims who are metaphorically being helped by someone behind a desk, as though at the DMV, and some people are *able* to be shooed away from receiving the help and support, in my case after 0.00 seconds, and some people are better at staying at the front of the line to get more help from the assistant." It's the same thing I always saw when I would go shopping at the grocery store when younger; everyone would always answer my Mom when she approached strangers and started up a conversation...that has literally almost never worked for me, but I still give scathingly vicious reviews to grocery store workers who won't let go of the discrimination. Anyway, that's a big of a tangent...but there is a "mentally ill male" perspective, regarding "being treated as a chronic eye/presence-sore/whatever" wherever you go in public, and the mild resentment regarding the sort of unsympathetic perspectives of some women--I am not criticizing Shahade, I think she is well above average at caring about issues like mine, and I think she is thoughtful enough that she is quite helpful and smart about issues like mine--towards some mentally ill men who did not take the exit route of killing people or jumping off a cliff when the "legions of stalkers and vigilantes" came charging up to put the mentally ill men in terrible pain and new agony at very high levels that most people will never experience and that changes you like if you were a sword being re-made being put in a furnace, changed forever chemically (involuntarily as a person) while being subjected to very high temperatures without wanting to.
> >
> > Anyway I'm getting tired...I'll go grab something to eat and go to sleep soon. Overall I think Jennifer Shahade is fine, I'm just saying, I wasn't trying to be condescending...to use one of my metaphors, it's, "I'm a very intelligent and hard-working ex-Marine veteran with one leg wheeling myself around in a wheelchair, and I reflexively bristle, properly or not, at people who have high abilities, like 'rights' in a sense, like equal water fountain use rights, to speak out about assaults against them, that go well beyond mine." Maybe I am irrational. I could be wrong. I am just identifying where my feelings that provoked a reaction must have come from.
> A good lawyer hinted to me some time ago:
>
> The secret deal that has been made regarding Congress having trafficked me is:
>
> - If they stop trafficking me and saying "f--- off" to me completely, they get everything back that was seized, including poll numbers, immediately.
> - The catch is, every time Congress says, "Oh, we're thinking about releasing him, let's consider it," and then they "deliberate" for some time, and then they back out and say "we decided we don't want to release him," the percentage of "everything" that they could back is decreased, due to a sort of "metaphorical burning' of assets that they could have gotten back.
> - The deal never ends, just the "pot of gold" that Congress can get returned to them gets smaller and smaller, the more they gaslight everyone about why I am being held and when/if they are going to release me.
>
> If I interpreted that right, it sounds true!

On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 2:16:41 PM UTC+8, wij wrote:
> On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 1:17:18 PM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > On Friday, March 17, 2023 at 12:11:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 11:05:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:19:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:11:16 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 10:09:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:43:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:24:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:23:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 9:14:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 7:49:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:54:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:57:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:09:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 4:07:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 3:10:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 1:13:31 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:45:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:37:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:16:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 12:02:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is what I had remembered to paste:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, enough pushing back against bad guys for now. Yes, I still feel the glare of irrational lunatics and their backers, demanding that their wacky version of reality be breathed in and studied, and *discerned* without even being seated clearly...they want to debate on "easy mode," where they don't have to speak, the truth is merely *divined* from their hints. I have to take it into account, and yeah, the apathy about me winning the debate repeatedly and getting nothing sufficient out of it is unnerving. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am about get up and shower and eat and get dressed. I'll start my stocks work right after that. I'll probably do it in two phases, take a 30 min break, and then test it out and leave for a walk after I'm fully done. If it looks good enough, I might do a few trades tomorrow, and then get started in earnest the next day. My starting amount of money is just $300. We'll see what I can do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said "stated," not "seated."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > !!! The bad guys had the bot choke me again just now, while I was eating. That is uncomfortable and stressful, and negatively impactful to my psychological health. It is also a clear green-light--I'm still under duress--to publish my attack fiction, sometime soon. I'm starting with the stock market today, but I will begin the attack prose composition probably within the next week sometime, maybe over the weekend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does my nurse practitioner, Robin Jones, object to this behavior directed against me? Does she and Tucker Psychiatric have anything to say about this, and how it affects my health, and how inappropriate it is???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 1 - It sounds like the bad guys, and the CIA green-lighters, are recommending to RVA men that they "try choking" on women that they go on dates with--they are advertising it as an abusive technique that works. It sounds like maybe Gloria Allred will be getting an influx of lucrative new clients soon, maybe she likes that and doesn't mind.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 2 - Are my doctors serious about focusing on my health?? This didn't happen with Dr. K. Is the focus on "helping out wealthy people who have said that they dislike me" to achieve their mental-patient-related goals, or is the focus on helping me with my condition? I had to stop seeing Dr. Wein because he was so egregiously on the wrong side of that line. I'll get my congestion cured someday by a real doctor, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > 3 - Part of the purpose of the timed choking attacks is, based on the fact that choking is air-depriving, psychological, visceral, and biological in ways that I and most other people have never studied, it is supposed to condition me to alter my behavior and mood, and to make me stop doing certain things that the bad guys want me to stop doing. I can't know exactly what, but I'll stick to my core projects for now. I would really prefer not being choked or abused in any way at all! The ability of the bad guys to persistently damage my health *does* make my backers look bad and weak! Can't you do anything?? I can prove the Hodge conjecture, you guys apparently can't even send an email, whoever you are! I'm doing my part and more!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the appropriate setup by the people who did things right, like Dr. K, is: After my last post, the psychological atmosphere of the entire RVA area will change. Whenever any man in the community who isn't me looks at a woman in an area on her body that is near her neck, such as her face and her eyes, the woman will know exactly what he's thinking about, and the man and the woman will have an interesting, psychologically charged time studying each other facial expressions, to see, on some level, how OK with abuse the other person is. Does the man like choking and related things for controlling women? Do the women have a particular "kind of person" that they think it would be OK to have choked and abused? Does she think she's that type? Can her possibly nasty political beliefs and aversion to "moral right and wrong as determined by debate" be exploited to make her accept being abused herself?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of these disturbing questions, and more, will be contemplated by this evil local community and all the people who are residing here, except for me and Theresa (and Rosey), and I don't even know what city in VA Theresa lives in. Obviously, don't try messing with Theresa...that's the extent of your warning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A quick amateur sketch profile of Joe Biden:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very low attention to detail.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Always optimistic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Not paranoid or vigilant about threats at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believes in his own "sheer natural likability" as his main capability.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Believer in destiny, as claimed.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Hands off, un-strategic leader, except regarding grudges.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very accepting of terrible outcomes of his allies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Very focused on himself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Things are coming along quite well. Quick break.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > *in a really deep, masculine, low-energy voice*: "Uhhh...yeah, Mrs. Obama, what did you say you wanted done again?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It looks like all my macros have been sabotaged, so I will have to do the stock data grabs myself. Oh well. The bad guys have been paying a steep price for this outrage, and will continue to do so...their losses will be devastating.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In particular, every time the FBI fails to give me full service when I make a report on the internet about illegal cheating, it damages them greatly. They become seen as "risk promoters" throughout the economy; it is they who have set things up to ruin people financial lives, by refusing to prosecute "metaphorical loan theft" cases, leading to massively increasing interest rates and economic recession/depression.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The macros will not work; I am once again facing another handicap as an investor, which is illegal and unfair.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The joke is, the bad guys *still* think they can use "psychological mind manipulation" to somehow trick me into giving them free math. It is not going to work; apparently, even the shockingly crank-like Dr. Michael Sipser seems to actually believe in this sort of pseudoscience. You cannot mind control me into giving you free math, it is not possible.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > "Hey, Philip, rather than sit around getting choked by bots from foreigners, why not go apply to graduate school? You're SO good at research, I bet you would get into a really good school and have a happy life!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > "Uh, no, I'm aware of the trap. Why is the government suddenly claiming that, in light of the fact they think I'm a 'game theory pugilist,' that I *must* do the career that they choose for me? Why are all the exits blocked except STEM research publication? Even if I would consider it, and I wouldn't, I would rather spend 30 more years alone in captivity than serve fascists voluntarily, the bad guys would surely get me to solve all their favorite research problems, and then make up a reason to kick me out of grad school and make me become homeless. My only option is to fight and ruin my way out...there is no other way for me to have a happy life, sadly; I must fight and destroy bad-guy Americans' lives to optimize my outcome, no other option will improve my already quite damaged outcome."
> > > > > > > > > > > > I worked hard all day today, partly on tedious Excel work. Apparently, all macros and compilers are completely disabled.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I worked from this morning until just now. I am not quite down--there was a lot of tedious menial by-hand downloading and Excel work to do--but I ought to know how well my thing will work by tomorrow, hopefully anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I'm going to stop and go eat, I might go the grocery store...I didn't get a chance to go to the mall. I will work tomorrow morning, and I have a doctor appointment too, so I might not wind up walking at the mall tomorrow either.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > It is very inappropriate and illegal for all my of my professional activities to be blocked and lied about. I never did anything wrong at all, and have been massively smeared by lunatic bad guys. I demand a halt to this, again; I deserve to be treated properly, not enslaved, and given my Constitutional rights.
> > > > > > > > > > > Oh, someone at the Walmart parking lot hinted that the State D fascist goons finally want to level with me. Wondrous. I received a signal that hinted my sister's internet activity might be being illegally monitored, maybe it's just another fake signal, I know how the State D girls love those by now.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I seem to be being invited to express some masculine, feisty anger again, too: OK, "Richarde, yes, a lot of people have brainstormed about how to wait for Harvard-Type Guy #799 to die before beginning hostilities against whomever, that's not your original idea, either."
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > (I was expressing frustration at Richard Dawkins, in case he is also, beneath the veneer of whatever, actually trying to murder me, for royals who want to murder him, but he knows that, but they don't *know* that he knows that, so you see, it is all a game of intrigue and ingeniousness, and Dawkins is on top. Whatever.)
> > > > > > > > > > So, I'm done for the day...I got some groceries. I'm feeling fine right now, a little disappointed that I couldn't totally finish the Excel and stocks task today. I'll finish it tomorrow--I do have to build at least one VBA macro, so I'll do that and see if I can't get it all tested out tomorrow, maybe shortly after my doctor appointment. I probably won't make it to walk to the mall tomorrow, but I ought to make it the next day.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I'm probably only going to be able to trade about 4 times a day--another limitation/robbery by the US government and friends, I'll surely make money more slowly due to their illegal impairments, and they'll foreclosed upon, added to "risky and risk-contributor" watch lists, boycotted, sabotaged, stolen from without being repaid, etc. Great, whatever. I should have been out over a year ago, people just love to be crazy and irrational these days, and they pay the price, and I never care to see their crestfallen faces or whatever, I'm focus on normal, virtuous people, and just trying to get out and have a life...the significant damage inflicted is there, whether denied or not (it doesn't matter)...I'm just focusing on my outcome, which has been dangled at a very high position to make it really hard for me to have a "basic happy normal life," so I'm just doing what would make sense and not be servile to win my freedom from the bad guys. I'm sure I'll make it eventually, it's just, how much more will they give up and throw away before they cry mercy? They are very enduring and very immune to crying about their losses, that's about the only "nice" thing you can say about the vietcong who took over the CIA.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > So yeah...more work tomorrow, I'll think about my fiction and chess strategy tasks after the investing work is done, hopefully (I think it will work) by tomorrow. I'm cautiously optimistic it will still work...I'll find out tomrorow.
> > > > > > > > > Basically, the CIA said: "OK, he's not 13, he's 36. The way it's gonna work is, he has to legally kill as many thousands of us as possible, as quickly as he can, without breaking the rules or giving up or helping us, or he can't have a date with a young woman until he's 37 or older.."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > That's basically the setup.
> > > > > > > > It is a relief that, even though I plan to leave Virginia ASAP, the doctrine of "nurses will be nurses" is starting to be rejected in favor of patients' rights.
> > > > > > > "What happened to the last guy with this job?"
> > > > > > > --a question probably not asked much internationally by people who operate drone/satellite harassment, or the people who give them direct orders, or the politicians who supervise and oversee them
> > > > > > I.e., they're sitting ducks. Go for it, as Kristen once said. She doesn't mess with anyone, I'm pretty sure she won't be in any car crashes, and somehow, she seems to have gotten of here well before I did. I've been "pushing the pedal," driving away from Kroger and, ideally Tuckahoe, as fast as I can for over the past 2 years...and yet I am still here. I acknowledge that that is an impactful failure that is not good for my life satisfaction, but what else I can do? I cannot make the enemy be smart or interested in survival/self-preservation.
> > > > > Uhh...they edited that, I said, "go for it, *push the pedal*, as Kristen once said. Kristen said, "push the pedal," not go for it. She also said her name was Kristen. I believe her. Maybe I shouldn't. Whatever. She was not a bad guy.
> > > > I took my meds about an hour late today. Right now, I am trying to write out some simple pseudocode for my macro task tomorrow.
> > > >
> > > > I realized, based on a hinted communication from a veteran military person who was nice in the past, that probably, Quioccasin Blond actually is good. Excellent! I won't say anything flirty right now because I can't be sure, but yes, I'd be happy to get a date with Quioccasin Blond once this is all over...someone hinted to me outside tonight that it might be over in 9 days, maybe that's true.
> > > I just watched a little bit--not much--of Jennifer Shahade's interview. I saw her sort of looking up and to the left and to the right with her eyes in the interview.
> > >
> > > I re-read my post about the sexual assault allegation. What I noticed was that it seemed like maybe she was sort of saying, "I appreciate / don't mind your perspective that much, but I think you are acting a bit partriarchy-linked regarding saying that crime victims, including sex assault victims, should not 'publicly flog' their defendants."
> > >
> > > I hadn't mean to be condescending or trying to "use the fact that I'm male" to throw my weight around. I think she is disagreeing politely and not accusing me of anything. I saw my perspective as an articulation of my political beliefs, applied to one "case" that I've heard of. Come to think of it, I think life experiences are pretty much inextricable from political beliefs, at least in many cases. To me, "public flogging" and "appreciation of cessation of harm" are a big deal to me. I didn't intend anything hostile or resentful to Ms. Shahade or other sex assault victims, but if I had been trying inject a criticism, which I wasn't, I would have said, "It is probably very hard to come forward as a female sex assault victim to get help, but it is much much harder for men, at least including mentally ill men, to find a shoulder to cry on." I once saw a woman sitting down on the sidewalk on Quioccasin Road, looking sad and like she needed help. I felt certain that even though I am always ignored, she was going to have a man who found her pretty walk up to her and offer to help her with her problem within the hour...pretty young women can get that within 60 minutes, I cannot get that kind of help within 6 years...not even close.
> > >
> > > I think it is definitely true that crime victims ought to be allowed to speak freely about their feelings about the crime. I think the case could go either way regarding my claim about "public flogging" or "sadism"; if the person is not in jail, is the goal to get the person in jail? Does it deter future bad actions? I guess, deep down, what I was thinking without realizing it was, the *volume* of the criticisms are competitive. I see myself as having accepted, on grounds of realism, some extremely unusual things about how our society seems to actually work...e.g., a lot of people I knew in the past have literally no interest in getting in touch with me or each other, for no particular hostility-related reason, and I just learned to accept that, like, "Nobody says hi near the Metro outside of the train in DC," when I was young kid. So I guess I would say, the high volume of claims about sexual assault isn't exactly disappointing to me in an absolute sense, but maybe I agree that it is totally allowed, defensible, and acceptable to discuss one's own personal crime issue, after it has been "partially resolved" to the extent it can be...maybe I inadvertently resent literally everyone who is a victim of a crime who can rally some amount of support to their cause. Imagine an Iraqi civilian killed in a US bombing in 2006; he or she might have been stood up for as part of a bracket when Britney Spears sounded like she was saying "Iraq-fuls," like "Crackerfuls," the Ritz cheese snack (those were great, where did they go?), but other than that, everyone will be silent about whoever that person was in the US media for the next 10 years, almost for sure.
> > >
> > > You could see it as like a personality trait...my personality may have been altered. Maybe in 2010, I would said, "Yeah, women should totally speak up and talk incessantly if someone dares to sexually harass them--go for it, talk up a storm, never be quiet until you want to be"...I can still see that perspective as plausible, but my mentality is more jaded, at least right now, and "willing to accept cynical interpretations regarding how many people ever get justice," and inclined to see "a long line of crime victims who are metaphorically being helped by someone behind a desk, as though at the DMV, and some people are *able* to be shooed away from receiving the help and support, in my case after 0.00 seconds, and some people are better at staying at the front of the line to get more help from the assistant." It's the same thing I always saw when I would go shopping at the grocery store when younger; everyone would always answer my Mom when she approached strangers and started up a conversation...that has literally almost never worked for me, but I still give scathingly vicious reviews to grocery store workers who won't let go of the discrimination. Anyway, that's a big of a tangent...but there is a "mentally ill male" perspective, regarding "being treated as a chronic eye/presence-sore/whatever" wherever you go in public, and the mild resentment regarding the sort of unsympathetic perspectives of some women--I am not criticizing Shahade, I think she is well above average at caring about issues like mine, and I think she is thoughtful enough that she is quite helpful and smart about issues like mine--towards some mentally ill men who did not take the exit route of killing people or jumping off a cliff when the "legions of stalkers and vigilantes" came charging up to put the mentally ill men in terrible pain and new agony at very high levels that most people will never experience and that changes you like if you were a sword being re-made being put in a furnace, changed forever chemically (involuntarily as a person) while being subjected to very high temperatures without wanting to.
> > >
> > > Anyway I'm getting tired...I'll go grab something to eat and go to sleep soon. Overall I think Jennifer Shahade is fine, I'm just saying, I wasn't trying to be condescending...to use one of my metaphors, it's, "I'm a very intelligent and hard-working ex-Marine veteran with one leg wheeling myself around in a wheelchair, and I reflexively bristle, properly or not, at people who have high abilities, like 'rights' in a sense, like equal water fountain use rights, to speak out about assaults against them, that go well beyond mine." Maybe I am irrational. I could be wrong. I am just identifying where my feelings that provoked a reaction must have come from.
> > A good lawyer hinted to me some time ago:
> >
> > The secret deal that has been made regarding Congress having trafficked me is:
> >
> > - If they stop trafficking me and saying "f--- off" to me completely, they get everything back that was seized, including poll numbers, immediately.
> > - The catch is, every time Congress says, "Oh, we're thinking about releasing him, let's consider it," and then they "deliberate" for some time, and then they back out and say "we decided we don't want to release him," the percentage of "everything" that they could back is decreased, due to a sort of "metaphorical burning' of assets that they could have gotten back.
> > - The deal never ends, just the "pot of gold" that Congress can get returned to them gets smaller and smaller, the more they gaslight everyone about why I am being held and when/if they are going to release me.
> >
> > If I interpreted that right, it sounds true!
> Beep... stalking? "I am one of the players https://playersbio.com/hot-chess-players/
> Do you want to play chess with me? I need a real "calm and in control" opponent,
> a real man not too 'aggressive'. By the way, I don't neither mind the size, or a scum.
> I am safe and cheap, bye."
>
> I am wondering what the law it really was in the safe box.
> Did dad want me to be a whore, as good as he was, or, even cheaper?
> If so, the ordeal of generating all the 20 years' craps turns out, thanks to my
> STEM ingenuity, to be solving a simple decision problem! What an excellent time
> killer I must be proud of myself.... Maybe, I should keep working on 'crime fiction'.
>
> That's right, truth does not matter. I will fight against justice even losing my health.