On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store.. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality..
> > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you.." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks....and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > Idiots!!
> > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't..

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house....I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind.. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA....so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks....and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > >
> > > > Idiots!!
> > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house....I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW....I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her.. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > >
> > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > >
> > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > >
> > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> >
> > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> The exchange right now is:
>
> - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
>
> Not such a good deal, is it?

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots....most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW....I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that.. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > >
> > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > The exchange right now is:
> >
> > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> >
> > Not such a good deal, is it?
> Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
>
>
> I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay.." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil....I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > >
> > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > The exchange right now is:
> > >
> > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > >
> > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> >
> >
> > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house.. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot.. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again.. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn..com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students.. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts.. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > >
> > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > >
> > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > >
> > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
>
> "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do.. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> >
> > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a.. China."

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www..cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work.. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube..com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12....probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight....I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office.. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > >
> > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k..a. China."
> I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight....I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be.. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > >
> > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a..k.a. China."
> > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing.. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that.. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > >
> > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below....20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr.. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught....there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > >
> > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
>
> I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things.. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www..youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below....20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail.. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though.. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught....there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> >
> > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> The windows re-broke, what a shame.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > >
> > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
>
> "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> Slave White, teach me some writing.
> What will it take
> To make you re-educate...me?"

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint....I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game.. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > >
> > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> >
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> >
> > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > What will it take
> > To make you re-educate...me?"
> One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
>
> I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint....I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > >
> > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > >
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > >
> > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > What will it take
> > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> >
> > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally.. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it.. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > >
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > >
> > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > What will it take
> > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr.. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> > >
> > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim.. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
>
> Do you think I'm inaccurate??

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it.. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right.. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again.. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > > >
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > > >
> > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > What will it take
> > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> > > >
> > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> >
> > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways....often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses.. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there.. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > > > >
> > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications..
> > > > >
> > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> > >
> > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> I said, "and will kill you".

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence.. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways....often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at.. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review....I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us...." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> > > >
> > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > I said, "and will kill you".
> The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
>
> Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there.. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends....I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review....I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us...." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr.. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool.." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> > > > >
> > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
> >
> > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
>
> Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of.. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends....I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip....you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway....you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June.. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever..
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> > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
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> > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
> > >
> > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
> >
> > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false....but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it.. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
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> > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate...."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So....here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm....so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false....but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo....the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally....it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed.. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
> > > > >
> > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
> > > >
> > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
> > Previous post:
> >
> > I think that actually, Dr. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr. K.
> >
> > (Google has started limiting my posts again.)
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > New post:
> >
> > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too.. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
>
> I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
>
> I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
>
> I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
>
> I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
>
> Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
>
> Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!

On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900....and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm....so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www..flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo....the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them.. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYG_4vJ4qNA
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> > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally....it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either....congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon....I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do..
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> Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.