On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:25:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:05:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 7:03:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 6:10:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:23:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:05:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:57:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:22:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:57:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:53:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 12:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:57:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones.. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12....probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind.. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it.. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i..e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*....drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think that actually, Dr. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr. K.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist.. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world....the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
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> > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> >
> > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal.. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> >
> > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> >
> > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:39:02 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:25:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:05:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 7:03:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 6:10:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:23:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:05:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:57:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:22:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:57:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:53:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 12:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:57:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12....probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight....I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think that actually, Dr.. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr.. K.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > >
> > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > >
> > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > >
> > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > >
> > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:39:02 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:25:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:05:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 7:03:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 6:10:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:23:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:05:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:57:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:22:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:57:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:53:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 12:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:57:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12....probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight....I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you think I'm inaccurate??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think that actually, Dr.. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr.. K.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
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> > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
> > > > >
> > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
> > > > >
> > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > >
> > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > >
> > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > >
> > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > >
> > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:42:29 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:39:02 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:25:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:05:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 7:03:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 6:10:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:23:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:05:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:57:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:22:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:57:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:53:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 12:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:57:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property.. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I....that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think that actually, Dr. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr. K.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else.. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too.. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously....I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West....also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive..
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > > >
> > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > > >
> > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > > >
> > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > >
> > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:47:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer....it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious.. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good luck in the upcoming years, you are so alone now!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you.. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick.. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider....did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me.. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > > > >
> > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > > > >
> > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > > >
> > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:04:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below....20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught....there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team.. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today....I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable.. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
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> > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way.. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
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> - Can I be sure I can do it?
> - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> - Is it illegal under US law?
> - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> - Would it be fair to me???
> - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
>
> This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:07:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive.. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr.. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists.. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Slave White, teach me some writing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What will it take
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > To make you re-educate...me?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times.. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today....I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned.. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
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> > > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
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> > > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
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> > > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me....they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> > Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
> >
> > - Can I be sure I can do it?
> > - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> > - Is it illegal under US law?
> > - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> > - Would it be fair to me???
> > - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> > - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> > - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> > - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
> >
> > This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.
> I think I am going to cool off for the rest of tonight...I thought about destroying other countries tonight, clearly I was very angry, and after such incidents where I feel enraged, I often feel a desire to cool down, make some disclosures to reassure myself and others that I *am* a fair and moral person who doesn't cross the line, and try to relax and do something fun/calming so that I can think about things other than the things that are enraging me.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:57:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:07:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:04:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:47:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:42:29 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:39:02 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:25:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 8:05:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 7:03:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 6:10:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:53:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:23:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 5:05:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:57:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 3:22:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:57:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:53:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 12:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:57:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 12:54:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 9:57:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 8:57:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed.. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think that actually, Dr. Robert Radin, who went to Cornell and whom I saw as a psychiatrist in 2009, was the other doctor, other than John Steg, who deserved the F+...not Dr. K.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started.....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > > > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> > > Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
> > >
> > > - Can I be sure I can do it?
> > > - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> > > - Is it illegal under US law?
> > > - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> > > - Would it be fair to me???
> > > - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> > > - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> > > - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> > > - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
> > >
> > > This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.
> > I think I am going to cool off for the rest of tonight...I thought about destroying other countries tonight, clearly I was very angry, and after such incidents where I feel enraged, I often feel a desire to cool down, make some disclosures to reassure myself and others that I *am* a fair and moral person who doesn't cross the line, and try to relax and do something fun/calming so that I can think about things other than the things that are enraging me.
> My external computer mouse is missing; that means, if wij ever posts again on any of my threads, I will divert time from stock market investing to focus on damaging the Taiwanese stock markets instead, ASAP.

On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 10:28:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint....I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr.. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I said, "and will kill you".
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas.. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care....I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
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> > > > > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started.....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
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> > > > > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
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> > > > > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
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> > > > > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > > > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > > > > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> > > > Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
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> > > > - Can I be sure I can do it?
> > > > - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> > > > - Is it illegal under US law?
> > > > - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> > > > - Would it be fair to me???
> > > > - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> > > > - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> > > > - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> > > > - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
> > > >
> > > > This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.
> > > I think I am going to cool off for the rest of tonight...I thought about destroying other countries tonight, clearly I was very angry, and after such incidents where I feel enraged, I often feel a desire to cool down, make some disclosures to reassure myself and others that I *am* a fair and moral person who doesn't cross the line, and try to relax and do something fun/calming so that I can think about things other than the things that are enraging me.
> > My external computer mouse is missing; that means, if wij ever posts again on any of my threads, I will divert time from stock market investing to focus on damaging the Taiwanese stock markets instead, ASAP.
> I just figured out why the good-guy activist groups don't want to say anything to me...the reason is that they are all involved in physically surveilling some of the bad guys, and probably identify themselves to the FBI only anonymously.
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> I think that proves that every person who is not overtly not aligned with a relevant political non-profit group is bad, unless they are too low-income to be able to afford to speak to me or not local to me. So sadly, it looks like Jennifer Shahade is a bad guy...she is surely not to "bad guy surveillance operations," so she has no reason not to speak out more loudly about me, just like condemned British establishment-poodle Richard Dawkins.

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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:27:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index..html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot.. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys.. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Idiots!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I even offered you the research for very cheap!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The exchange right now is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Not such a good deal, is it?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine that in the past, the US government had never been classified as "100% run by literal neo-Nazis" before Biden took office.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Ven I finally keel zees young boy and eet his internal organs, eet veel feel sooo good inside. I veel feel sooo enhanced, like Bond villain, for reel. I finally feel alive myself."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Cool, my browser window went back to normal. Whatever.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I heard a code rumor at the mall that "sysadmins across the country" do not like Andy Samberg at this time, maybe even including Mark Zuckerberg! What, is it because he wrote a skit/song called "Finest Girl" and they all felt excluded??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The windows re-broke, what a shame.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Looney Tunes, 2.0: Abnormal Couple Psychology Edition:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Slave White, teach me some writing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that.. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You know what, HCPD cops? I am done answering your dumb, racist police department's frivolous questions. I have committed no crime, and established that about 80 times. If you want to ask another pointless question about an imaginary crime that you want to falsely claim that I committed, go get the FBI to ask it for you. And they better bring a uniform and a badge if they are going to present themselves before me! Greatness must be recognized by the pathetic.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans...feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > > > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > > > > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > > > > > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> > > > > Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
> > > > >
> > > > > - Can I be sure I can do it?
> > > > > - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> > > > > - Is it illegal under US law?
> > > > > - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> > > > > - Would it be fair to me???
> > > > > - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> > > > > - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> > > > > - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> > > > > - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
> > > > >
> > > > > This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.
> > > > I think I am going to cool off for the rest of tonight...I thought about destroying other countries tonight, clearly I was very angry, and after such incidents where I feel enraged, I often feel a desire to cool down, make some disclosures to reassure myself and others that I *am* a fair and moral person who doesn't cross the line, and try to relax and do something fun/calming so that I can think about things other than the things that are enraging me.
> > > My external computer mouse is missing; that means, if wij ever posts again on any of my threads, I will divert time from stock market investing to focus on damaging the Taiwanese stock markets instead, ASAP.
> > I just figured out why the good-guy activist groups don't want to say anything to me...the reason is that they are all involved in physically surveilling some of the bad guys, and probably identify themselves to the FBI only anonymously.
> >
> > I think that proves that every person who is not overtly not aligned with a relevant political non-profit group is bad, unless they are too low-income to be able to afford to speak to me or not local to me. So sadly, it looks like Jennifer Shahade is a bad guy...she is surely not to "bad guy surveillance operations," so she has no reason not to speak out more loudly about me, just like condemned British establishment-poodle Richard Dawkins.
> If I feel really tired or out of it, I might start in with the stocks thing slowly...I will mind my my health first, and focus on Africa support secondly, after that.
>
> I am thinking that it might be over in a few weeks...someone hinted to me that maybe the FBI has been compelled, via legal/political action, to get involved in this mess. Perhaps the community is convinced that 13-year-old student Lucia Bremer, who was tragically murdered, was targeted by Spanberger and Mark Warner, and that AS didn't work for CIA; maybe MW and AS will get arrested, that will be great. If people who have suffered greatly want to feel like maybe "Philip White's suffering was brought about and increased due to insufficient support for me, because the tragedy that hurt me damaged the whole state and country, and reduced relative support and sympathy for Philip, damaging him more, and I kind of like it," that doesn't make me feel bad and that is fine. I prefer when people care about me a lot, but as long as people are innocent and tolerant and good people, who do not *support* or *endorse* or *contribute to* efforts to hunt and harm me, but maybe feel angrily relieved that another person, me, has been attacked too, that does not bother me. Please go ahead and feel bitterly pleased that I got hurt too, just do not ever support or say efforts to attack me, including, even if you say "it pleases me that the fortune of Philip White as one example was not very good compared to my friend's outcome," i.e., do not say that it "*should* happen that way," even if you say you like it in an angry/bitter way afterwards. Don't let it be the case that you say or do things to make it happen to me more.

On Sunday, March 26, 2023 at 12:21:09 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 10:28:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 9:57:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 2:37:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, March 25, 2023 at 1:23:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 8:50:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:29:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, March 24, 2023 at 1:27:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:31:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:17:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:09:46 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:16:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:08:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:07:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:04:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 6:02:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:59:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:50:22 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:45:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 5:43:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:20:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 4:19:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:50:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:43:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 3:38:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:14:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:13:10 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:12:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 2:06:28 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:16:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:13:11 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:09:07 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 1:06:37 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:03:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:53:26 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 11:51:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:54:25 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:45:37 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:44:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 10:25:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, March 23, 2023 at 12:00:01 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 10:22:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:48:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 8:38:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 7:12:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:53:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:45:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:44:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:40:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:18:03 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:10:43 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, March 22, 2023 at 6:08:48 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Pasted:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/03/22/us/colorado-denver-school-shooting/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If the guy was saying, "W[hite] flat [, signed] I," then he is an idiot. My writing is psychologically very manipulative, in a way that no one else knows how to do. If it had had the intended effect, I would have gotten a job in Colorado, which was one of the two places other than LA that I had applied to work. My science work that went into writing my cover letter was not intended to cause harm or violence of any sort...it was supposed to get me hired, it didn't work that time, I don't know what nutty counter-measure the stealthily right-wing political freaks tried to keep me out of employment, perhaps the fascist-linked counter-measure cause the violence. There is a lot of science and a lot of algorithms and competing strategic "prescriptions" out there that influence daily events in all kinds of ways...often, bad deeds and malevolent intentions lead to very nasty outcomes as consequences, and the reason is not always clear. That is why I limit my mean behavior to insults, science-backed criticisms, and psychologically manipulative writing. Nothing I did, if well-understood, which it will not be, because I will never reveal how I do things, I *certainly* don't owe anyone that, would be anything that I would need to be ashamed of. I said, I am a saint...I am trying to *win my freedom* without breaking laws or doing any evil things. The Colorado "Department of Evil and Dirty Tricks" probably did something that got re-directed or retaliated for, or that changed "atmospheric conditions," in a way that they did not predict the outcome of. I always say, "crime doesn't pay." Do you not believe me yet???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please remember: I am not the only "science user" out there. There's even a whole fictional book called "A Wizard of Earthsea." Tons of people use STEM-backed ideas to pursue their interests ethically, you just aren't as maniacally obsessed with them as you are with me, Hinckley boys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, what is clear is, my econ-related ideas are more definitely sound--they are proved theorems about economics and game theory--than my secret other science ideas, that I use in my writing and can use in other product-manufacturing-related ideas if I choose, since, as it turns out, no one wishes to pay money to buy my intellectual property (my excellent image recognition / firefighting patent has attracted no inquiries). So I can predict, given the absolute airtight nature and non-speculative nature of my math/game theory proofs, how my econ will go and what effect it will have, and how attempts to thwart the truth (???) of my econ theorems will go, than I can with the STEM-backed writing ideas.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I will be fine, professionally, as soon as I can write code again. I never deserved this, I was 100% innocent, you even know it! I've proved it repeatedly! You can't just cage people for being liberal!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh, wow, wow, I got it! I just reverse-engineered Quioccasin Blond's "skit about converting to conservatism to avoid persecution for being liberal!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh yeah, I'm completely different know. You know what I hate..."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And then the swooning starts.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Great work, QB, I am not flirting with you at this time, but I feel certain that you do have a bright future in short-skit comedy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, I'm really trying to avoid listening to music, among other things, but I do need to apologize for Quioccasin Blond, on behalf of all of us Amadei, for this song:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBkAJGPEiSA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to reason with the bot, but it was futile!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened for like 10 seconds, it might have been too much.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Interestingly, I have won exactly 5 of the last 100 games that I have played against the chess dot com bots...most of the bots were rated over 2000, but I played one game against 1500 and a few against 1800 or 1900...and I drew one game. I lost literally every other game. It didn't really phase me, I'm fairly used to this way of "training at chess for now"...it's good for rejection sensitivity, I tell myself that I'm focused on learning and training, not winning a championship or something right now, so I'm mainly learning and improving my strengths that need improvement, as well as my weaknesses. I feel that I have a little bit more "intense strategy development" to do, and then I will probably a fully mature chess player, playing as well as I will ever play when I am "fully in shape" and practiced up enough.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, 80 of the games were against chess dot com "Komodo" bots that were rated 2200 or below...20 of them were against bots that were rated 2300 or higher (I didn't play any against any bots rated higher than 2600).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, there are two kinds of competitive actions in life and business: legal ones and illegal ones. In general, the average US citizen is "fairly well insured" against illegal actions, by anyone--the infrastructure is there. Some chess player could make a big impact in making me lose a date, for example, but "chess strategy" and "manipulation" has no *serious* effect on things that it is legally prohibited from having an effect on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What just happened was: I built a multi-million dollar mansion in Los Angeles--it was worth $10 million and I acquired the land and built it legally and frugally. I moved into the house, and then left one day and locked the doors and drove to the grocery store to get some food. When I left, a Silicon Valley tech company picked the lock of my house, entered it, quickly had all the locks changed, and moved them and their friends into the $10-million-dollar house, stealing it from me and locking me out of it, and bribing the LA police to prevent any prosecutorial action from taking place. Thus, I am unable to return to the house. Ultimately, I filed "a metaphorical lawsuit," basically automatically because freaky jealous tech geeks try to do this to me all the time--they think I'm the "right mark," and they're so wrong--and an ethical international bank with connections agreed to at least foreclose on the property. They got the property seized by their bank, and the Silicon Valley people are out on the street. Somehow, the police will still not let me move back into the house...I'm going to lose it...but the property will cause more harm than good to the people who stole it. Next time, when I try to make money in a big way--I won't build another "house"--I will face less enthusiasm about stealing it from me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the comment is, almost all of the students at UMW, even including me to an extent, were being "sent to hell" for perceived highly inappropriate behavior. I think Commonwealth Academy was horrible, and sent me there on purpose because they knew that as a liberal, I would be "in the shark tank" with many people who had "very odd reactions to liberalism" in their backgrounds at whatever likely highly conservative right-wing schools they went to, in many cases, for K-12...probably, the peers of the future-UMW-students in HS despised the future-UMW kids, and viewed them as morally indefensible, and manipulated them into attending UMW as a "hell school" for them to rot at. I think very few of the students who went there understood that; my father must have known something about it, he talked to a pricey educational consultant (at least, my parents claimed the consultant was pricey), and the consultant and Dr. Stage and Commonwealth Academy all recommended UMW. That would suggest that all of them were extremely evil and interested in getting me killed. I didn't understand how most/all of the students felt about me, they acted fake and civil and I had thought I had a number of friends...I didn't realize that just about everyone normal and not "allergic to liberals" except me had transferred away after freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the group that is properly protecting me is not a "big and well-connected" special interest group with lots of lobbyists near Congress...I think it is more like a "liberal activist protection and human rights group," of the sort that would protect Russian journalists who oppose Putin, and serious liberal (and maybe even more conservative) whistle blowers in the USA. I think it is a non-profit group, probably officially registered, that is despised, hunted, and heavily marginalized by the Rove types in particular and Congress overall, even though they probably still get donations.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One hint I got today at the mall was, "FOLD, AOC." Probably good advice, it is probably coming from her base, on a national level.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might check out her Tweets to see what kinds of stupid, far-right, pro-white-slavery nonsense she spews out in the next few days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A possibility that I considered: It is possible that Warren Buffett is secretly helping me, but not admitting to it. It could be that he *has* tried to delegate his security people to talk to me, and simply didn't tell Kroger that they should apologize--maybe he gets their big weakness, but maybe sees them as very bad at executive management, but less likely to cause customers/employees to be murdered, as a grocery store. (I will still never shop there again.) It is possible that Buffett has been trying to use his resources to help me and certain other abuse victims who have been targeted by the government to survive. If so, that's great, but I will not give a positive review...I'm pleased to be alive, but this didn't go so well and I had to do most of the "guidance," "debate," and "get out of captivity" work myself, although I was probably secured from violent threats by security people. I bet a lot of people are suspecting that he is doing it, and trying to blend in and say, "I'm just doing the same thing as Warren Buffett," but such people don't have money, and the job is already being done, if Buffett is already doing it. It's clearly not MSFT, the very problem is with my computers. I don't like Apple either; I'm suspicious of the banking industry, but so far have never had a bad experience with Wells Fargo, not that I will dare to review it positively in any way.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...here's hoping that this madness will stop soon, and common sense and human decency will prevail. I was blindsided to learn that I did not get the hints that people wanted to kill me at UMW...I think some people, like Cara Schulz, Lauren Shumate, and a few other people that I socialized with freshman year who transferred were not evil...I think there was an exodus of people who didn't want to be "immature stealth murderers" after that year went by with no resolution to the criminal conspiracy against me. Probably, Buffett's family never liked Shin Fujiyama, but wanted to influence SHH, partly to make it more effective, by getting a closer look and some sort of influence over it. I had thought Shin was my friend and boxing buddy at UMW, the hints about people wanting to murder me were all things that I missed...I didn't know any codes or facial expression hints; I tended to be an optimist and take people at face value, and not analyze them too much. I wasn't all that rude, I could be a little irreverent and sometimes told off-color jokes when people seemed to laugh and not mind. I was not a jerk at all, I didn't understand the interest in murdering me for an evil school project by a large percentage of the students. Probably, UMW was actually one of the worst schools in America for me to have attended; it felt much more civil than TJHSST in particular, I thought I was well-liked and as far as I could tell, people were civil and sociable with me. I didn't get the "ciphertext memo."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I see the cross shape in the window across the back yard from the window in the pool room, the light on in that house. It is creepy, very unpleasant to look at late at night, even though I feel much better. It reminds me of the scene in "Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" where the character Ms. Salander comes in saves Blomqvist from the torture-killer bad guy. It looks like a torture chamber, they have their KKK hood light on the top of their roof like they are so, so proud to be up and operational, in spite of all that anti-racist work. Maybe it is my imagination, though. Maybe they don't mean the shape of the house or the light on like that. It makes me think of torture chambers, cultures of abuse and silence, and medieval times. Was it always like this in the year 900 AD or so? Is this what the Christians really did to Jesus Christ, after he taught him all those lessons? "Thank you, Mr. Christ. Now, for your last trick, we'd like you to be a part of one last ceremony for us..." Which Christians pity Jesus Christ, which merely lust for a way of life with crucifixions for certain people?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, it is possible that my own short story publication has psychologically affected me a little bit tonight...I don't usually talk like this. It is OK, I feel fine.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hmmmm...so, this is a little weird and out there, and it might be completely false...but it almost sort of looks like some of the chess players whose social media posts I have been looking at are trying to hatch a plot to have a very desirable girlfriend that I have in the future, whomever that may be, raped by a man. Is that my imagination? I don't know. It occurred to me that that, or maybe some metaphorical version of that, maybe a threat of that, might be someone's weird and evil plot. I can't tell for sure. Maybe some sort of effort would be made to make a future girlfriend think that I, as a consent and laws adherent, would not be able to protect my dates against certain kinds of rape threats/attempts. I don't think that is really true...it is not "being a wuss" to follow rules, and it does not make you miss out on good opportunities of any kind. "Tough guy macho movie-livers" who want to throw their weight around to demand and extort their way into getting things that they want do not actually tend to prevail, including in the long run, in spite of some media portrayals to the contrary. That point is more definitely relevant and clearly based in reality.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here, I'll caption the photos:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, Philip...you see, dumb surprises really do triumph, in the end. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I did say I might be wrong though. I can never tell for sure if it's my imagination.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, regarding this photo:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.flickr.com/photos/38963105@N07/3590025036/
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I remember, right after my car accident in Nov 2007, I had been in Combs, the English department building, to talk to a professor I had a class with. Dr. Claudia Emerson, the poet laureate, whom I had never had a class with, was standing in her office, doing this approximate pose that I was doing in this photo...the photo was taken months after the Emerson sighting, in March 2008. I think Dr. Emerson was saying, "the math department professors know your body language tendencies, and they are going to snap a photo when you are in a particular pose that is like this one, and they will try to use that as evidence to bolster their case of lies against you." I do not know the cultural significance of the pose I am in; if it is from some well-known other source and seen (incorrectly) as a deliberate allusion by me in the past to that source, I don't know about it. If it's from another photo I haven't seen it. It sounds like Dr. Emerson was not evil and was trying to help me a little bit. It sounds like she never actually liked Ernest Ackermann, a CS professor who claimed to be friendly with her. He was more clearly against me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The medal system:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Gold Medal - 1000 people talked to me - I would keep publishing math research.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Silver Medal - 100 people talked to me - I would be an anti-abuse lawyer who would protect victims from perpetrators.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bronze Medal - I survive - I will write fiction in support of my own personal political values, which are great.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > According to a patient at the mental hospital when I was 15, who said, "pedal to the medal," I should in theory move to Philadelphia since Delia lives there. I probably won't actually do that. Maybe her comment is, since the actual medal was Bronze, and that's realistic, I should find my third-choice city and move there, just to drive home how impactful "the medal winning process" is, and how arbitrary things can be based on that all-important, to me, decision. Perhaps I should still move to Seattle, Washington, since that was my third-choice city, right after LA, before Denver, Colorado. The way I chose cities was simple and based on my own econ research...where does the powerful skill leader for atheism, and then being pro-science, live? Bill Gates, although he is evil, lives in Washington, and it has a high percentage of atheists there. Colorado has a science writer, named Philip Plait, who would appear to be (I'm not counting Paul Krugman because I'm thinking of the hard sciences) the top science writer in the USA...so I had thought I would get hired in Colorado, since I thought the pro-science skill leader would have created an environment that would be minimally hostile to pro-science people, including atheists. Somehow, it didn't work out...I can exert my force, but I can't know exactly how much "reaction force" will be exerted against by idiots who don't understand what breaking laws does to your efforts, even if you're not caught...there are people who *refuse* to understand that illegal activity can only damage your interests when you big, even science-backed efforts..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, after it's over and I've made money on the stock market (once the malware is gone), I might still move to Seattle.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might like LA, but to serve a higher purpose--helping out a childhood sex assault victim who didn't get "boatloads of likes" from political lobbying groups who made a recommendation, by adhering to her recommendation--I might just choose to live in Seattle instead, just because it serves the purpose of fighting for the people who are like me who got horribly abused and tortured and assaulted, and just "didn't get the like" or whatever from whatever lawyers or special interest groups, even though we deserved it, because we didn't sound like "their favorite characters from their favorite novels" or whatever to them. It will probably help to condition the US political society to shape up.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Gloria Allred and people like her "won't give me the like" because "they think I'm uncool." That sort of discrimination is why that movement is much more low on power than it ought to be. Allred chose to be unfair and arbitrary in selecting who gets how much help; the consequence is, the top political power source in the nation and the world, me and my ideas, is completely off limits to her and her team. I don't like rape either, but "Anti-Rape City" is run by unethical people, so if you are worried about rape, you should find an organization to help you other than one in "Anti-Rape City," because, although it is the "main resource," it is defective, especially morally and doesn't right. Oppose rape, but also oppose the "leaders" of the anti-rape/abuse/assault movement that do evil things in addition to fight some abusive actions.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As a political resource, I am better and more powerful than the entire US military, the entire US IC, the WH, Congress, all news media companies (television and print and internet), all Silicon Valley internet companies, all professors and researchers at Ivy League Universities, all professional investors, and all published writers, combined together.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why do you value John Nash and not me? Either you didn't, and you had him killed, or because you are nuts and dumb.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You are not good guys, bureaucrat boys. You are highly dangerous criminals and liars. If you had wanted "access granted" instead of "access denied" to my "fort," you should have said "Philip, please," instead of "torture him again." It was not illegal to publish diff eq; I had to to survive. Why do you keep blaming *me* for your terrible choices and actions? You knew exactly what to do--I even told you, I don't live in a chapter of a Harry Potter book and I don't work for free, actually just like you--and you refused to do it. YOU failed. You will not win any war by scapegoating your best people and torturing them. Again, *I QUIT*, I do not break laws, *I AM NOT YOUR ***PROPERTY,*** * and I do not owe it to you to alter my math publications for you, because you feel that you have a "special relationship with me as a chair" because you have tormented for so long, apparently without being stopped by anyone sane.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have "chronic war losing disorder," and you ought to blame yourselves instead of me. My performance was perfect, even generous; every time I have tried to help you, you have lied about it, said my service did not exist, claimed I was stealthily sabotaging you and lying, and lied and said I was a right-wing extremist, and not you. Do you have any social skills at all??? You are *so bad* with people and getting them to do things for you, no wonder your wives are so ugly! Getting me to help you was easy, you just chose not to do what was required, then you began squawking and crying, right on cue, because you botched "the deal" that you think you're so "artsy" at because you said "fuck you, I'm going to torture you to death," instead of "please." WTH?? How are you in politics, you have no deal-making, investment, strategic, negotiation, or getting-what-you-want skill at all??? It was so easy to get my STEM work, in the past before I locked you out, that a 16 year old could easily have gotten it from me if he or she had had your job. How dense are you????? Stop blaming me, you basically had to "push a green button," you didn't want to, I told you that you should, you refused, your operation blew up, just like last time, because your doctrine sucks...and now you want to cry and squawk harder, like little bureaucrat baby boy wusses, and say it's *MY* fault that you are total failures at things that are so simple that they don't qualify as strategy?? THIS IS NOT A COMMUNISM. IF YOU WANT GOODS AND/OR SERVICES FROM ME, YOU ARE PAYING FOR THEM IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET THEM, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. I AM NOT MAKING YOU A FREE LUNCH OR A STEALTH BOMBER. YOU ARE NOW BANNED FROM RECEIVING STEM RESEARCH FROM ME, EVEN FOR MONEY.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I thought I had typed, "WHETHER YOU LIKE *ME* OR NOT," but maybe I didn't.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe it would have been unfair for me to offer you any STEM; since you are such right-wing nutjob extremists, I might have been empowering some very bad people if you had said "yes" to me and purchased my STEM ideas.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway...you are permanently banned from obtaining any more of my original STEM research, so it is a moot point. I will never publish research for anyone, ever again. I will likely teach my kids STEM.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States deprives me of the ability to be fully healthy and happy, the ability to socialize, the ability to have sex, and the ability to have my own residence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - The United States is deprived of its ability to compel via incentives to do work to mainly help the US economy, and instead, I am forced to do roughly equally if not more powerful work to damage the US economy, to strike back for the loss of my freedoms.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also: I think the deal with my psychiatrist was supposed to be, that I would be fully out in Sept 2020, and not bothered by the government again. I think the government deliberately faked compliance with the agreement, and started harassing me full-force on the day that Biden took office. Probably, the US government was massively sanctioned internationally by medial practitioner groups, for lying about what they were going to do, in accordance with a deal, with my doctors. Probably, my guess, Dr. K complained very aggressively about it. I was supposed to be a completely free man in September 2020...that is what I was led to believe I was at first, I thought I was out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would bet: It's actually over in June. Fauci has likely been added to an international anti-psychiatry neo-Nazi watchlist, and COVID is expected to go away in late May, and then it won't, and the int'l doctors group will allow it to go away as soon as they finally release me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be: Early June, Biden refuses to release me, media is compelled to act to remove Biden from office, Harris takes over, Harris drops me as a slave, COVID ends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Satire of Dr. Chiang and Usenet poster "wij":
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "WHAT an incredible opportunity, to get to kill another student; I had always wanted to do this, more than anything else, back in high school, a.k.a. China."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I.e.: It is now obvious that pretty much every math major except me when I was at UMW literally had the mind, behavior, ethics, and political ideology of a high-school shooter. The professors were similar.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Why yes, the entire country is falling apart while we Americans wait for our leaders to turn 10.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And no, I don't know the perfect solution for getting them to grow up and cut it out. I have many skills and can do many jobs; I am not good at abnormal psychology.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One think I heard, long ago, from a grocery store worker who hurt me emotionally: It sounds like the claim, given the use of a "Southern Western accent," was that it was understood by the person that my psychiatrist, Dr. K, had used a mild "Western accent" in an appointment me. Perhaps the claim is, SW means "white slavery," essentially, and support for that, and just Western means, "White," i.e., Philip White professionally...it sounds like the allegation is, the psychiatrist was less invested in my psychiatric care than I was, i.e., he should have the same amount of pay for his work as I got--none, and plenty of emotional pain while on dubious medications.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know if that's accurate, I just felt like repeating the claim. Is it *against doctor rules* to write a stern letter to a local government official, demanding that I be released from satellite and malware captivity?? Can't anyone, anywhere, other than me write that letter? I'm keenly aware that if I, even being disliked by many political readers, wrote to a government official, persistently, and as a person completely separate from say, a homeless abuse victim with a complaint, I would be *very effective*, politically, at getting that person's problem resolved, because I would be *advocating for a person who is not me*, and thus I would not be vulnerable to attacks my character--I would not be "on trial" in any sense, and I would be able to stand up for the other victim very effectively and persistently, and I would probably "go public" on the internet and drum up sympathy for the victim, and get enough support to get the person freed. I can do that. Has anyone who has heard of me got that capability?? WTH are you doing, what do you really want, why don't you support me seriously when you know for sure that I'm innocent and deserve my release? What on earth do you "activists" think you're doing? Another walk-in visit? Whom does that help, your quack researchers?? You want me to say something else on the internet for you to analyze, so you can pretend you're learning something?? Where's my sternly worded letter, from someone other than me, to the local and/or federal government???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sound like my Uncle Welsh was an extremely powerful, extremely disliked lawyer...it would appear that even the people who praised him in his obituary were actually thrilled that he died. They did not all like him, most of them opposed his principled liberalism, and they faked it, as they did with me, and cheered quietly and in code when he died. That is crazy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Indeed, the next time someone murders a black person in the RVA area, Benjamin Crump will not show up at all, because there will be no risk of anyone turning to me instead. Indeed, Mr. Crump got he wanted; a cryptic hate shout-out from the mother of victim, denouncing me for surviving and not being religious. Thus, the RVA black community loses all connection to serious, aggressive political petitions, in the future. Crump won't be back, and neither will I...that's what he wanted, the next murder won't be big in the news.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A very large percentage of black people in this region have been forcibly radicalized to hate me and the way that my Uncle Welsh stood up for their rights. Hopefully, it is not black people all across the country. There is nothing wrong at all with Uncle Welsh or me. We were both fine people who served the cause of anti-discrimination honorably, no matter what anyone says.. Soon, the gangsta, Kanye-and-Barack-approved black people, who sign up to join the "Obama's way ONLY, just so, or we hate you and will you if you speak about tolerance military," will basically have no friends, politically or personally, for their lives and American citizenships. If you hate the US Constitution, whatever your race is, you're welcome to leave and move to another country. I hope most black people will not be that dumb, manipulable, and blindly pro-conformity.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The black coalitions that hate my uncle and grandfather have ganged up not on their worst political enemies at Fox News, not on far-right extremist racists who want to exterminate and suffocate black people and make America a White Power nation, but instead, one of their *top supporters ever*, in the recent past, other than big-deal black leaders like MLK--my Uncle Welsh and his entire family. Uncle Welsh dedicated his career to serving the interests of discriminated against ethnic minorities, and now, a charlatan, "Barack Obama," has inspired thousands of people, including blacks, and others, to rise up *against*...drum roll please...one of their top backers who avidly fought the death penalty, because it was used against blacks. At least, I think that's why Uncle Welsh did it...I haven't actually read any of his books, it's my assumption.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Right now, my impression is, the only surviving practicing lawyer who *thinks* that I should have a sternly worded letter written by one or more lawyers to government officials demanding clarification and my release, is, Richard Toikka, and he seems to have declined to do it, maybe because his focus is on immigration, or because he helped in another way and sternly believes that a different lawyer, practicing in the correct area of law, should assist me instead.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Who killed or flunked or locked out all the other real lawyers?? I know what happened to the mathematicians!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Today, I cannot get a lawyer. Tomorrow, in a sense, not one person in the English-speaking world will be able to access a real lawyer either...congratulate yourselves, you're no longer Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, regarding today...I am feeling pretty calm. I wasn't choked last night! I have a system for dealing with that now, maybe that will decrease in frequency. I thought today that it would be fun to meet Quioccasin Blond if she is a good person and interested in meeting me for real, although I might be a boring conversationalist. I would also like to meet other people too. I am trying to type words in a calm way.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I was basically healthy before, but I am feeling increasingly non-(hypo)manic and stable. I am not as drawn to thinking about lots of math and/or chess ideas. I am now at the point where if I think about math, I'm unlikely to "auto-rocket-launch" and have tons of great ideas effortlessly and then not get tired quickly at all. At this point, I can think about mathematical ideas in a way that makes me tired, which is new for the recent time period.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I felt uncomfortable for most of today...I think the choking from the night before last, and the ones just before that, might have somehow psychologically/biologically messed up my digestive system...I ate oatmeal as I was supposed to, and yet my reflux continued. It won't affect me in the long run, but it is very uncomfortable now...the bad guys seem to be experimenting with the idea of "eliminating the feeling of relief" that comes with their torture stopping, that is pretty weird and pointless, but that seems to be the freaky and evil thing they are into this time. So strange, they're going nowhere good in their lives and careers, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am kind of out of things to do for tomorrow. I decided to stop playing chess, and analyze my latest system more closely and "find a good system that is provably mathematically optimal' before I play another game. I might work on that tomorrow, but I have gotten a little bit tired of doing chess-related things so much lately, but I can't think of that much else to do. All the work that needs to be done for now is already done. I'm quite at a loss for things to do, I don't feel like reading my novel right now--is that the choking too?--and I don't have any activity idea that I'm looking forward to other than chess, and I don't want to do chess for a day or two, for variety's sake.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my best source on when it is over is Richard Toikka...I think his claim was, if it is over in any particular year, it will be over in May. I think and hope that it is May 2023...if not, it will probably be May 2024, which will be very upsetting, and very very much retaliated for. We'll see, I guess...there's really no limit to how much more legal damage I can legally inflict on the bad guys for trying to own me as a slave, I can and will retaliate until they stop it!!! They'll regret it later, you can bet on that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I still feel a little bit of discomfort in my esophagus. It is not my fault and would have happened anyway, I don't feel that it is a disgrace on my part, just another freaky psychotic think that some zonked out failed politicians want to do because they are obsessed and crazy. I probably shouldn't have mentioned John Hinckley recently in an insulting way...he paid his debt to society, and is way less scary and dangerous than the WH and Congress squad, at this point, post-Bush-election. He didn't try to escape from getting caught, he was willing to stand trial, even got found not guilty. Sad that he was confused and killed people--that ruins lots of lives--but he's really not the most angering person out there at all.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway I'm going to go take my meds soon. Here's hoping it's over soon!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, I figured out what I will do tomorrow, and I will take my meds soon...I am still a little bit bothered by reflux, I don't know why that is happening.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I recently bought the video games, MDK and MDK 2, by the makers of Earthworm Jim. So I decided that it wouldn't hurt to start playing them tomorrow, so I'll make that an activity that I do so that I can have something to do.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Soon, the terrorists who have been attacking me will be defeated and ruined once and for all! I bet Prince Harry is one of them and his marriage will be fully dead in like a year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A rumor I remember having heard at TexelTek, around the water cooler so to speak, from an anonymous cleared individual:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > David Petraeus is a confirmed pedophile.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it true? I don't know, I can't confirm it myself. Surely someone would take that seriously and want to investigate it though, right? Like the FBI and Gloria Allred would be *all over that* if they heard the news, for sure. Of course.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, somehow taking my medications seems to have alleviated the reflux. Maybe it was psychological, and based on the choking...it makes me a little bit uncomfortable all day when I have serious reflux. Hopefully reflux cannot become immune to oatmeal treatments, as recommended by the internet! Also, hopefully, I will not be choked tonight. That would be greatly preferable, also the most rational and non-stupid/non-evil course of action for the bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept well last night, and was not choked. Also, I am up late today...I woke up at around 12.. I'll probably get to the mall by 2, I'll be a little bit later than I had planned. I might do a little bit of chess strategizing today after all. Hopefully today will be free of abuse and other harassment incidents. I feel fairly calm and OK right now, I don't feel bothered and haven't had any reflux problems yet.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized that my ideas about investing in the stock market actually might not work at all.. Although in theory they should, I realized that there is probably "permanent algorithmic work" that has been done so that if I, or anyone, ever use any software--Excel macros, C++ code, etc.--to try to predict the stock market, my computer that I would be using would automatically send details about how to thwart my investing ideas to other computers and satellites, and that would lead to a situation where my excellent trading strategy would be thwarted. As a matter of fact, given my position politically, I will probably be thwarted at all software and STEM things that I try to do--just like everyone else. From Harvard and MIT professors to Mark Zuckerberg to me, it turns out, just about everyone's software is sabotaged to make it strategically ineffective, based on satellites. At least, that is my theory. Only simple, non-innovative, non-competitive code can be written by any law-abiding citizen.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I will need to wait until I am liberated enough to speak to other people, and then, although I may try to use software to predict the stock market with software, I will probably fall victim to the same exact sabotage as literally every other coder in the world...the software would be lifted by satellite-based or inherently coded in malware, and the code would be used to do something to prevent my algorithmic trading strategy from making any serious money.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I might still have to get a job to make money. I might start a business outside of engineering someday too. I still want to help Africa, it just looks like a lot of the intuitively appealing ways to do so for someone with my talents are blocked by sabotage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I had planned to stop posting to the internet entirely. I could post updates about my health, but I worry that, given, vaguely speaking, surprisingly effective efforts to damage my physical health a little bit (it has to do with my throat, basically), my reports might get used by bad guys to affect me. So I will probably keep some health-related details to myself for now, since apparently no one can stop the bad guys from assaulting me, no matter how nice and perfect I am.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, my big news is, I think I figured out a great mathematical way to predict the stock market that does not require *any* Excel work! In theory, I shouldn't even need to write anything down. I discovered the idea partly by accident. I am going to investigate the idea over the weekend to make sure it really works and flesh it out a little, and if all goes well, I might be able to start trading on Monday, and help Africa in a very timely manner after all, in spite of infuriating efforts by Obama/Biden/etc. to impede my efforts. Each day I learn more, I'm quite creative.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, to put it vaguely, I've felt "quite uncomfortable" lately. That is very unpleasant, I should be able to get through each day feeling OK. I'm disappointed that this is still being done to me. As it turns out, it is not all that unlikely that, just as Jennifer Shahade predicted, I will be out of here in April! I will try to mind how I feel each day...vaguely speaking, I still feel bad today. I am trying some things, which I won't specify, to try to fix the problem.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > How odd that doctors will talk to the government, but will not speak to me about abuse concerns, and never seem to be able to get me to the point of feeling good! I am right about everything--very very in touch with reality--but oddly very underserved as a psych patient in ways that could be remedied by quickly "turning away from 'establishment doctrine'", which they basically never do unless it's to abuse me, to an extreme degree. I wonder why that is? The deviations from the norm by doctors are sometimes abusive, literally never helpful, e.g., no one ever "levels with me" to talk about "what is really going on."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is laughable. What do MD psychiatrists think they are paid 6 figure salaries for annually, if not to fix patients' conditions? It would appear that my mood disorder aspect of my condition is not fixed, because all psych professionals nationally have opted to take a vow of silence about abuse. Hilariously stupid, historically significant all of you. Psychiatrists of the future will view *every* living psych doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist, as a total disgrace. Your careers, frankly, were mostly worthless. You have one job, and refuse to do it because "Papa Government" would prefer that you not mention a few things that they, as people who do *not* pay you over $100 for a 15-30 minute session, have charmed you into accepting. Maybe there was a good psych doctor once who died in a car accident? I don't know. At least you're not journalists!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My mood is still awaiting care...I was confirmed to have a mood disorder in 2007, it is now 2023, this is worse than Britney Spears, how can you "not know what to do next" to help me with my mood? *Every day*, I am still abused or hurt from literal *abuse from flying robots*, and you all..."prefer not to mention it," to adhere to whatever. Do you understand that psychiatrists can be manipulated by bad guys, too? Everyone, in theory, can be manipulated by anyone else, even unconsciously...I was once manipulated by a fly into curing blindness, maybe I should have cited the fly sooner.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I realized this morning that I will probably never fall in love again or love anyone again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can still be a fairly happy person, though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do like it: "My non-existent love doth thy life destroy." I am not even mean or unfair at all.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Actually, you will give in, and I will not. I do not make decisions at random.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Your problem is, you are not on guard, you do not see how much trouble your establishment is in, and you expect more help than you are able to receive. Further, you do not understand what your greatest enemies want from you. You will do something, it will be work, you will see it as "just what is needed to keep your enemies from getting what they want," and you will be wrong--it will likely be the opposite of that. Duh.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > AH, now I see...you started a non-consensual chess game with me, for my life, and you lost a lot of material, and now I have a lot more material than you, and a winning position, but there are many moves left to make and lots of time left on the clock...so, in the spirit of asking for *fairness*, you have asked me...to give you a lot of your material back, so that you can have a chance at winning again, so that you can defeat me and kill me. Interesting idea. Begging me for my material back without resigning or stopping trying to kill me, because you think some other morons would think that is *fair*, will trick me into giving you your lost assets back. Obviously: No.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Because: You have gazed upon other people that you find appealing who have sought and received His matter-of-fact approval, and gazed upon other people you used to find appealing who seemed so reduced when they did not receive His approval. You joined the harem. You don't see how artists, in the media and in real life conversations, create an atmosphere to deceive you, to create a fake art-only-backed culture, that you will avidly seek to join, that shows a "picture that makes perfect sense, where everything falls into place," that is a horrible and highly immoral trap, but you will never ask initially if the culture is wrong, you will join and "marry" the culture, and then, you will *assault* anyone who tells you that you have gravely erred, rather than listen. A number of juicy and catchy songs will reinforce your decision; you won't turn back until you basically have nothing have left.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey, idiots: Resign. You could save some of your "investment" or whatever that I couldn't care less about if you would stop. Or you could keep going and lose everything, I would prefer that you not though. Up to you if you want to be smart or dumb.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A message to psych workers, especially psychologists and psychiatrists: Your job is well-defined. It is not to judge patients. It is not to mentally stimulate yourself with patient idiosyncrasies and unique flavors of patient behavior. It is not to masturbate in your mind while looking at and talking to a patient. It is to *fix and manage the patient's symptoms associated with their condition*. It is not a fun field trip to the zoo for you. You have a job, just like any janitor, and you must do it, or quit--do not be a fraud, do not waste people's time and money, help their health improve as quickly as possible or get a different job.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Ugh...it is hard to think and work with the amount of reflux I am still having. I don't know where it came from. Please retaliate on my behalf! The bad guys should not hurt me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am back from walking at the mall and feeling a little better. Standing up and eventually eating some food seems to help. I am not having a reflux problem right now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Comment on bad guys tactics:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Wow, same exact bag of tricks. Also, same extract trick. Dumb!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here is a link to a nice interview that Jennifer Shahade put on her Twitter with her and a French Holocaust survivor who was also a French chess champion. I hadn't heard of until now...some of her comments are brief, but seem to maybe have a deeper meaning. I might revisit them later when I may want to analyze them, sometimes people with unique perspectives have more meaning in what they say, even briefly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/chesscom/status/1639287042294050818?cxt=HHwWhMCzjaa49b8tAAAA
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > While I was out in public, I noticed someone, maybe on the sidewalk, maybe elsewhere, who was not definitely a reliable source but whom I had seen before more than once, who was hinting that Jennifer Shahade might not be trustworthy or on my side. I do know, I do not see any "red flag" issues with Jennifer Shahade or Vanessa Sun's page myself that I can discern; the source may have been saying something else, maybe I misunderstood, and the source might have been lying, but the hint was, there were perhaps some suspicious abnormalities spotted on MIT affiliates' social media pages that had something to do with people from that environment watching this area with physical personnel present in the RVA area. Again, I can't confirm the the source was correct, or even on my side him/herself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I have a general comment to make about the Holocaust, which is a good comment and just speculation on my part. Have readers who are good, anti-genocide people ever wondered if, if you were sent to a concentration camp, if other people who were targeted to be sent might be interested in making deals to get you sent there instead? It is a sad thing to consider...did some people actually make nasty deals with Nazis to get someone else treated worse so that they could go free? I wonder if there were two types of such people, the forgivable, and the hard to forgive. Some people might have done what they could, within reason, to compete in desperation to avoid the camps and escape, and some people might have been more like Kanye West...also interested in escaping from Nazi persecution, but far too greedy, nasty, and sadistic to qualify as having been fair about trying to stay alive.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I make my comment purely as speculation. I don't think it would offend any good guys who fought the Nazis or were victimized by them; I am trying to remember the sadness of the Holocaust, and remember the survivors and celebrate their survival and legacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > If there were African-American slaves who had survived the 1860's and before in US history, I would want to honor them in the same way. Indeed, although I don't know if Ms. Choko has read my comments or will, I find it to be a pleasing and gratifying experience to write something on the internet that might compliment and honor historically important victims of a very sad mass tragedy, one of the saddest ever. My ten-year-old self would be proud of me today for taking advantage of an opportunity to say something nice related to very important history and very important victories against evil, decades ago.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Great news! It looks like my stocks strategy will totally work, and also allow me to do some other kinds of important strategic work, too. Using my new ideas, I will probably be able to use internet posts, sometime in the fairly near future, to drive away all attacks against me, from malware, denouncements, and other inappropriate and illegal attacks against me. In theory, I should be able to win the White House with this idea alone if I wanted to.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I said I am not going to cite things too much, but I should probably give a little bit of credit for some help that got me started....based on seeing chess dot com Twitter user Sam Copeland on Jennifer Shahade's Twitter, I was inspired to think of a great "strategic direction" for something related to chess that, perhaps using a few jumps to something totally unrelated to chess but related to math, or maybe not, allowed me to develop this excellent stocks prediction strategy! I will probably spend tomorrow doing the actual calculations on the stock market data I have saved on Excel to test out the idea and see, quantitatively, just how effective it is, and then hopefully, I will begin trading tomorrow! I just hope my reflux will become less of a problem, I am quite angry at how inappropriately my health has been de-prioritized. It is *totally outrageous* to damage my health just because Joe Biden and Barack Obama don't like me and don't feel like following laws. No one should help them or support them, it is shameful to support them!
> > > > > > > > > > > A comment about Nazi terrorists around here who may want to bother me: I have never actually killed a Nazi terrorist with my own two hands, but I am interested. If you are a local stalker and you come up to me physically and do anything illegal enough, such as slapping me, I would be *thrilled* to finally get a chance to kill a Nazi terrorist, probably by punching him/her repeatedly in the face and then strangling the person until they were did. I have never strangled anyone before, but I would get the hang of it quickly I'm sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Also, I can't wait to update you: Now that I have my latest strategy equipped, I realized, I can never use internet posts and some of my ideas to trigger a nuclear bomb explosion in Virginia, because that would be illegal. At the same time, as of today, I am very interested in using computer-based internet posts to trigger country-ending nuclear explosions in: Great Britain, Iran, Israel, and Saudi Arabia. It would not be illegal to do so, they are not Americans. As I continue my work on investing, I will definitely consider looking into ways to strike back against the war -like, fascist countries that have preyed on me for so long.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Of course, the CIA will not allow other countries to hack me...they prefer that the capabilities I have stay in American hands. I'm basically positive that it's not illegal, since they are not Americans....feel free to contact me if you disagree, I'm almost certain you won't.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I'm feeling better! Call me whatever names you want.
> > > > > > > > > > Actually...I changed my mind. I could trigger nuclear explosions in other bad countries, but I would prefer not to do so right now.. That is not an appropriate priority for me right now, so I will focus on other things instead of that.
> > > > > > > > > Yes, it would be a mistake for me to do more work, even "war-like work," other than writing fiction and investing/donating to help other ungrateful people. Create your own mushroom clouds if you want them, I am not doing work of that nature, whether it is important or not.
> > > > > > > > When I can, I will lead a simple, calm, private life.
> > > > > > > One thing I could do, other than cause a nuclear explosion, is just tank all stocks in Taiwan. I don't think market manipulation in countries that aren't the USA is illegal, and also, I am very much under duress.. So, I think for simplicity, I will just make all the stocks in Taiwan plummet if I'm attacked again and wij talks after that.
> > > > > > Yes, you will likely not figure out how I innovate, but if you're interested in how I make decisions, here's a good list of questions to simulate me asking myself:
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> > > > > > - Can I be sure I can do it?
> > > > > > - Is it something I want to do, that would serve my sense of pride/success, my personal outcomes like money or fun, or my sense of "appropriate service?"
> > > > > > - Is it illegal under US law?
> > > > > > - Would it be fair to the people who would be negatively impacted?
> > > > > > - Would it be fair to me???
> > > > > > - If I did it, would it be seen as a thing where if I did do it, it might mean that someone had taken advantage of me to obtain unfair gains from me, given my life situation right now and how I would be compensated/helped by my action?
> > > > > > - Is it ethical, and if it might seem "very mean or destructive," is there an appropriate way I could choose an alternative or soften the blow?
> > > > > > - Will I be safe and healthy and have a pleasant/healthy/improving life if I do or don't do it?
> > > > > > - Could someone more powerful than I am with poor morals and ethics retaliate against me for my action in a way I really couldn't handle?
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> > > > > > This is a brief guide to how I always choose to do the right thing.
> > > > > I think I am going to cool off for the rest of tonight...I thought about destroying other countries tonight, clearly I was very angry, and after such incidents where I feel enraged, I often feel a desire to cool down, make some disclosures to reassure myself and others that I *am* a fair and moral person who doesn't cross the line, and try to relax and do something fun/calming so that I can think about things other than the things that are enraging me.
> > > > My external computer mouse is missing; that means, if wij ever posts again on any of my threads, I will divert time from stock market investing to focus on damaging the Taiwanese stock markets instead, ASAP.
> > > I just figured out why the good-guy activist groups don't want to say anything to me...the reason is that they are all involved in physically surveilling some of the bad guys, and probably identify themselves to the FBI only anonymously.
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> > > I think that proves that every person who is not overtly not aligned with a relevant political non-profit group is bad, unless they are too low-income to be able to afford to speak to me or not local to me. So sadly, it looks like Jennifer Shahade is a bad guy...she is surely not to "bad guy surveillance operations," so she has no reason not to speak out more loudly about me, just like condemned British establishment-poodle Richard Dawkins.
> > If I feel really tired or out of it, I might start in with the stocks thing slowly...I will mind my my health first, and focus on Africa support secondly, after that.
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> > I am thinking that it might be over in a few weeks...someone hinted to me that maybe the FBI has been compelled, via legal/political action, to get involved in this mess. Perhaps the community is convinced that 13-year-old student Lucia Bremer, who was tragically murdered, was targeted by Spanberger and Mark Warner, and that AS didn't work for CIA; maybe MW and AS will get arrested, that will be great. If people who have suffered greatly want to feel like maybe "Philip White's suffering was brought about and increased due to insufficient support for me, because the tragedy that hurt me damaged the whole state and country, and reduced relative support and sympathy for Philip, damaging him more, and I kind of like it," that doesn't make me feel bad and that is fine. I prefer when people care about me a lot, but as long as people are innocent and tolerant and good people, who do not *support* or *endorse* or *contribute to* efforts to hunt and harm me, but maybe feel angrily relieved that another person, me, has been attacked too, that does not bother me. Please go ahead and feel bitterly pleased that I got hurt too, just do not ever support or say efforts to attack me, including, even if you say "it pleases me that the fortune of Philip White as one example was not very good compared to my friend's outcome," i.e., do not say that it "*should* happen that way," even if you say you like it in an angry/bitter way afterwards. Don't let it be the case that you say or do things to make it happen to me more.
> Another thing: I realized one way to deal with reflux is to sit up straight or stand up and/or walk for a long time after eating. I think if all the food gets digested then you won't feel as bad. I am going to try that more.. I am feeling a bit congested in my nose right now. I am trying to think of ways to be calm and relax, every time I approach a way to get financially independent again, I get nervous and tense.
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> I am going to make out my schedule for tomorrow. I tried out MDK today, and it is fairly fun, and I can still play without the mouse...the Ctrl button works in lieu of the mouse click...but the bot made the game force quit twice. I might come back to it tomorrow or later. I might just try to relax and skip the stocks thing for now, I don't know what to do.