On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 3:02:48 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 2:28:21 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 2:06:16 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 2:05:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 1:48:44 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 1:23:40 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 1:13:02 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Sunday, April 23, 2023 at 12:35:14 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 11:42:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 11:39:57 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 11:38:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 11:05:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 10:25:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 10:22:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 10:17:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 8:32:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 8:30:24 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 2:36:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 2:21:14 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 2:16:53 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 2:08:40 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 2:03:27 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 1:46:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 1:45:02 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 1:35:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 12:39:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 12:33:31 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 12:30:04 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 12:28:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 11:19:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 11:18:39 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 10:58:45 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 10:45:41 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 10:45:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 10:28:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 8:31:42 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 8:24:21 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 8:22:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:34:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:30:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:13:44 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:11:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:11:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:03:34 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 3:02:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 2:19:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 2:19:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 2:18:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:51:38 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:33:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:32:58 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:24:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:16:59 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Friday, April 21, 2023 at 12:15:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 11:14:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 10:59:19 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 10:55:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 10:53:36 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 9:54:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 7:42:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 4:19:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:33:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:31:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:29:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:18:53 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:09:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I copied it again, here's what I said:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll answer the "WHAT H" prompt from the news:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Should I not have to follow rules? I think I should follow all of the rules that I'm required to follow as an American. I don't think my life is a movie, and that a "cool judge character" will show up and tell me, "you know what pardner, I'm the boss around here, and I think, even though you broke one of the biggest rules in the book...*I* think you're OK, and *my* opinion is what matters." I don't expect or value that.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you think you should have to follow the rules? How old are you? Do you think you should maybe have to follow *just some* of the rules? Which rules do you not care about? Whom do you see as the "rules boss" who would get you if you violated one of the rules not in the omitted subset? Do life-and-death rules matter? If lots of other people were dying, would you start to follow the rules that you were previously breaking that, if you would actually would follow them, would save the people who were dying, just as those rules were designed to do?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, the reason why I am not trying to make friends around here is, in addition to the fact that I'm worried that this area is filled with wild, evil right-wing extremists, I also do not have a source of income. I believe in the idea that adult women out of college typically are not likely to be impressed by men who do not have a job or a source of income; maybe "I have been sick and I've been abused" is a defensible case, but that is not likely to be attractive to most desirable women. I have been trying to become financially independent now, very vigorously, since September 2020, and *every time* I try to do it, it's like that scene from Spider-man 1 at the end where the Green Goblin steps on Spider-man's hand as he's trying to shoot out another web, and basically, he's saying, "It's game over, Philip, you cannot shoot any more webs, you are strictly forbidden from ever working or having a job ever again.." That is outrageous, highly illegal, and pure evil.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible that the very few people I've interacted with who tried to help me a little bit have very different political beliefs from what my beliefs are, too. I'm willing to discuss my beliefs; if someone could explain to me why they think my core assumptions about politics and the world are wrong, or why some conclusions I've drawn based on my core values and beliefs are wrong, I'm open to changing my beliefs after some sort of friendly enough discussion or debate...my goal is to be *right* about all my beliefs, not to be illogical or morally wrong in any way. If there's some serious objection to my political beliefs from the law-enforcement types of other people in this area, I haven't heard what that objection might be. I think all of my behaviors and beliefs are fine and normal.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do people who would claim that they don't just hate me biologically for being mentally ill have some specific objection to my "code of conduct" or how I behave? Given my circumstances and how I'm treated in American society, shouldn't my way of acting qualify as "highly competitive and productive/high-achieving, and admirable"? Is there something I'm doing wrong that others would do differently in my situation that I'm not aware of? AFAIK, everything I've done has been perfectly correct, since May 2011.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you think I need to "learn my place?" I know my place. I am writing on my own threads on the internet. I have tried to get help, and am typically denied real service whenever I contact anyone. The government's place is not in my room with satellites, or on my computer with malware. The government is supposed to follow the rules for it too. I am in "my place," and the government has done and allowed things to be done to me that other citizens in this area would really really not like the government doing to them. Why should I be treated differently from the rest of you, if it is really not based on prejudice and biological-discrimination-based extremism as they claim?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am the person in this area who said, "be humane and pay your debts."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You rejected me, and it was because I am biologically different.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Women" of this area, in particular, what will you do when I am gone and you try to make the same sort of protest? Maybe you will sound like a Papa Roach or Metallica song.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just completed a huge math breakthrough that is very important and dazzling to me, and it ought to help me become a better chess player! I'm excited about it, and will work with it more in the next few days; it is possible that I have found "the right place to dig" for more great STEM ideas, and that I'll stay with this particular idea for years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it is also worth noting that, in the future, I'm committed to using copyright protection--after I'm out of captivity--to secure my research rights, and prevent people from using my work without it being for exactly what I intend it to be for, and without *giving me credit* in particular. I'll be sure to do some great research into anti-plagiarism, too, to support that cause.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, when I'm ready, and have gotten enough money from the removal of the malware from my computer (I contacted the FBI yesterday, and I wonder, does Chris Voss say to people at book signings, "I hate your disabled kid!!!!!" ?), I will do research frequently, and basically *research for credit*. I am very brilliant, and once *getting credit* for my work is my last real professional goal, I will basically engineer myself a clear path to fame and accolades, including a Nobel Prize.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > For those goons and other idiots who think it is a good use of your time to try to "contain me to protect the precious precious reputation of Joseph Schwartz and a few other freaky quacks who somehow acquired higher education credentials", let me tell you right now, you *are* wasting everyone's time, and money. No one is going to pay you for holding me back; I am doing the real work and the real research, all you are doing by trying to cage me is ruining yourselves, ruining the USA, holding back valuable STEM research that I refuse to share until I'm liberated, disgracing Congress and the WH, and causing very many mass shootings every week. You are not getting some big movie-like thank you after the "end of the containment effort," every day of my time you waste hurts Biden's polls, kills American citizens, kills people in Africa, and kills people Ukraine. Putin isn't going to pay you for that, maybe you can score up a few pennies from ISIS or whatever is left of al-Qaeda? Whatever "service" you're saying that you're providing by keeping me from working, no one but a few thousand failed organized crime lunatics want to thank you, and they aren't exactly known for their generosity or honesty. You ought to just stop now and leave me alone, you're mainly hurting yourselves, and the people you are feeding to terrorists--I'm not even directly injured, it's just a few more days or weeks of my time.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please leave me alone and stop following me around, planning attacks or whatever against me, and just go home.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, if 10,000 people in the US were going to die because they aren't getting access to my research on time because the FBI isn't answering me, would they break formation and finally email me and help me get rid of the malware??
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I will get out of this someday and it will be discussed when I'm a famous billionaire and researcher...if the FBI doggedly refuses to speak to me because I'm disabled, I will eventually get a lawyer and try to contact the FBI through a lawyer. I also contacted HCPD; they stonewalled me and refused to help. I contacted VA state police too, and they haven't answered yet. Disgusting corruption and deliberate slowness, really...I get the cue, it's nothing new.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll look into getting a lawyer on April 24, which is the same day as my next psych appointment.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just read Richard Dawkins' Twitter.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does the FBI view its outrageous posture on me as: an investment, a vendetta, a deniable Patriot-Act terrorist attack, an attempted second Holocaust initiation, a joke, a huge fraudulent screw-you to the USA, or a study of massively destructive insider threat bloopers?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Take your pick, it's not doing anything good for America, they swear by it and say they're so proud of it, then something goes wrong again, and they say it's my fault.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Did some FBI clown find out how good I looked naked between the years of 2006 and 2010 in particular, and get extremely jealous of my body and athleticism and other desirable attributes I had going for me back then, and wall me into a big sort of wall-enclosure, like in the Cask of Amontillado or whatever? Is that what this? Who's the fat redneck wife-loser at the FBI whose wife masturbates to my NSA badge photo instead of him?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The FBI is keenly aware of the facts, and that I am innocent, regardless of bizarre personal grudges. I suppose that provokes the question: Is there even one straight single female FBI agent working for the FBI? My impression is, no, not even one.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > From the Dawkins quote, "vey"..."nothing is working"...more Ivy Rose Smith intelligence? Sure. All of this is based on her AIM conversations, AFAIK, she wasn't lying.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She claimed once that her mom caught her and her friends drinking underage age 4 in the morning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Her grandmother died over the summer after 2004, but she said she wasn't that upset because her grandmother had a long and fairly good life.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She used the acronym "KIST"--Konen, Ivy, Sarah, Tori--to describe her core group of friends. Sarah Beltran was her best friend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She had a friend, Halle Cowen, who had a dispute with my sophomore year roommate, Evan Stepanick, and that is why Ivy disliked Evan Stepanick--she saw him as a jerk.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She disliked GWB when we were friends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She hugged me once while drinking underage sophomore year, in the hallway, 4th floor, Randolph Hall.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She liked this music: Maroon 5, Babylon 5, David Gray, Rob Thomas / Matchbox Twenty (she said RT was "like her husband"), The Beatles (in particular).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She claimed while drunk that Katie Lawrence was her best friend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She used to come down from the 5th floor to the 4th to fill up her water bottle with water from the water fountain which was right outside my dorm room sophomore year, sometimes, sometimes alone and sometimes not.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - During one of those visits, Ivy was with Katie Lawrence, and KL said to me, "Ivy said she wants to be having sex right now, isn't that immature?" I just said no and got quiet; Ivy smiled and didn't say anything. Then, they just left without saying anything. I had thought she was coming on to me but I was very un-perceptive and thought it might have been my imagination...I didn't flirt back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - According to Ivy's Facebook, she was once a member of Wellness Peer Mediators. Merida Marston, whom I spoke to less than Ivy and Katie Lawrence, was a member of a Facebook group called "Roll Over and Do It Again," which it was claimed was for people who had had sex at UMW.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Ivy, and her friend Chris Payne and also Christine Williams, and I went on a hiking trip to a river somewhere nearby. That was the only time she ever agreed to hang out with me. My leg was touching hers in the back seat of the car the whole time. When we got there, she went swimming, but didn't change clothes. I said some stupid sort of like rhyming thing after something Christine Williams said, and they just sort of ignored it. It didn't seem like anyone on the hiking/river trip liked me or had much to say. I never saw Chris Payne or "Crispy" or whatever they called him again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Ivy lived in Mason freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - I met Ivy at the intramural soccer team that I was on with David Younes and others. The first time she came to an outdoor soccer meeting outside on the field near Goolrick, the UMW gym, someone said, "Is Ivy playing?" and I said, "What kind of name is 'Ivy?'" Then, I saw who Ivy was and I thought she was very attractive and I got quiet, and then I looked her up on Facebook after the practice and found out her screenname--"tekymeky14"--and started emailing her.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Her email address was tekym...@yahoo.com , but was deleted by 2011 when I was captured (I tried it once then)...I might have also emailed her once when we were friends. She gave me her cell phone number once too, but I never called her.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She was from Roanoke, VA, and had gone to Cave Spring HS.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She basically never talked about chemistry or science with me ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/19/sport/joasia-zakrzewski-ultrarunning-disqualification-spt-intl/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is a satire of Joe Biden and the FBI and how they "do their jobs." I find it amusing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, my one wish for the month, other than my immediate release and the removal of all malware from my computer, is for my abusive mother to SHUT UP and stop trying to extract vocal treats from me. I cannot, for the life of me, get her to stop asking me the most annoying, needling questions imaginable. What a pain! I cannot just get her to shut up and leave me alone, I just don't want to talk to her at all but she has no respect for that.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > When my mother bothers me, she has the knowledge of how to do it in a maximally bothersome way, so sometimes, it messes up my mood for the rest of the day. I think it is her sport, she is a lunatic. Anyway, I don't want to talk about that right now...this last encounter didn't bother me as much as usual, partly because of the absence of the possibility of satellite harassment...my mother, for some reason, has amassed a lot of skill at talking to me in the most bothersome ways possible, she did know me since I was a baby and influence my upbringing and education quite a bit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I think I just did something with my computer that *might* have gotten rid of all the malware, but I cannot be sure?? AFAIK there is no way to tell, the Norton Anti-Virus scanners sometimes pretend that all the malware is gone when it isn't gone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will just type to some extent, and then see if there are any typos or other irregularities in my typing. If nothing shows up for maybe 1-3 days, maybe I will conclude that the malware is probably gone, and it wouldn't be stressful to start trying to build my trading algorithm in Python again. I would have to re-install Python though since I uninstalled it earlier while trying to get rid of all the malware, I uninstalled almost all "non-trivial" programs to try that earlier.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm going to work on chess strategy. I have not received enough help with this. People trying to "condition me" to "figure things out for myself" is stupid and pathetic, I do not have to agree with Ayn Rand about everything to be an American, I could have really used some help from people regarding trivial malware issues and satellite issues and other obnoxious political issues, I am supposed to have a job, not a "mystical journey to go around and learn pointless facts about how mobsters try to sabotage and impair mental patients," I didn't sign up for that course and I didn't want to take it and I certainly don't need that information or skillset to have a normal productive life, my time is being wasted by fake "psychologists" and friends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Should I have to become a skilled construction worker, too, in order to receive peace of mind and basic psychological help from the freaks who drive around town and follow me around and signal me in code? 100% of their signals are *just harassing*, not *one* thing that they signal is every helpful, promoting my health, or doing anything other than at least trying to bother and confuse me. As the MCV torture guy noted, I am just an emotional urinal to the loser-freaks of this crazy local area, and they are just mentally urinating on me when they show up to do some weird freaky code to "say something" and "harass me but with a cover that makes it look like it's really psychological help from an informal mental health advocacy team, that has formed to *help me*."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I saw the word "ever" change to "every," I don't know if that's a Google glitch, or if it means I still have malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My nutjob mother just *had* to come back, and perform a few footsteps in my area before leaving silently without being seen, to "mark her turf" gain. If you ever talk to this woman, try to see if she does things like this to you too. I'm her "disabled acquaintance," so she probably tries to "practice with a 'naked personality' around me" so that she can hone her "Star Wars Jedi annoyance-for-fun-and-social-profit skills" with a "safe target."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yeah, the question is, when it comes to the local "psychology" freaks, the question is, "is there anything at all that they *don't* think would be appropriate for therapy?" Is there one thing that would be too inappropriate or hurtful or awful that they shouldn't do to the patients that they don't think they could deny or make up an excuse or cover for? It seems like, almost everything these guys has to be, "to show you that life with mental illness is tough," which I already knew, and basically, the things that the people do are almost *never* pleasant at all, and almost *never* involving *clear communication.* Seriously, if you email the top Harvard anti-suicide professor, sharing some brilliant psych research IP ideas, hoping for a few words of a response from the professor, you'll find the person (Dr. Nock in this case) to be less responsive and helpful than Stephen Cook, the Canadian Professor of CS. *Every* single representative in the "hierarchy of psychology" is in the "vow of silence" club--none of them will speak to you, maybe someone in the chain of command will "cast a magic spell on you" with behaviorism or something using no more than 3-5 words, but don't ever expect a psych worker to say something *helpful* to you or *completely solving of a problem you have*, no matter how much you're paying.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Expose complete, again! Maybe it will help, someday?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is very annoying that my post got deleted by browser malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What I said was, the lie that many Americans have been dying for recently is, Terence Tao's claim that "some people have a mathematical disease." There is actually no such thing. I just like math and am very good at it, and Terence Tao has been lying and manipulating and killing and torturing to try to keep his first-place position in math. Quite simply, he is not as good at math as I am, and has successfully convinced some other crooks that I have a "mathematical disease" and that it is "very unhealthy for me to get involved with thinking about math and CS and science, *especially* for money." It's a cynical, highly mass-lethal ploy, that has killed literally millions of Americans already, by depriving them of my STEM research. I ought to be allowed to research and publish, I should not be denied my career because Terence Tao "thinks my talent at math is 'unhealthy.'" Unhealthy for whom, anyway? His and Scott Aaronson's egos?? How on earth could mathematics be unhealthy? Is there a sort of "breakfast cereal" disease, too? What about an "acting disease?" I don't know, what about, maybe, a, uh, *sexual disease*?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And yes, the obvious quip is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "You are actually so dumb that you fell for *THAT*?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I wonder, did Barack Obama kill Joshua Wheeler, claiming that he had a "combat disease?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, upon reflection, it looks like I am not going to be able to work in these industries, based on me having been illegally banned by criminals and cheaters/fraudsters:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing computer code for money
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - investing
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - selling intellectual property
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - doing anything directly in STEM for money
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing a blog or running a website myself for money
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I will probably need to do fiction writing for money, and try to get my work published in pre-existing publications. I suppose I will have to do that; America is paying the price for its leaders' treason, at least I console myself regarding this multi-billion dollar fraud and theft with the extent to which I have truly gotten an incredible amount of justice for what was done to me! I won in that regard in spite of the cheating, at least! Maybe they'll think twice before assaulting me next time!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Keith Mellinger at UMW *really* wanted a compliment.. You're dying for that need.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The FBI and VA State police have not answered me regarding the malware that is illegally placed on my computer.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would still like to try to have a career in STEM actually. I *must* be allowed to write computer code, this is such an outrage and I have received no support in this matter! I must be treated better than this, you lunatics are paying for it in a big way and there is *no defense* for this, you are eroding the rule of law itself and ruining your credibility, reputation, claim to being reasonable and moral, and your own legal codes. You don't follow your own rules, and you stand exposed as anti-American hypocrites with mob values. Too many of your backers accept this, look at what has happened to them for their failure to be reasonable.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You do at least admit that you are very unreasonable, right?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And not just to me, right, American terrorists?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would like a little help with this matter, actually. I have not received any. I need help with this, I deserve to be able to have a job and a career and not live my entire life on a Petri dish while Nazis run things, I demand that I *actually* be supported in this. The cheating and attacks against me must stop, this is an outrage! The end to the satellites is not enough, the malware must be removed. My so-called "supporters" refuse to even speak to me. Leave me alone!!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A concerning, serious question: To what extent is American psychiatry and psychology just a big front for the human trafficking of the mentally ill? It would appear there is not one psych doctor, academic or clinical, who is *overtly outraged* about how I've been treated. Is it claimed that anyone, anywhere, would actually *want* this "service" that I've been forced to "accept" for nearly 12 years now?? Is it claimed to be an "involuntary sophisticated system for the promotion of mental health," or is it just an elaborate horse tack to turn human mentally ill people into productive slaves for research? I haven't seen one action taken since 2011 to promote my health, and I don't think it is possible to accurately cite even one example to the contrary.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, as is the custom, the psych workers would say to that, "He is just very paranoid, we would *never* hurt a patient, we are doctors, we never hurt patients, this is all to help him with his very, very serious condition that have been *trying* for years to fix, but he keeps expressing all of these delusions and *claims that people want to bother him and restrict his freedom*, and it's just *so delusional*, poor guy, we're always out there helping him, we just never talk to him, no one ever talks to him, what a sad damage to his health that we're bravely trying to work on for him."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It sounds basically identical to Chinese government propaganda announcements and denials of crimes.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I had a hopefully quite productive couple of internet chats with Norton support...maybe that is what I needed to do and I just needed to think of it. The stupid law enforcement people, like the FBI, would not answer me. Anyway, someone from Norton logged into my computer and did some things and hopefully that will get rid of the malware completely, once and for all, and then I can carry on with my life!!! As I said to the Norton staff, it would be such a relief if the malware would actually go away completely!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm hoping it's completely gone forever...I will be upset if it comes back, but I was assured by the Norton person that it is actually gone. I really really hope so, honestly, my ability to sleep at night, given all that has happened, depends on it!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll check on things again tomorrow and see if there is still no problem....so far, no typos or other ominous signs in this post! Hopefully I can write Python code! I'll be quite grateful to Norton if so. I just hadn't thought to contact customer support, I always feel these days like "nothing works," I'm starting to understand the psychology of that a little better now, something a group therapist named Andy Mahoney said years ago made sense.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...so I typed the word "better" and it came out as "beter." That is a little bit scary, hopefully that was just my bad typing and not malware, still!!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is actually so scary to have persistent malware on your computer when the scanner will not detect it! You think you're off the hook, and then it comes back again and you see that it was never gone, and it is supposed to really stress you out, and if you need computing resources for your job, as I do as a programmer, it is really upsetting to think you're finally done with the issues and then it comes back! So upsetting!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My sense of it is, Norton actually hadn't heard of me and didn't get what's going on until now. It's like that pizza guy in Spider-man 2 scene, where he tells Peter Parker that the pizza's shop's promise is a guarantee...unlike NSA, British leaders, and Obama, many businesses have to rely on a *universal guarantee* that their product works as advertised, or they lose tons of money.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My sense of it is, the Norton people, who hinted that the issue is "like a cyst," will have it completely fixed if it isn't already fixed by next Tuesday or Wednesday, since they would want "the win" as a big ad for their service...which I will surely be relying on if it truly works at the end of the day, which I think it will! Probably, British satellites added a nasty new kind of malware to my computer; Norton will fix it, I assume, within a few days, and the NSA probably already retaliated years ago just by causing Brexit. In America, there are lots of guarantees...I think the NSA clearance is supposed to offer certain "guarantees of protection" to those who receive it, and there is retaliation well beyond "free pizza" issues when serious, calculated efforts are made to undermine the "clearance guarantee" that I think at least NSA personnel are very very fond of, since it keeps them safe too, regardless of "who likes them," as long as they follow the rules pretty closely.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A comment: After I am financially established, I might indeed want to leave the USA. I might try to keep my citizenship though. I might try to move to New Zealand as Richard Dawkins recommended. It is a very real possibility. I receive almost no sympathy or concern for my health here in the USA.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In the US, almost everyone over 18 is allowed to own *a gun* based on the US Constitution. At the same time, people with *alarmingly slight* mental health differences are not allowed to own *a life* with pretty much any choice made in that life without the permission of a doctor. Maybe, having "lost the battle for America's heart" anyway, I ought to just leave and find a country that is less gun crazy. I could just move where I'm going to move and get established there, maybe make a friend or two and treat it like a 2-year program staying in the USA, and then visit New Zealand and see if people are less shockingly callous and inhumane about mentally ill people. Here at home, I see no regard at all given to people with minor mental health issues, especially if they are "knocked down" for a moment. Perhaps I should leave indeed, and use my innovative ideas to power a country, if there is one somewhere, that is less unfriendly to people like me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At the same time, I should watch out...what if the whole "torture Philip for years" program was a highly classified secret plot by New Zealand to get me to move there? How could I know?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What's clear is, political attitudes in the USA are crazy, actually un-American also, and totally inhumane and psychopathic with regard to people who are slightly different in non-sex-related ways. The rule in America is, if you're going to be different, make it something about your sexuality, and not about how you think or feel/care about other people.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Do you understand the *severity* of Philip White's complaints and his allegations of what you have done to him?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, but in order to have a life among juicy young brunette and blond American citizens with American accents who will laugh at jokes either way, he is going to have to *retract* his allegations, true or not, to win "the like" have the *opportunity* to serve other Americans by doing work for them that they have no talent or ability to do for themselves. In order to win 1/10th of his old social life back, fakely, he must learn to bow before us and give us exactly what we please, working in near total isolation in silence, with tenth-tier citizen rights, or he will know that we will never accept him or speak to him again."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "You do realize he will never do that, he will see your clan of 'leadership club members' as literally fascist, abusive, pedophiles and tell everyone so, damaging your reputation, and then either the leave the country or die as some worthless-to-*you* 'example' of what happens to Americans who really, really try to take their first amendment rights and *the truth,* courage, and standing for good values seriously? Either you'll eventually kill him and gain nothing from him and lose a lot in the battle because he is brilliant, you will leave him alone, or he will successfully flee the country and get a job and try his luck in another country."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Clearly, the malware is still with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The "Philip is a dog who will not have his arguments heard or accepted as even possibly correct, now Philip, *GIVE*," approach is not going to work.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One thing I might really try is: Try to find a company that exists only in New Zealand.. I could try to sell some of my already developed IP to them. If they refuse, I will not move to New Zealand. If they say yes, it would greatly increase the likelihood of me moving there...I would try to be careful about espionage and worry about having sensitive files on the internet that works out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am seem to be locked up pretty good here, in spite of having literally done nothing at all wrong, ever, at all! Are they saying that I never knew Ivy Smith? That is a horribly cynical pack of lies. We were seen together a few times, though not often. We interacted mainly on AIM, and it is very outrageous to try to kill me and torture me, and say it is because I tried to talk to Ivy after having never met her. I am not John Hinckley, I resent the effort to morph my reputation into that of a historical killer, and I deserve the same exact rights as any other American...I did nothing wrong, this is horrible and a mini-holocaust, *again*. I haven't received notice of whatever lies they concocted to accuse me something are.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I don't know if my latest attempt will fail, too. I contacted Norton Anti-Virus, they said the malware was gone from my computer, they deleted some files in special-looking directories in Windows, like one called "temp", and they accessed my computer remotely...the malware is definitely still here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is the craziest thing! What will it take to get the stalkers to leave me alone? I don't even know what fake story you created about me. What magic words do I need to say to get you to stop doing this to me?? This was a very horrible, torture-intensive nasty program done to me to hurt me, very cynically disguised as "therapy," and they're still going on with this, apparently unopposed and unspoken to. Did all the liberals in America die in car crashes or something, and were they all given fake AI-generated Facebook profiles to make it seem like nothing happened to them??? I really don't get this!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One possibility I hadn't considered: What if my tips on fbi.gov all get shot down by the malware every time? What if the FBI has not received any of my complaints/tips, due to malware preventing my submitted form complaints from going through?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That can't be right, though, because I had called the FBI repeatedly in the past.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do *not* get what the heck is going on, or what the FBI said I did.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized something, based on a tip...it must be the case that people actually cannot email me, probably due to illegally placed malware, so I'm saying that now so that I don't mislead anyone...I was almost certainly wrong with my wishful-thinking idea that my email cannot be read. Actually, it must be able to be read, because I someone on Twitter, whom I don't know the outcome of but I surely wish the person well and a good recovery or pleasant revival upon being brought back to life if a peaceful though sad death happened, who had cancer, and I offered my condolences/support to the person I didn't know on Twitter briefly in a post or two. It is not unlikely that many cancer patients and also doctors are aware of the existence of my cure, or rather, the idea that is quite likely to lead to one, and it will be a question of liberating me and having someone pay me or give me credit for the idea, and then I would give permission for it to be used. I don't want people to die of cancer, but if things are working right at all, it should *surely* be possible for someone to email me to at least acknowledge that the great new chemistry cure idea is indeed correct...that would be a great starting move that would be the first acknowledgment that I am indeed a brilliant author of many great and valuable STEM ideas. I'm just waiting for my cure idea to be acknowledged to me, among other things I'm also waiting for.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, there must be people who have heard about the cure, and I'm not being emailed or spoken to for some reason. I think the reason I'm able to talk so freely is, I'm *very extremely heavily armed with math ideas*, I'm more "powerful/valuable-STEM-idea-drenched" the entire US Air Force, DARPA, MIT, NASA, and NSA put together, at least that's my claim--I've got it all in a sense, and by all I mean "all great new ideas from this century so far."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, here is a pasted shot-down post from around 3:40 p.m. today:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > For one thing, I proved the Hodge Conjecture, and apparently, the FBI adjudicated that I am "too sick to receive for my work" right now. Maybe they think I should never receive credit for my work, because I'm *so sick* that I just wouldn't be able to *handle* getting credit and payment and being happy, being recognized for my work.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, if there were something I could do to help liberate me faster to help both cancer patients in the US and abroad, and to help people in Africa who need bread because I would make money fast to give bread as a gift if I could use a compiler, I would probably do it. I am stressed out by all the dead ends and "promising looking opportunities that just wind up being scams shut down by cheaters," but I can still do things if they seem likely to help and it won't frustrate me so much that I'll get my health damaged.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The battle they might be claiming it is, not that their argument is elite enough, since debate must always be more important than the performance arts in a society like this:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of you like that excuse, "We're at war," right? Well?? Are we, or are you just focused on your checkers club?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible, that when I get out of this situation, I will not publish science research after all.. It is tempting, while I might still have maybe 5-10% levels of Stockholm Syndrome or something similar, to "change my self-concept to 'scholarly yet personality-wise-different Albert Einstein,'" sitting in my study, devising brilliant research ideas while living in a troubled country that is just a shadow of what it once was, burning the candle at both ends doing *my work* to help the country thrive again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That sounds like a trap--"change your self-concept to something comfortable to win relief from the hunters." The thing is, if I were publishing STEM research to influence the world, would I be doing it selfishly, to make the world a better place, or to make the world a worse place? I don't think any of those three would make sense...to make the world a better place with my research would be to say, "thank you so much for torturing me, USA and the world, here, have the cure for *your* problems, when you wouldn't even lift a finger or say a word to fix mine." I might just not publish research at all...when my mind and "eyes" in a sense are fully clear, I'll be sure to make the right decision for me, and make it carefully, not carelessly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm much more likely to send bread to Africa after I can get the malware off my computer.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I wish I could stop having to consider "Republican perspectives" and just focus on my own, sane and rational, way of looking at the world...I don't want to "debate the silent and try to guess their every bogus Karl-Rove-inspired dishonesty-based argument for bothering me," but I am having to do it for now, and I suppose it does affect me to some extent.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An amazing thing from Newsweek:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Forty-one percent said they would definitely support him and 40 percent said they would probably support the president."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is to say, less than 45% of all Americans would even say they *approve* of him, let alone *like* him, and *only 41% of **Democrats** * would even definitely vote for him. He literally covered up and suppressed a cure for cancer, infuriating quiet doctors and cancer patients around the country, claiming there's some "greater priority out there" other than American health--basically, Barack Obama is * **completely** done*.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Now, Democrats and the media *still* oppose public five-letter-racial-slur user Joe Biden being removed from office--they haven't done it yet, or 18 months ago when they also definitely should have if they had been sane and rational--and they are charging ahead to another election where **not even 25% of Americans are ***definitely*** planning to vote for Biden.**
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As I said in a sense before, kiss the Democratic White House goodbye now...the odds of Democratic retention of the WH in 2024 are close to 0%, and I'm proud, even though I hate Republicans too, to have played a key, punitive role, in telling horrifying, fake, and homicidal Democrat leaders, "NO, you may not commit that crime and completely get away with it with no consequence at all." Someday we will have leaders who *actually* respect the rule of law and don't just give it lip service and play Rove-ian games with codes, propaganda techniques, and lies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If they're lucky, Democrats in 2024 will have 75% swing voters, and they will not be that lucky.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/apr/14/alexei-navalny-in-critical-situation-after-possible-poisoning-says-ally
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is not good news for the world or for me. My strategic move designed to help Navalny apparently was not very successful. I would go ahead and place the blame on Biden--it could have worked, my maneuver was designed, based on a math system that is still a secret, to provide mutual benefit to Navalny and to me. The fact that he would appear to be near death diminishes my stature strategically, although I am still great, and essentially the most powerful person in the world, in terms of strategic resources to draw upon, although I am currently facing a money/freedom/computing/socializing capability deficit. Yes, I am less powerful because of Navalny's likely outcome, that is unfortunate for me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sadly, given my current situation, I do not think there is anything else I can really do. I wouldn't be surprised if Biden successfully leaves the malware on my computer until sometime after Navalny is dead, probably as some sort of very vicious/sadistic deal that Biden has with Putin, "for not getting to do his dream job the way he wanted," since JRB wanted the WH so very very much every since he was a young man, almost as much as he wanted to molest, torture, and kill me--apparently the most coveted thing he has ever wanted in his life, probably beyond even getting his first wife back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh well. Western political-office-holders are next to useless, what else is new? I'm one of the only people out there who can even talk!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The way to see my malware problem is, every computer that I buy is essentially one that I must "purchase with a government driver's license," and the government has perpetually added a "bad-guy mark" to my driver's license, even though I have done nothing wrong. I am currently unable to access a computer that is not controlled by the US government, and they refuse to remove the "driver's license mark" from my record. I didn't do anything wrong at all, all I did was *complain when I was tortured and mistreated* by government bad guys. If they're saying that I leaked, that's a complete lie and the NSA knows it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good news! Norton Anti-Virus just caught and removed a threat on my computer. Maybe the malware is permanently gone??!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If it is gone, I will work on making my own money and helping Africa before I help anyone in China or before I try to help Navalny. I think that is fair...the best way to serve the world at this point is to make sure that the MVP at fighting for human rights, humane treatment, and freedom, globally--me--is well-paid for his past work.. After that, I will help Africa ASAP, and then consider other projects.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm not even sure the malware is really fully gone yet though. I'll have to wait and see.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Feel free to get in touch if you want to ask me any questions!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...um...given that I cured cancer, a doctor in the US somewhere is going to contact me to discuss giving me credit for my breakthrough, right? No one is going to try to just let that idea get stolen from me without me receiving credit for my work, or just fail to cure cancer with my idea, right?? Surely doctors in the USA are more ethical than that!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is still possible that I will want to do research, if I can live in a "non-insane state of the USA." What if "Vladimir Putin" is code for "Virginia's Patheticness," and the more pathetic Virginia gets, the more powerful Putin gets?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Something I figured out:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > From Mark Braverman's response, it's quite clear that all Ivy league psych, law, business, math, CS, and all other faculty despise me, along with MIT and Sipser.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What I realized is, the "go to war for Guinivyre" narrative is just a cover. Dr. Moran at MCV passed on the lie too: "You seem like a nice guy with a lot of insight." R GROAN, WAIL. Why, he posits, would everyone want to arrest me if I were *really* a nice guy with a lot of insight?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm coming to that. First, if I had done something *so awful* that federal prosecutors, threatened/murdered or not for doing so, refused to prosecute me, search/surveillance warrant or not--I did nothing criminal even if I was surveilled in my apartment in 2011 and before--why wouldn't I be arrested? Failing that, why wouldn't someone interested in halting "my awful, awful, totally real and non-fabricated crimes" simply tell me what they don't like me doing and ask me to stop? What's clear is, the Ivy League faculty have been emailing around about this for a *long* time indeed.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Remember the comment, "Read my lips, no new taxes," from George H. W. Bush? What if what he really meant was, "Read my lips, no new Nashes?" What did Nash himself think about this unusual proposal? I believe Nash supported me, actively and quietly, and was murdered with his wife, while getting his son spared, for daring to assist me with his ideas. That is sad and I still admire and like John Nash quite a bit. The thing is, John Nash was very *smart*--he was unlikely not to understand which team he was not really on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, basically, what happened is, there was a massive, nearly universal effort to drive me to suicide in high school....just about everyone I knew and talked to, including friends, doctors, parents, hopefully not Theresa and Trudy, but almost everyone else I had ever met, was involved in a plot to try to get me to take my own life. I considered it, but backed away from the attempt and sought help at the last minute.. For some reason, my mother cried on the way to the hospital. Maybe all Ivy League and MIT faculty did, too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The cover is supposed to be, horny old Ebenezer Dawkins was *totally smitten* and fooled by the perfectly chemically concocted pack of lies by Ivy R. Smith, whom it was claimed Philip White had never met and was *horridly stalking*. That isn't entirely true, except for the Ebenezer part maybe.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Essentially, it was a stealth-murder plot with too many loose ends and too many people who knew what was really going on, that failed when I was 16 as Dr. Sipser so rightly pointed out the time before the last time I emailed him--I only just today realized he was probably in on it, and I had emailed him yesterday about the malware...I had written to Dr. Chow, probably also in on it, a little before that, and Dr. Chow actually responded, helpfully, great, whatever he thought. Maybe he wasn't in on it, he isn't a faculty member at MIT or an Ivy League school, I can't be sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yes, that's the motive--GHWB and his cronies collaborated aggressively to drive me to suicide when I was 16, I didn't do it, and that created a big problem for all the people who had made up lies about me when I was 16. Basically, they want to try again, and again, and again, and kill as *many* Americans as it takes, to show how serious they are not, not about leadership or research, but about going to jail.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't see any better possible explanation than that one.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I still think Steg and Radin might have been innocent, they have "offices in the jungle" that I was exiled to, and they are not lawyers. I think they were not evil and Dr. Chow, in spite of his helpful response to my email, was probably very bad also.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, yes, yes, Darth Senator Whatever, I am *very* interested in the pacifier friendship. Very very interested. As a matter of fact, at this point, that is pretty much the only thing you and your obsolete butt-sore friends could possibly have that I would ever want. I guess: You will choose to be unkind again, because that is your nature. OHHHH no, not again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The odds of me moving to South Africa are rather low, but not zero. I will probably stay here. I am *extremely unlikely* to ever do any work at all that would ever even begin to benefit the Congressional nutjobs, even if you were facing a NuClEaR dIsAsTeR that might leave you with...wait for it, this sounds even worse to you kids...No FrIeNdS aT aLl, get it!!!! You are completely on your own. I'll do research as I please, and prepare for being locked out...if I exhaust my options, in my quest to take over and re-shape academia, especially psych academia, to serve *my* purposes, especially ending the "race to perform very poorly and be verbally and care-wise ultra-stingy, but also, **the least disliked by the patient** while still meeting or exceeding the ultra-low quality standard" in clinical psychology and psychiatry. I have great ideas, I'll publish them when the time is right, they will help me and not you, Congress freaks.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh yeah, I meant to say, if I'm locked out of academia, I'll start a business, take notes on which journals screwed me, and get the editors and refs arrested and financially work over Harvard and other low-quality schools (compared to me, I'm still arrogant) with money and "special personnel changes," starting, seriously, with non-responder claimed anti-suicide fan "Dr. Nock," instead of research. I am not suicidal at all, but he doesn't know that, and chose not to answer my email in what probably constituted the single worst decision of his professional life. Not answering a mental patient without adequate care in the USA within 24 hours? Not going to be both a particularly well-liked man and still working at Harvard in 10 years. You're getting a patient perspective for a couple of decades at least, or a very well money-backed hostile takeover of Harvard and other crap Ivy League schools. You're supposed to think that's grandiose. It is going to happen, unless I'm held here, in which case America will be bombed submission or non-existence.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, my computer still has malware, Norton hasn't fixed the problem yet. Disgusting. What if I died? All of you should be fired and unemployed. Not kidding, not easily destabilized or manipulated, starting recently.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > It's not a threat, it's an announcement: I have selected "Dr. Nock" of Harvard, based on my theories and strategic algorithms, for a study, in which I will publish research, part-time, to ruin his reputation and career, for ignoring my email in a time of need. This is a man whom I've never met or spoken to who is *deeply* out of touch with the mental health system in the USA. What value can this slacker possibly add working at a top school live Harvard? Don't pathologize this, I'm dead serious. Patients in hospitals get TDO'd for less serious non-compliance-related outrage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, I worry too much that my jokes and everything else will get old, and I'll have to re-invent everything again to stay communicatively fresh and proper.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I just selected my two "Type B personality role models," since in the past, I mainly acted like and seemed to be a Type B personality person. (I just got like 20 typos in the word "models" above, I don't know WTH that is.) Anyway, here are two Type B Personality Role models, for your edutainment:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Role Model #1: High-Energy: John Brougher, former HS student at TJHSST and debate team member.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Role Model #2: Low-Energy: Michael Wilson, former UMW student and, uh, non-elite ping-pong player.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > That's right, grin with pride like Alfred Pennyworth at the end of the last Christopher Nolan Batman movie! Yeah, I guess you never did know what you had until you lost it--my *acquaintance*! NOW you're sorry!
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yeah, I need to calm down. It *is* important for me to stay up in the sense of *able to readily and angrily present a serious, aggressive debating point in writing on the internet*, but also, yes, the bad guys have definitely identified lots of different and surprising "personality and other psychological dimensions" with respect to which they greatly enjoy trying to mess with my levels and destabilize me, all with the keen assistance of evil higher-ed psych "doctors." I got that idea from Andy Mahoney, who probably, like Steg and Radin, was also not bad. I'm not sure about Sebben, I only saw him very briefly. My mom fired lots of doctors quickly.
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqhntKPh2EY
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > So, interestingly, after I started applying Steg's advice (I think he meant, music = mind placebo...I think Mahoney may have said something that was supposed to be a "sexual stability placebo," and placebos I think can help advance stability), I noticed that in the song above, TKO, went back to being fun and enthusiasm-provoking, not "cryptanalysis provoking," as I got more stable...I found KH's character to be not irritating and annoying, like another hair in my mouth (!! not the worst thing but it gets so frustrating after a while if done frequently by the bad guys, they can still do it to me and have done it like once, I think they can no longer find my throat for choking, but yes, I'll update if that's wrong, again, like with many other previous fake-outs), as opposed to like a fun and almost funny, in terms of mood effects, and pleasant character. The "weird facial expressions and body language" just look playful and highly "within range" of being tolerable and acceptable, my irritability decreases a lot, and I find the song to be like a candy bar or chewing fun...like a 5-min walk on a sunny and breezy day in a warm and familiar place, rather than *suddenly actually extremely irritating*, like it was for a while before I started using "stability placebos" on a few different dimensions.
> > > > > > > > > > *chewing gum, and the Google service blocked my msg first time I posted, saying, "Error posting message"...GOOG wants to be LGBTQ/liberalism NRA, too? What a surprise....
> > > > > > > > > Also, psych comment: Typically, after a time around 11:34 p.m. through 11:45 p.m., I typically get over nasal congestion and night-time post-meds feelings of agitation, at about the same time.
> > > > > > > > I am now feeling rather calm and good...I am feel fine and not upset at all, that is a mild pleasant surprise, given the magnitude of my unpleasant feelings before (mildly unpleasant but significantly enough so that I was surprised that they went away quickly).
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I just watched the GHWB speech clips on YouTube about "no new taxes"..."Bush *EIGHTY-EIGHT*????!" So, I was 1 year old, and Scott Aaronson was around 5 or 6. I think HW Bush and Clinton literally murdered two of my mom's children that she was pregnant with...Theresa was born later in 1988 without any serious incident I don't think, we were both healthy enough to lead healthy lives...but my Mom was pregnant with Baby Anthony and one other baby whose name I never heard of, and both babies were miscarriages, dying before they were born. I'm concerned that my siblings were murdered in utero by the US government...the babies were wanted and were planned to born and raised, my parents really didn't have any interest in or reason to want an abortion ever, I'm pretty sure.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So, please be sure to avenge my unborn siblings who were murdered! Once, I imagined myself talking to them, and I felt sheepish that I barely think about them, as opposed to various nasty people who were born that have never added any value to me or the world or been nice to me overall...it's like I said to them, "I don't care that you were never born," but I didn't say that and wouldn't mean it, I just never think about them enough, maybe someday they will be resurrected and raised in a healthy home.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Also, I very much support the idea that abortions should be legal through months 0-4, and not beyond that...4 months is plenty of time, seriously don't veer into actual murder by allowing conscious partially matured-to-born-baby-hood fetuses to be killed in the uterus with abortions, just end the time period where it should be legal at the end of 4 months.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > And I don't care about abortion being banned...go ahead and ban it as a punitive measure against bad-guy Americans who keep doing the stupidest votes and supporting the stupidest ideas, like, "everyone's a little racist"--reject all of that nonsense, and punish the Americans who keep astonishingly mind-bogglingly stupidly voting for such things and people like Obama-backed people who support such stupid things. American liberalism is failing, mostly, and deserves a serious consequence. I say, go ahead and reject gay marriage...I can calm down and not be cognitively emotionally irritated by gay people having rights or doing anything else, but the thought was based on stable thinking and was correctly...end gay marriage, send the "screw you," return America to feeling responsible and in debt for its many and various crimes, America must comply with good values and laws again, or face more problems.
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > A little bit of attempted rhythm-matching freewriting:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > It will be TDO'd.
> > > > > > > <DEAL>!
> > > > > > > Fight back...don't accept. (x m)
> > > > > > > They'll say they are you....
> > > > > > > Don't. Look. Back.
> > > > > > > Stand atop the hills.
> > > > > > > View Rogue One end now.
> > > > > > > Just say "talk or lose."
> > > > > > > They will then be mules.
> > > > > > > Covers blown...no leg left.
> > > > > > > They can't win debates.
> > > > > > > They know they are wrong.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > And...this one is much sloppier, I am just looking for new fairly low-work-intensity and easy and possibly sloppy/lame but unique ways to express myself for now:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGJlzx0cZVk
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Worked it over once, I'm the dunce, lies in skies, make it new
> > > > > > > The cops have no chops it's the dots and the edges connecting them
> > > > > > > So, um, what word can persuade, they're unmade, still at it
> > > > > > > I don't understand, that's the plan?, I will guess, not be sure
> > > > > > > What they want, are they smart, are they nuts?
> > > > > > > Why this price, for secrecy???, I can't see, what's the knee
> > > > > > > Jerk reflex, for the techs, that they dropped, like free junk
> > > > > > > I can't get this pattern, know the game, it's not lame, but....
> > > > > > I feel like doing another one:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6QpHeX4Fgw
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Better...it's all getting...better
> > > > > > I am making progress
> > > > > > Just what are they doing?
> > > > > > Same thing I thought they wouldn't
> > > > > > Thought they got so much scrutiny, evolution
> > > > > > Why didn't past iterations die out?
> > > > > > What, I thought it's most sophisticated?
> > > > > > How can this be US elite leaders?
> > > > > > What...who...wiped it...out?
> > > > > > Oh gosh...they're slow and dumb
> > > > > > They can't even...stop this
> > > > > > I didn't miss one thing
> > > > > > 'Least not that I can see
> > > > > > I'm going to get out
> > > > > > Can't believe they won the election
> > > > > > Politics is all I can see or say now
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > As you can see, I'm expressive, not exhibiting too much talent.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I didn't even catch the rhythm right. It's like a rant, but provoked by music. Whatever. Every way I express it, it doesn't seem to register with the local freaks. What the heck are they going on about relating to me? They started with "we never negotiate with terrorists," then started "declaring any people they dislike terrorists," and now, people are yelling at them, "stop framing all of your non-white-male-Christian neighbors as 'terrorists' , " but they say it's their way of life, all the troops who died were actually dying for *this* all along, it is sacred, will never be given up, ever, we're fighting anyone we please and can get away with labeling a terrorist, yeah, we fabricate wild claims, don't blame ourselves our apologize when one our "covers" is blown, we abuse our authority and power, and never say that it's wrong, we're just a big dom-power club, doing what we do best--nothing, except "knowing lots of other people and addictvely persisting at trying to get away with predatory crimes. I can make every good point ever, win the debate 8000 times, they don't, the truth is what they hate, not what they want to make decisions based on. That is a key weakness for them!
> > > > > OK, enough slightly "dumb" posting for now. I am feeling pretty calm still...that is good. I might be listening to a little bit too much music, but I think it is better to over-do it than under-do it for now.
> > > > >
> > > > > I am going to eat a little bit more and then go to bed by around 2:30 . I just turned off the music. I have a Doctor appointment tomorrow, just with a nurse practitioner. I'm hoping that the malware will be fully removed so that I can work again, this whole thing was such a crooked bogus outrage, they just lied and screwed me over without any checks and balances, whatever set of things they made up, they won't even tell me what it is, and that's highly discriminatory and exploitative of my mental health condition...how evil!
> > > > Btw, I am definitely not going to leak anything, and being tortured definitely did not *decrease* the likelihood of my leaking. I was only likely to maybe say something classified while *very* unable to think straight.. If I had never been tortured, there would never have been any serious risk at all. I'm better now--no risk again.
> > > >
> > > > The joke is, the bad guys will say, the torture psych "work" was to stop me from leaking. That is crazy. Aaand..the person lead-in to the obvious The-Simpsons-themed 09/11 and al-Qaeda joke, although it is a bit short on syllables:
> > > >
> > > > "WHATEVER HAPPENS, WE HELLLLLLPED!"
> > > > ~a terrorist's last words on 09/11/2001
> > > > ~every psych doctor who has worked at MCV since 2012
> > > I said *perfect, not person. Jerks!
> > Ah, somebody or some bot is using that hyena sound machine that makes coyote-type sounds that you can't see the device for. It's 2:30 in the morning, if I hadn't already been asleep, it would have woken me up.
> >
> > All part of the pro-national-security therapy or whatever you're lying to say your assassination op is now?
> So yeah I just saw a photo of Meghan Markle looking flattered/impressed....maybe to the extent she is talking about my comments she is not totally thrilled, but, I can see clearly now that the crazy "end date" pressure is done, she probably isn't insincere, so much as official...it sounds like she is saying, with no harm intended to me at least and it's not all that complicated, that her *official* position is that she is not upset regarding any of my comments in the past about her or Prince Harry. If she secretly hates all my comments, she probably isn't thinking about it all that much. When I'm wealthy, which I'm pretty sure I will be, I will definitely not be demanding attention or introductions to famous people, including Meghan Markle....my demands earlier were regarding my captivity. I'm angry that Norton is taking a while, but maybe the "cyst" will truly be gone within 2 weeks. I'll keep checking often! Removing the malware is now the most important thing in my life, truly.
>
> Anyway, yes, I am going to need to stop insulting Prince Harry at this point. If I air criticisms, they won't be "outlandish possibly overly-vicious/hurtful comments" about him, since he's not able to be in the ring bothering me or improperly not speaking to me during a crisis involving his friend BHO and maybe him (I forgot exactly all the things that I saw him say that bothered me) or supporting my captivity. I don't know that comments about public figures would constitute stalking if they're just on my page, but I'm not going to explore that...my personal code for conducting myself is a little bit stricter, including in terms of manners, sensitivity, consent, and starting fights, than just US law.

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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 7:42:49 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 4:19:17 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:33:09 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:31:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:29:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:18:53 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 20, 2023 at 2:09:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I copied it again, here's what I said:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll answer the "WHAT H" prompt from the news:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Should I not have to follow rules? I think I should follow all of the rules that I'm required to follow as an American. I don't think my life is a movie, and that a "cool judge character" will show up and tell me, "you know what pardner, I'm the boss around here, and I think, even though you broke one of the biggest rules in the book...*I* think you're OK, and *my* opinion is what matters.." I don't expect or value that.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you think you should have to follow the rules? How old are you? Do you think you should maybe have to follow *just some* of the rules? Which rules do you not care about? Whom do you see as the "rules boss" who would get you if you violated one of the rules not in the omitted subset? Do life-and-death rules matter? If lots of other people were dying, would you start to follow the rules that you were previously breaking that, if you would actually would follow them, would save the people who were dying, just as those rules were designed to do?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, the reason why I am not trying to make friends around here is, in addition to the fact that I'm worried that this area is filled with wild, evil right-wing extremists, I also do not have a source of income. I believe in the idea that adult women out of college typically are not likely to be impressed by men who do not have a job or a source of income; maybe "I have been sick and I've been abused" is a defensible case, but that is not likely to be attractive to most desirable women. I have been trying to become financially independent now, very vigorously, since September 2020, and *every time* I try to do it, it's like that scene from Spider-man 1 at the end where the Green Goblin steps on Spider-man's hand as he's trying to shoot out another web, and basically, he's saying, "It's game over, Philip, you cannot shoot any more webs, you are strictly forbidden from ever working or having a job ever again." That is outrageous, highly illegal, and pure evil.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible that the very few people I've interacted with who tried to help me a little bit have very different political beliefs from what my beliefs are, too. I'm willing to discuss my beliefs; if someone could explain to me why they think my core assumptions about politics and the world are wrong, or why some conclusions I've drawn based on my core values and beliefs are wrong, I'm open to changing my beliefs after some sort of friendly enough discussion or debate...my goal is to be *right* about all my beliefs, not to be illogical or morally wrong in any way. If there's some serious objection to my political beliefs from the law-enforcement types of other people in this area, I haven't heard what that objection might be. I think all of my behaviors and beliefs are fine and normal.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do people who would claim that they don't just hate me biologically for being mentally ill have some specific objection to my "code of conduct" or how I behave? Given my circumstances and how I'm treated in American society, shouldn't my way of acting qualify as "highly competitive and productive/high-achieving, and admirable"? Is there something I'm doing wrong that others would do differently in my situation that I'm not aware of? AFAIK, everything I've done has been perfectly correct, since May 2011.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you think I need to "learn my place?" I know my place. I am writing on my own threads on the internet. I have tried to get help, and am typically denied real service whenever I contact anyone. The government's place is not in my room with satellites, or on my computer with malware. The government is supposed to follow the rules for it too. I am in "my place," and the government has done and allowed things to be done to me that other citizens in this area would really really not like the government doing to them. Why should I be treated differently from the rest of you, if it is really not based on prejudice and biological-discrimination-based extremism as they claim?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am the person in this area who said, "be humane and pay your debts."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You rejected me, and it was because I am biologically different.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Women" of this area, in particular, what will you do when I am gone and you try to make the same sort of protest? Maybe you will sound like a Papa Roach or Metallica song.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just completed a huge math breakthrough that is very important and dazzling to me, and it ought to help me become a better chess player! I'm excited about it, and will work with it more in the next few days; it is possible that I have found "the right place to dig" for more great STEM ideas, and that I'll stay with this particular idea for years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, it is also worth noting that, in the future, I'm committed to using copyright protection--after I'm out of captivity--to secure my research rights, and prevent people from using my work without it being for exactly what I intend it to be for, and without *giving me credit* in particular. I'll be sure to do some great research into anti-plagiarism, too, to support that cause.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, when I'm ready, and have gotten enough money from the removal of the malware from my computer (I contacted the FBI yesterday, and I wonder, does Chris Voss say to people at book signings, "I hate your disabled kid!!!!!" ?), I will do research frequently, and basically *research for credit*. I am very brilliant, and once *getting credit* for my work is my last real professional goal, I will basically engineer myself a clear path to fame and accolades, including a Nobel Prize.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > For those goons and other idiots who think it is a good use of your time to try to "contain me to protect the precious precious reputation of Joseph Schwartz and a few other freaky quacks who somehow acquired higher education credentials", let me tell you right now, you *are* wasting everyone's time, and money. No one is going to pay you for holding me back; I am doing the real work and the real research, all you are doing by trying to cage me is ruining yourselves, ruining the USA, holding back valuable STEM research that I refuse to share until I'm liberated, disgracing Congress and the WH, and causing very many mass shootings every week. You are not getting some big movie-like thank you after the "end of the containment effort," every day of my time you waste hurts Biden's polls, kills American citizens, kills people in Africa, and kills people Ukraine. Putin isn't going to pay you for that, maybe you can score up a few pennies from ISIS or whatever is left of al-Qaeda? Whatever "service" you're saying that you're providing by keeping me from working, no one but a few thousand failed organized crime lunatics want to thank you, and they aren't exactly known for their generosity or honesty. You ought to just stop now and leave me alone, you're mainly hurting yourselves, and the people you are feeding to terrorists--I'm not even directly injured, it's just a few more days or weeks of my time.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Please leave me alone and stop following me around, planning attacks or whatever against me, and just go home.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, if 10,000 people in the US were going to die because they aren't getting access to my research on time because the FBI isn't answering me, would they break formation and finally email me and help me get rid of the malware??
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I will get out of this someday and it will be discussed when I'm a famous billionaire and researcher...if the FBI doggedly refuses to speak to me because I'm disabled, I will eventually get a lawyer and try to contact the FBI through a lawyer. I also contacted HCPD; they stonewalled me and refused to help. I contacted VA state police too, and they haven't answered yet. Disgusting corruption and deliberate slowness, really...I get the cue, it's nothing new.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll look into getting a lawyer on April 24, which is the same day as my next psych appointment.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just read Richard Dawkins' Twitter.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Does the FBI view its outrageous posture on me as: an investment, a vendetta, a deniable Patriot-Act terrorist attack, an attempted second Holocaust initiation, a joke, a huge fraudulent screw-you to the USA, or a study of massively destructive insider threat bloopers?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Take your pick, it's not doing anything good for America, they swear by it and say they're so proud of it, then something goes wrong again, and they say it's my fault.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Did some FBI clown find out how good I looked naked between the years of 2006 and 2010 in particular, and get extremely jealous of my body and athleticism and other desirable attributes I had going for me back then, and wall me into a big sort of wall-enclosure, like in the Cask of Amontillado or whatever? Is that what this? Who's the fat redneck wife-loser at the FBI whose wife masturbates to my NSA badge photo instead of him?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The FBI is keenly aware of the facts, and that I am innocent, regardless of bizarre personal grudges. I suppose that provokes the question: Is there even one straight single female FBI agent working for the FBI? My impression is, no, not even one.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > From the Dawkins quote, "vey"..."nothing is working"...more Ivy Rose Smith intelligence? Sure. All of this is based on her AIM conversations, AFAIK, she wasn't lying.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She claimed once that her mom caught her and her friends drinking underage age 4 in the morning.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Her grandmother died over the summer after 2004, but she said she wasn't that upset because her grandmother had a long and fairly good life.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She used the acronym "KIST"--Konen, Ivy, Sarah, Tori--to describe her core group of friends. Sarah Beltran was her best friend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She had a friend, Halle Cowen, who had a dispute with my sophomore year roommate, Evan Stepanick, and that is why Ivy disliked Evan Stepanick--she saw him as a jerk.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She disliked GWB when we were friends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She hugged me once while drinking underage sophomore year, in the hallway, 4th floor, Randolph Hall.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She liked this music: Maroon 5, Babylon 5, David Gray, Rob Thomas / Matchbox Twenty (she said RT was "like her husband"), The Beatles (in particular).
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She claimed while drunk that Katie Lawrence was her best friend.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She used to come down from the 5th floor to the 4th to fill up her water bottle with water from the water fountain which was right outside my dorm room sophomore year, sometimes, sometimes alone and sometimes not.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - During one of those visits, Ivy was with Katie Lawrence, and KL said to me, "Ivy said she wants to be having sex right now, isn't that immature?" I just said no and got quiet; Ivy smiled and didn't say anything. Then, they just left without saying anything. I had thought she was coming on to me but I was very un-perceptive and thought it might have been my imagination...I didn't flirt back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - According to Ivy's Facebook, she was once a member of Wellness Peer Mediators. Merida Marston, whom I spoke to less than Ivy and Katie Lawrence, was a member of a Facebook group called "Roll Over and Do It Again," which it was claimed was for people who had had sex at UMW.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Ivy, and her friend Chris Payne and also Christine Williams, and I went on a hiking trip to a river somewhere nearby. That was the only time she ever agreed to hang out with me. My leg was touching hers in the back seat of the car the whole time. When we got there, she went swimming, but didn't change clothes. I said some stupid sort of like rhyming thing after something Christine Williams said, and they just sort of ignored it. It didn't seem like anyone on the hiking/river trip liked me or had much to say. I never saw Chris Payne or "Crispy" or whatever they called him again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Ivy lived in Mason freshman year.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - I met Ivy at the intramural soccer team that I was on with David Younes and others. The first time she came to an outdoor soccer meeting outside on the field near Goolrick, the UMW gym, someone said, "Is Ivy playing?" and I said, "What kind of name is 'Ivy?'" Then, I saw who Ivy was and I thought she was very attractive and I got quiet, and then I looked her up on Facebook after the practice and found out her screenname--"tekymeky14"--and started emailing her.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Her email address was tekym...@yahoo..com , but was deleted by 2011 when I was captured (I tried it once then)....I might have also emailed her once when we were friends. She gave me her cell phone number once too, but I never called her.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She was from Roanoke, VA, and had gone to Cave Spring HS.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - She basically never talked about chemistry or science with me ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/19/sport/joasia-zakrzewski-ultrarunning-disqualification-spt-intl/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is a satire of Joe Biden and the FBI and how they "do their jobs." I find it amusing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, my one wish for the month, other than my immediate release and the removal of all malware from my computer, is for my abusive mother to SHUT UP and stop trying to extract vocal treats from me. I cannot, for the life of me, get her to stop asking me the most annoying, needling questions imaginable. What a pain! I cannot just get her to shut up and leave me alone, I just don't want to talk to her at all but she has no respect for that.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > When my mother bothers me, she has the knowledge of how to do it in a maximally bothersome way, so sometimes, it messes up my mood for the rest of the day. I think it is her sport, she is a lunatic. Anyway, I don't want to talk about that right now...this last encounter didn't bother me as much as usual, partly because of the absence of the possibility of satellite harassment...my mother, for some reason, has amassed a lot of skill at talking to me in the most bothersome ways possible, she did know me since I was a baby and influence my upbringing and education quite a bit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I think I just did something with my computer that *might* have gotten rid of all the malware, but I cannot be sure?? AFAIK there is no way to tell, the Norton Anti-Virus scanners sometimes pretend that all the malware is gone when it isn't gone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will just type to some extent, and then see if there are any typos or other irregularities in my typing. If nothing shows up for maybe 1-3 days, maybe I will conclude that the malware is probably gone, and it wouldn't be stressful to start trying to build my trading algorithm in Python again. I would have to re-install Python though since I uninstalled it earlier while trying to get rid of all the malware, I uninstalled almost all "non-trivial" programs to try that earlier.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm going to work on chess strategy. I have not received enough help with this. People trying to "condition me" to "figure things out for myself" is stupid and pathetic, I do not have to agree with Ayn Rand about everything to be an American, I could have really used some help from people regarding trivial malware issues and satellite issues and other obnoxious political issues, I am supposed to have a job, not a "mystical journey to go around and learn pointless facts about how mobsters try to sabotage and impair mental patients," I didn't sign up for that course and I didn't want to take it and I certainly don't need that information or skillset to have a normal productive life, my time is being wasted by fake "psychologists" and friends.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Should I have to become a skilled construction worker, too, in order to receive peace of mind and basic psychological help from the freaks who drive around town and follow me around and signal me in code? 100% of their signals are *just harassing*, not *one* thing that they signal is every helpful, promoting my health, or doing anything other than at least trying to bother and confuse me. As the MCV torture guy noted, I am just an emotional urinal to the loser-freaks of this crazy local area, and they are just mentally urinating on me when they show up to do some weird freaky code to "say something" and "harass me but with a cover that makes it look like it's really psychological help from an informal mental health advocacy team, that has formed to *help me*."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I saw the word "ever" change to "every," I don't know if that's a Google glitch, or if it means I still have malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My nutjob mother just *had* to come back, and perform a few footsteps in my area before leaving silently without being seen, to "mark her turf" gain. If you ever talk to this woman, try to see if she does things like this to you too. I'm her "disabled acquaintance," so she probably tries to "practice with a 'naked personality' around me" so that she can hone her "Star Wars Jedi annoyance-for-fun-and-social-profit skills" with a "safe target."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yeah, the question is, when it comes to the local "psychology" freaks, the question is, "is there anything at all that they *don't* think would be appropriate for therapy?" Is there one thing that would be too inappropriate or hurtful or awful that they shouldn't do to the patients that they don't think they could deny or make up an excuse or cover for? It seems like, almost everything these guys has to be, "to show you that life with mental illness is tough," which I already knew, and basically, the things that the people do are almost *never* pleasant at all, and almost *never* involving *clear communication.* Seriously, if you email the top Harvard anti-suicide professor, sharing some brilliant psych research IP ideas, hoping for a few words of a response from the professor, you'll find the person (Dr. Nock in this case) to be less responsive and helpful than Stephen Cook, the Canadian Professor of CS. *Every* single representative in the "hierarchy of psychology" is in the "vow of silence" club--none of them will speak to you, maybe someone in the chain of command will "cast a magic spell on you" with behaviorism or something using no more than 3-5 words, but don't ever expect a psych worker to say something *helpful* to you or *completely solving of a problem you have*, no matter how much you're paying.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Expose complete, again! Maybe it will help, someday?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is very annoying that my post got deleted by browser malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What I said was, the lie that many Americans have been dying for recently is, Terence Tao's claim that "some people have a mathematical disease." There is actually no such thing. I just like math and am very good at it, and Terence Tao has been lying and manipulating and killing and torturing to try to keep his first-place position in math. Quite simply, he is not as good at math as I am, and has successfully convinced some other crooks that I have a "mathematical disease" and that it is "very unhealthy for me to get involved with thinking about math and CS and science, *especially* for money." It's a cynical, highly mass-lethal ploy, that has killed literally millions of Americans already, by depriving them of my STEM research. I ought to be allowed to research and publish, I should not be denied my career because Terence Tao "thinks my talent at math is 'unhealthy.'" Unhealthy for whom, anyway? His and Scott Aaronson's egos?? How on earth could mathematics be unhealthy? Is there a sort of "breakfast cereal" disease, too? What about an "acting disease?" I don't know, what about, maybe, a, uh, *sexual disease*?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And yes, the obvious quip is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I wonder, did Barack Obama kill Joshua Wheeler, claiming that he had a "combat disease?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, upon reflection, it looks like I am not going to be able to work in these industries, based on me having been illegally banned by criminals and cheaters/fraudsters:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - doing anything directly in STEM for money
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > - writing a blog or running a website myself for money
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, I will probably need to do fiction writing for money, and try to get my work published in pre-existing publications. I suppose I will have to do that; America is paying the price for its leaders' treason, at least I console myself regarding this multi-billion dollar fraud and theft with the extent to which I have truly gotten an incredible amount of justice for what was done to me! I won in that regard in spite of the cheating, at least! Maybe they'll think twice before assaulting me next time!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Basically, Keith Mellinger at UMW *really* wanted a compliment. You're dying for that need.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The FBI and VA State police have not answered me regarding the malware that is illegally placed on my computer.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would still like to try to have a career in STEM actually. I *must* be allowed to write computer code, this is such an outrage and I have received no support in this matter! I must be treated better than this, you lunatics are paying for it in a big way and there is *no defense* for this, you are eroding the rule of law itself and ruining your credibility, reputation, claim to being reasonable and moral, and your own legal codes. You don't follow your own rules, and you stand exposed as anti-American hypocrites with mob values. Too many of your backers accept this, look at what has happened to them for their failure to be reasonable.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You do at least admit that you are very unreasonable, right?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And not just to me, right, American terrorists?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would like a little help with this matter, actually. I have not received any. I need help with this, I deserve to be able to have a job and a career and not live my entire life on a Petri dish while Nazis run things, I demand that I *actually* be supported in this. The cheating and attacks against me must stop, this is an outrage! The end to the satellites is not enough, the malware must be removed. My so-called "supporters" refuse to even speak to me. Leave me alone!!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A concerning, serious question: To what extent is American psychiatry and psychology just a big front for the human trafficking of the mentally ill? It would appear there is not one psych doctor, academic or clinical, who is *overtly outraged* about how I've been treated. Is it claimed that anyone, anywhere, would actually *want* this "service" that I've been forced to "accept" for nearly 12 years now?? Is it claimed to be an "involuntary sophisticated system for the promotion of mental health," or is it just an elaborate horse tack to turn human mentally ill people into productive slaves for research? I haven't seen one action taken since 2011 to promote my health, and I don't think it is possible to accurately cite even one example to the contrary.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, as is the custom, the psych workers would say to that, "He is just very paranoid, we would *never* hurt a patient, we are doctors, we never hurt patients, this is all to help him with his very, very serious condition that have been *trying* for years to fix, but he keeps expressing all of these delusions and *claims that people want to bother him and restrict his freedom*, and it's just *so delusional*, poor guy, we're always out there helping him, we just never talk to him, no one ever talks to him, what a sad damage to his health that we're bravely trying to work on for him."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, I had a hopefully quite productive couple of internet chats with Norton support...maybe that is what I needed to do and I just needed to think of it. The stupid law enforcement people, like the FBI, would not answer me.. Anyway, someone from Norton logged into my computer and did some things and hopefully that will get rid of the malware completely, once and for all, and then I can carry on with my life!!! As I said to the Norton staff, it would be such a relief if the malware would actually go away completely!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm hoping it's completely gone forever...I will be upset if it comes back, but I was assured by the Norton person that it is actually gone. I really really hope so, honestly, my ability to sleep at night, given all that has happened, depends on it!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll check on things again tomorrow and see if there is still no problem....so far, no typos or other ominous signs in this post! Hopefully I can write Python code! I'll be quite grateful to Norton if so. I just hadn't thought to contact customer support, I always feel these days like "nothing works," I'm starting to understand the psychology of that a little better now, something a group therapist named Andy Mahoney said years ago made sense.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...so I typed the word "better" and it came out as "beter." That is a little bit scary, hopefully that was just my bad typing and not malware, still!!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is actually so scary to have persistent malware on your computer when the scanner will not detect it! You think you're off the hook, and then it comes back again and you see that it was never gone, and it is supposed to really stress you out, and if you need computing resources for your job, as I do as a programmer, it is really upsetting to think you're finally done with the issues and then it comes back! So upsetting!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My sense of it is, Norton actually hadn't heard of me and didn't get what's going on until now. It's like that pizza guy in Spider-man 2 scene, where he tells Peter Parker that the pizza's shop's promise is a guarantee...unlike NSA, British leaders, and Obama, many businesses have to rely on a *universal guarantee* that their product works as advertised, or they lose tons of money.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My sense of it is, the Norton people, who hinted that the issue is "like a cyst," will have it completely fixed if it isn't already fixed by next Tuesday or Wednesday, since they would want "the win" as a big ad for their service...which I will surely be relying on if it truly works at the end of the day, which I think it will! Probably, British satellites added a nasty new kind of malware to my computer; Norton will fix it, I assume, within a few days, and the NSA probably already retaliated years ago just by causing Brexit. In America, there are lots of guarantees...I think the NSA clearance is supposed to offer certain "guarantees of protection" to those who receive it, and there is retaliation well beyond "free pizza" issues when serious, calculated efforts are made to undermine the "clearance guarantee" that I think at least NSA personnel are very very fond of, since it keeps them safe too, regardless of "who likes them," as long as they follow the rules pretty closely.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A comment: After I am financially established, I might indeed want to leave the USA. I might try to keep my citizenship though. I might try to move to New Zealand as Richard Dawkins recommended. It is a very real possibility. I receive almost no sympathy or concern for my health here in the USA.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In the US, almost everyone over 18 is allowed to own *a gun* based on the US Constitution. At the same time, people with *alarmingly slight* mental health differences are not allowed to own *a life* with pretty much any choice made in that life without the permission of a doctor. Maybe, having "lost the battle for America's heart" anyway, I ought to just leave and find a country that is less gun crazy. I could just move where I'm going to move and get established there, maybe make a friend or two and treat it like a 2-year program staying in the USA, and then visit New Zealand and see if people are less shockingly callous and inhumane about mentally ill people. Here at home, I see no regard at all given to people with minor mental health issues, especially if they are "knocked down" for a moment. Perhaps I should leave indeed, and use my innovative ideas to power a country, if there is one somewhere, that is less unfriendly to people like me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At the same time, I should watch out...what if the whole "torture Philip for years" program was a highly classified secret plot by New Zealand to get me to move there? How could I know?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What's clear is, political attitudes in the USA are crazy, actually un-American also, and totally inhumane and psychopathic with regard to people who are slightly different in non-sex-related ways. The rule in America is, if you're going to be different, make it something about your sexuality, and not about how you think or feel/care about other people.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Do you understand the *severity* of Philip White's complaints and his allegations of what you have done to him?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Yes, but in order to have a life among juicy young brunette and blond American citizens with American accents who will laugh at jokes either way, he is going to have to *retract* his allegations, true or not, to win "the like" have the *opportunity* to serve other Americans by doing work for them that they have no talent or ability to do for themselves. In order to win 1/10th of his old social life back, fakely, he must learn to bow before us and give us exactly what we please, working in near total isolation in silence, with tenth-tier citizen rights, or he will know that we will never accept him or speak to him again."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "You do realize he will never do that, he will see your clan of 'leadership club members' as literally fascist, abusive, pedophiles and tell everyone so, damaging your reputation, and then either the leave the country or die as some worthless-to-*you* 'example' of what happens to Americans who really, really try to take their first amendment rights and *the truth,* courage, and standing for good values seriously? Either you'll eventually kill him and gain nothing from him and lose a lot in the battle because he is brilliant, you will leave him alone, or he will successfully flee the country and get a job and try his luck in another country."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Oh. Actually, I thought he would help us rebuild everything that we threw away while fighting him. Hmmmm...."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Clearly, the malware is still with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The "Philip is a dog who will not have his arguments heard or accepted as even possibly correct, now Philip, *GIVE*," approach is not going to work.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One thing I might really try is: Try to find a company that exists only in New Zealand. I could try to sell some of my already developed IP to them. If they refuse, I will not move to New Zealand. If they say yes, it would greatly increase the likelihood of me moving there...I would try to be careful about espionage and worry about having sensitive files on the internet that works out.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am seem to be locked up pretty good here, in spite of having literally done nothing at all wrong, ever, at all! Are they saying that I never knew Ivy Smith? That is a horribly cynical pack of lies. We were seen together a few times, though not often. We interacted mainly on AIM, and it is very outrageous to try to kill me and torture me, and say it is because I tried to talk to Ivy after having never met her. I am not John Hinckley, I resent the effort to morph my reputation into that of a historical killer, and I deserve the same exact rights as any other American...I did nothing wrong, this is horrible and a mini-holocaust, *again*. I haven't received notice of whatever lies they concocted to accuse me something are.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I don't know if my latest attempt will fail, too. I contacted Norton Anti-Virus, they said the malware was gone from my computer, they deleted some files in special-looking directories in Windows, like one called "temp", and they accessed my computer remotely...the malware is definitely still here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is the craziest thing! What will it take to get the stalkers to leave me alone? I don't even know what fake story you created about me. What magic words do I need to say to get you to stop doing this to me?? This was a very horrible, torture-intensive nasty program done to me to hurt me, very cynically disguised as "therapy," and they're still going on with this, apparently unopposed and unspoken to. Did all the liberals in America die in car crashes or something, and were they all given fake AI-generated Facebook profiles to make it seem like nothing happened to them??? I really don't get this!!!!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > One possibility I hadn't considered: What if my tips on fbi.gov all get shot down by the malware every time? What if the FBI has not received any of my complaints/tips, due to malware preventing my submitted form complaints from going through?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That can't be right, though, because I had called the FBI repeatedly in the past.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I do *not* get what the heck is going on, or what the FBI said I did.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just realized something, based on a tip...it must be the case that people actually cannot email me, probably due to illegally placed malware, so I'm saying that now so that I don't mislead anyone...I was almost certainly wrong with my wishful-thinking idea that my email cannot be read. Actually, it must be able to be read, because I someone on Twitter, whom I don't know the outcome of but I surely wish the person well and a good recovery or pleasant revival upon being brought back to life if a peaceful though sad death happened, who had cancer, and I offered my condolences/support to the person I didn't know on Twitter briefly in a post or two. It is not unlikely that many cancer patients and also doctors are aware of the existence of my cure, or rather, the idea that is quite likely to lead to one, and it will be a question of liberating me and having someone pay me or give me credit for the idea, and then I would give permission for it to be used. I don't want people to die of cancer, but if things are working right at all, it should *surely* be possible for someone to email me to at least acknowledge that the great new chemistry cure idea is indeed correct...that would be a great starting move that would be the first acknowledgment that I am indeed a brilliant author of many great and valuable STEM ideas. I'm just waiting for my cure idea to be acknowledged to me, among other things I'm also waiting for.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yes, there must be people who have heard about the cure, and I'm not being emailed or spoken to for some reason. I think the reason I'm able to talk so freely is, I'm *very extremely heavily armed with math ideas*, I'm more "powerful/valuable-STEM-idea-drenched" the entire US Air Force, DARPA, MIT, NASA, and NSA put together, at least that's my claim--I've got it all in a sense, and by all I mean "all great new ideas from this century so far."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Btw, here is a pasted shot-down post from around 3:40 p.m. today:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > For one thing, I proved the Hodge Conjecture, and apparently, the FBI adjudicated that I am "too sick to receive for my work" right now. Maybe they think I should never receive credit for my work, because I'm *so sick* that I just wouldn't be able to *handle* getting credit and payment and being happy, being recognized for my work.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, if there were something I could do to help liberate me faster to help both cancer patients in the US and abroad, and to help people in Africa who need bread because I would make money fast to give bread as a gift if I could use a compiler, I would probably do it. I am stressed out by all the dead ends and "promising looking opportunities that just wind up being scams shut down by cheaters," but I can still do things if they seem likely to help and it won't frustrate me so much that I'll get my health damaged.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The battle they might be claiming it is, not that their argument is elite enough, since debate must always be more important than the performance arts in a society like this:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "Gosh, It's a Meeting of the Elites, It's Competitive!" vs. "Don't You Have Eyes To See What Is Going On?"
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_wjFahULCK8
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > vs.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlbaJA7aO9M&list=RDmdB3Oyd5HtU&index=7
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > All of you like that excuse, "We're at war," right? Well?? Are we, or are you just focused on your checkers club?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is possible, that when I get out of this situation, I will not publish science research after all. It is tempting, while I might still have maybe 5-10% levels of Stockholm Syndrome or something similar, to "change my self-concept to 'scholarly yet personality-wise-different Albert Einstein,'" sitting in my study, devising brilliant research ideas while living in a troubled country that is just a shadow of what it once was, burning the candle at both ends doing *my work* to help the country thrive again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That sounds like a trap--"change your self-concept to something comfortable to win relief from the hunters." The thing is, if I were publishing STEM research to influence the world, would I be doing it selfishly, to make the world a better place, or to make the world a worse place? I don't think any of those three would make sense...to make the world a better place with my research would be to say, "thank you so much for torturing me, USA and the world, here, have the cure for *your* problems, when you wouldn't even lift a finger or say a word to fix mine." I might just not publish research at all...when my mind and "eyes" in a sense are fully clear, I'll be sure to make the right decision for me, and make it carefully, not carelessly.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm much more likely to send bread to Africa after I can get the malware off my computer.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I wish I could stop having to consider "Republican perspectives" and just focus on my own, sane and rational, way of looking at the world...I don't want to "debate the silent and try to guess their every bogus Karl-Rove-inspired dishonesty-based argument for bothering me," but I am having to do it for now, and I suppose it does affect me to some extent.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An amazing thing from Newsweek:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The AP-NORC poll also found that a clear majority of Democrats - 81 percent - said they would either probably or definitely support Biden if he is the party's nominee.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Forty-one percent said they would definitely support him and 40 percent said they would probably support the president."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is to say, less than 45% of all Americans would even say they *approve* of him, let alone *like* him, and *only 41% of **Democrats** * would even definitely vote for him. He literally covered up and suppressed a cure for cancer, infuriating quiet doctors and cancer patients around the country, claiming there's some "greater priority out there" other than American health--basically, Barack Obama is * **completely** done*.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Now, Democrats and the media *still* oppose public five-letter-racial-slur user Joe Biden being removed from office--they haven't done it yet, or 18 months ago when they also definitely should have if they had been sane and rational--and they are charging ahead to another election where **not even 25% of Americans are ***definitely*** planning to vote for Biden.**
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > As I said in a sense before, kiss the Democratic White House goodbye now...the odds of Democratic retention of the WH in 2024 are close to 0%, and I'm proud, even though I hate Republicans too, to have played a key, punitive role, in telling horrifying, fake, and homicidal Democrat leaders, "NO, you may not commit that crime and completely get away with it with no consequence at all." Someday we will have leaders who *actually* respect the rule of law and don't just give it lip service and play Rove-ian games with codes, propaganda techniques, and lies.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If they're lucky, Democrats in 2024 will have 75% swing voters, and they will not be that lucky.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/apr/14/alexei-navalny-in-critical-situation-after-possible-poisoning-says-ally
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This is not good news for the world or for me. My strategic move designed to help Navalny apparently was not very successful. I would go ahead and place the blame on Biden--it could have worked, my maneuver was designed, based on a math system that is still a secret, to provide mutual benefit to Navalny and to me. The fact that he would appear to be near death diminishes my stature strategically, although I am still great, and essentially the most powerful person in the world, in terms of strategic resources to draw upon, although I am currently facing a money/freedom/computing/socializing capability deficit. Yes, I am less powerful because of Navalny's likely outcome, that is unfortunate for me..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sadly, given my current situation, I do not think there is anything else I can really do. I wouldn't be surprised if Biden successfully leaves the malware on my computer until sometime after Navalny is dead, probably as some sort of very vicious/sadistic deal that Biden has with Putin, "for not getting to do his dream job the way he wanted," since JRB wanted the WH so very very much every since he was a young man, almost as much as he wanted to molest, torture, and kill me--apparently the most coveted thing he has ever wanted in his life, probably beyond even getting his first wife back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh well. Western political-office-holders are next to useless, what else is new? I'm one of the only people out there who can even talk!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The way to see my malware problem is, every computer that I buy is essentially one that I must "purchase with a government driver's license," and the government has perpetually added a "bad-guy mark" to my driver's license, even though I have done nothing wrong. I am currently unable to access a computer that is not controlled by the US government, and they refuse to remove the "driver's license mark" from my record. I didn't do anything wrong at all, all I did was *complain when I was tortured and mistreated* by government bad guys. If they're saying that I leaked, that's a complete lie and the NSA knows it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Good news! Norton Anti-Virus just caught and removed a threat on my computer. Maybe the malware is permanently gone??!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll look into that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If it is gone, I will work on making my own money and helping Africa before I help anyone in China or before I try to help Navalny. I think that is fair...the best way to serve the world at this point is to make sure that the MVP at fighting for human rights, humane treatment, and freedom, globally--me--is well-paid for his past work. After that, I will help Africa ASAP, and then consider other projects.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm not even sure the malware is really fully gone yet though. I'll have to wait and see.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Feel free to get in touch if you want to ask me any questions!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So...um...given that I cured cancer, a doctor in the US somewhere is going to contact me to discuss giving me credit for my breakthrough, right? No one is going to try to just let that idea get stolen from me without me receiving credit for my work, or just fail to cure cancer with my idea, right?? Surely doctors in the USA are more ethical than that!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It is still possible that I will want to do research, if I can live in a "non-insane state of the USA." What if "Vladimir Putin" is code for "Virginia's Patheticness," and the more pathetic Virginia gets, the more powerful Putin gets?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Something I figured out:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > From Mark Braverman's response, it's quite clear that all Ivy league psych, law, business, math, CS, and all other faculty despise me, along with MIT and Sipser.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What I realized is, the "go to war for Guinivyre" narrative is just a cover. Dr. Moran at MCV passed on the lie too: "You seem like a nice guy with a lot of insight." R GROAN, WAIL. Why, he posits, would everyone want to arrest me if I were *really* a nice guy with a lot of insight?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm coming to that. First, if I had done something *so awful* that federal prosecutors, threatened/murdered or not for doing so, refused to prosecute me, search/surveillance warrant or not--I did nothing criminal even if I was surveilled in my apartment in 2011 and before--why wouldn't I be arrested? Failing that, why wouldn't someone interested in halting "my awful, awful, totally real and non-fabricated crimes" simply tell me what they don't like me doing and ask me to stop? What's clear is, the Ivy League faculty have been emailing around about this for a *long* time indeed.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Remember the comment, "Read my lips, no new taxes," from George H. W. Bush? What if what he really meant was, "Read my lips, no new Nashes?" What did Nash himself think about this unusual proposal? I believe Nash supported me, actively and quietly, and was murdered with his wife, while getting his son spared, for daring to assist me with his ideas. That is sad and I still admire and like John Nash quite a bit. The thing is, John Nash was very *smart*--he was unlikely not to understand which team he was not really on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, basically, what happened is, there was a massive, nearly universal effort to drive me to suicide in high school...just about everyone I knew and talked to, including friends, doctors, parents, hopefully not Theresa and Trudy, but almost everyone else I had ever met, was involved in a plot to try to get me to take my own life. I considered it, but backed away from the attempt and sought help at the last minute. For some reason, my mother cried on the way to the hospital. Maybe all Ivy League and MIT faculty did, too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The cover is supposed to be, horny old Ebenezer Dawkins was *totally smitten* and fooled by the perfectly chemically concocted pack of lies by Ivy R. Smith, whom it was claimed Philip White had never met and was *horridly stalking*. That isn't entirely true, except for the Ebenezer part maybe.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Essentially, it was a stealth-murder plot with too many loose ends and too many people who knew what was really going on, that failed when I was 16 as Dr. Sipser so rightly pointed out the time before the last time I emailed him--I only just today realized he was probably in on it, and I had emailed him yesterday about the malware...I had written to Dr. Chow, probably also in on it, a little before that, and Dr.. Chow actually responded, helpfully, great, whatever he thought. Maybe he wasn't in on it, he isn't a faculty member at MIT or an Ivy League school, I can't be sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yes, that's the motive--GHWB and his cronies collaborated aggressively to drive me to suicide when I was 16, I didn't do it, and that created a big problem for all the people who had made up lies about me when I was 16. Basically, they want to try again, and again, and again, and kill as *many* Americans as it takes, to show how serious they are not, not about leadership or research, but about going to jail.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't see any better possible explanation than that one.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I still think Steg and Radin might have been innocent, they have "offices in the jungle" that I was exiled to, and they are not lawyers. I think they were not evil and Dr. Chow, in spite of his helpful response to my email, was probably very bad also.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, yes, yes, Darth Senator Whatever, I am *very* interested in the pacifier friendship. Very very interested. As a matter of fact, at this point, that is pretty much the only thing you and your obsolete butt-sore friends could possibly have that I would ever want. I guess: You will choose to be unkind again, because that is your nature. OHHHH no, not again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The odds of me moving to South Africa are rather low, but not zero. I will probably stay here. I am *extremely unlikely* to ever do any work at all that would ever even begin to benefit the Congressional nutjobs, even if you were facing a NuClEaR dIsAsTeR that might leave you with...wait for it, this sounds even worse to you kids...No FrIeNdS aT aLl, get it!!!! You are completely on your own. I'll do research as I please, and prepare for being locked out...if I exhaust my options, in my quest to take over and re-shape academia, especially psych academia, to serve *my* purposes, especially ending the "race to perform very poorly and be verbally and care-wise ultra-stingy, but also, **the least disliked by the patient** while still meeting or exceeding the ultra-low quality standard" in clinical psychology and psychiatry. I have great ideas, I'll publish them when the time is right, they will help me and not you, Congress freaks.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Oh yeah, I meant to say, if I'm locked out of academia, I'll start a business, take notes on which journals screwed me, and get the editors and refs arrested and financially work over Harvard and other low-quality schools (compared to me, I'm still arrogant) with money and "special personnel changes," starting, seriously, with non-responder claimed anti-suicide fan "Dr. Nock," instead of research. I am not suicidal at all, but he doesn't know that, and chose not to answer my email in what probably constituted the single worst decision of his professional life. Not answering a mental patient without adequate care in the USA within 24 hours? Not going to be both a particularly well-liked man and still working at Harvard in 10 years. You're getting a patient perspective for a couple of decades at least, or a very well money-backed hostile takeover of Harvard and other crap Ivy League schools. You're supposed to think that's grandiose. It is going to happen, unless I'm held here, in which case America will be bombed submission or non-existence.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yes, my computer still has malware, Norton hasn't fixed the problem yet. Disgusting. What if I died? All of you should be fired and unemployed. Not kidding, not easily destabilized or manipulated, starting recently.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's not a threat, it's an announcement: I have selected "Dr. Nock" of Harvard, based on my theories and strategic algorithms, for a study, in which I will publish research, part-time, to ruin his reputation and career, for ignoring my email in a time of need. This is a man whom I've never met or spoken to who is *deeply* out of touch with the mental health system in the USA. What value can this slacker possibly add working at a top school live Harvard? Don't pathologize this, I'm dead serious. Patients in hospitals get TDO'd for less serious non-compliance-related outrage.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, I worry too much that my jokes and everything else will get old, and I'll have to re-invent everything again to stay communicatively fresh and proper.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I just selected my two "Type B personality role models," since in the past, I mainly acted like and seemed to be a Type B personality person. (I just got like 20 typos in the word "models" above, I don't know WTH that is.) Anyway, here are two Type B Personality Role models, for your edutainment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Role Model #1: High-Energy: John Brougher, former HS student at TJHSST and debate team member.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Role Model #2: Low-Energy: Michael Wilson, former UMW student and, uh, non-elite ping-pong player.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > That's right, grin with pride like Alfred Pennyworth at the end of the last Christopher Nolan Batman movie! Yeah, I guess you never did know what you had until you lost it--my *acquaintance*! NOW you're sorry!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, yeah, I need to calm down. It *is* important for me to stay up in the sense of *able to readily and angrily present a serious, aggressive debating point in writing on the internet*, but also, yes, the bad guys have definitely identified lots of different and surprising "personality and other psychological dimensions" with respect to which they greatly enjoy trying to mess with my levels and destabilize me, all with the keen assistance of evil higher-ed psych "doctors." I got that idea from Andy Mahoney, who probably, like Steg and Radin, was also not bad. I'm not sure about Sebben, I only saw him very briefly. My mom fired lots of doctors quickly.
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqhntKPh2EY
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> > > > > > > > > > > > So, interestingly, after I started applying Steg's advice (I think he meant, music = mind placebo...I think Mahoney may have said something that was supposed to be a "sexual stability placebo," and placebos I think can help advance stability), I noticed that in the song above, TKO, went back to being fun and enthusiasm-provoking, not "cryptanalysis provoking," as I got more stable...I found KH's character to be not irritating and annoying, like another hair in my mouth (!! not the worst thing but it gets so frustrating after a while if done frequently by the bad guys, they can still do it to me and have done it like once, I think they can no longer find my throat for choking, but yes, I'll update if that's wrong, again, like with many other previous fake-outs), as opposed to like a fun and almost funny, in terms of mood effects, and pleasant character. The "weird facial expressions and body language" just look playful and highly "within range" of being tolerable and acceptable, my irritability decreases a lot, and I find the song to be like a candy bar or chewing fun...like a 5-min walk on a sunny and breezy day in a warm and familiar place, rather than *suddenly actually extremely irritating*, like it was for a while before I started using "stability placebos" on a few different dimensions.
> > > > > > > > > > > *chewing gum, and the Google service blocked my msg first time I posted, saying, "Error posting message"...GOOG wants to be LGBTQ/liberalism NRA, too? What a surprise....
> > > > > > > > > > Also, psych comment: Typically, after a time around 11:34 p.m. through 11:45 p.m., I typically get over nasal congestion and night-time post-meds feelings of agitation, at about the same time.
> > > > > > > > > I am now feeling rather calm and good...I am feel fine and not upset at all, that is a mild pleasant surprise, given the magnitude of my unpleasant feelings before (mildly unpleasant but significantly enough so that I was surprised that they went away quickly).
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> > > > > > > > > I just watched the GHWB speech clips on YouTube about "no new taxes"..."Bush *EIGHTY-EIGHT*????!" So, I was 1 year old, and Scott Aaronson was around 5 or 6. I think HW Bush and Clinton literally murdered two of my mom's children that she was pregnant with...Theresa was born later in 1988 without any serious incident I don't think, we were both healthy enough to lead healthy lives...but my Mom was pregnant with Baby Anthony and one other baby whose name I never heard of, and both babies were miscarriages, dying before they were born. I'm concerned that my siblings were murdered in utero by the US government...the babies were wanted and were planned to born and raised, my parents really didn't have any interest in or reason to want an abortion ever, I'm pretty sure.
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> > > > > > > > > So, please be sure to avenge my unborn siblings who were murdered! Once, I imagined myself talking to them, and I felt sheepish that I barely think about them, as opposed to various nasty people who were born that have never added any value to me or the world or been nice to me overall...it's like I said to them, "I don't care that you were never born," but I didn't say that and wouldn't mean it, I just never think about them enough, maybe someday they will be resurrected and raised in a healthy home.
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> > > > > > > > > Also, I very much support the idea that abortions should be legal through months 0-4, and not beyond that...4 months is plenty of time, seriously don't veer into actual murder by allowing conscious partially matured-to-born-baby-hood fetuses to be killed in the uterus with abortions, just end the time period where it should be legal at the end of 4 months..
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> > > > > > > > > And I don't care about abortion being banned...go ahead and ban it as a punitive measure against bad-guy Americans who keep doing the stupidest votes and supporting the stupidest ideas, like, "everyone's a little racist"--reject all of that nonsense, and punish the Americans who keep astonishingly mind-bogglingly stupidly voting for such things and people like Obama-backed people who support such stupid things. American liberalism is failing, mostly, and deserves a serious consequence. I say, go ahead and reject gay marriage...I can calm down and not be cognitively emotionally irritated by gay people having rights or doing anything else, but the thought was based on stable thinking and was correctly...end gay marriage, send the "screw you," return America to feeling responsible and in debt for its many and various crimes, America must comply with good values and laws again, or face more problems.
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
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> > > > > > > > A little bit of attempted rhythm-matching freewriting:
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> > > > > > > > It will be TDO'd.
> > > > > > > > <DEAL>!
> > > > > > > > Fight back...don't accept. (x m)
> > > > > > > > They'll say they are you....
> > > > > > > > Don't. Look. Back.
> > > > > > > > Stand atop the hills.
> > > > > > > > View Rogue One end now.
> > > > > > > > Just say "talk or lose."
> > > > > > > > They will then be mules.
> > > > > > > > Covers blown...no leg left.
> > > > > > > > They can't win debates.
> > > > > > > > They know they are wrong.
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> > > > > > > > And...this one is much sloppier, I am just looking for new fairly low-work-intensity and easy and possibly sloppy/lame but unique ways to express myself for now:
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> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGJlzx0cZVk
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> > > > > > > > Worked it over once, I'm the dunce, lies in skies, make it new
> > > > > > > > The cops have no chops it's the dots and the edges connecting them
> > > > > > > > So, um, what word can persuade, they're unmade, still at it
> > > > > > > > I don't understand, that's the plan?, I will guess, not be sure
> > > > > > > > What they want, are they smart, are they nuts?
> > > > > > > > Why this price, for secrecy???, I can't see, what's the knee
> > > > > > > > Jerk reflex, for the techs, that they dropped, like free junk
> > > > > > > > I can't get this pattern, know the game, it's not lame, but....
> > > > > > > I feel like doing another one:
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> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6QpHeX4Fgw
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> > > > > > > Better...it's all getting...better
> > > > > > > I am making progress
> > > > > > > Just what are they doing?
> > > > > > > Same thing I thought they wouldn't
> > > > > > > Thought they got so much scrutiny, evolution
> > > > > > > Why didn't past iterations die out?
> > > > > > > What, I thought it's most sophisticated?
> > > > > > > How can this be US elite leaders?
> > > > > > > What...who...wiped it...out?
> > > > > > > Oh gosh...they're slow and dumb
> > > > > > > They can't even...stop this
> > > > > > > I didn't miss one thing
> > > > > > > 'Least not that I can see
> > > > > > > I'm going to get out
> > > > > > > Can't believe they won the election
> > > > > > > Politics is all I can see or say now
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
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> > > > > > > As you can see, I'm expressive, not exhibiting too much talent.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I didn't even catch the rhythm right. It's like a rant, but provoked by music. Whatever. Every way I express it, it doesn't seem to register with the local freaks. What the heck are they going on about relating to me? They started with "we never negotiate with terrorists," then started "declaring any people they dislike terrorists," and now, people are yelling at them, "stop framing all of your non-white-male-Christian neighbors as 'terrorists' , " but they say it's their way of life, all the troops who died were actually dying for *this* all along, it is sacred, will never be given up, ever, we're fighting anyone we please and can get away with labeling a terrorist, yeah, we fabricate wild claims, don't blame ourselves our apologize when one our "covers" is blown, we abuse our authority and power, and never say that it's wrong, we're just a big dom-power club, doing what we do best--nothing, except "knowing lots of other people and addictvely persisting at trying to get away with predatory crimes. I can make every good point ever, win the debate 8000 times, they don't, the truth is what they hate, not what they want to make decisions based on. That is a key weakness for them!
> > > > > > OK, enough slightly "dumb" posting for now. I am feeling pretty calm still...that is good. I might be listening to a little bit too much music, but I think it is better to over-do it than under-do it for now.
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> > > > > > I am going to eat a little bit more and then go to bed by around 2:30 . I just turned off the music. I have a Doctor appointment tomorrow, just with a nurse practitioner. I'm hoping that the malware will be fully removed so that I can work again, this whole thing was such a crooked bogus outrage, they just lied and screwed me over without any checks and balances, whatever set of things they made up, they won't even tell me what it is, and that's highly discriminatory and exploitative of my mental health condition...how evil!
> > > > > Btw, I am definitely not going to leak anything, and being tortured definitely did not *decrease* the likelihood of my leaking. I was only likely to maybe say something classified while *very* unable to think straight. If I had never been tortured, there would never have been any serious risk at all. I'm better now--no risk again.
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> > > > > The joke is, the bad guys will say, the torture psych "work" was to stop me from leaking. That is crazy. Aaand..the person lead-in to the obvious The-Simpsons-themed 09/11 and al-Qaeda joke, although it is a bit short on syllables:
> > > > >
> > > > > "WHATEVER HAPPENS, WE HELLLLLLPED!"
> > > > > ~a terrorist's last words on 09/11/2001
> > > > > ~every psych doctor who has worked at MCV since 2012
> > > > I said *perfect, not person. Jerks!
> > > Ah, somebody or some bot is using that hyena sound machine that makes coyote-type sounds that you can't see the device for. It's 2:30 in the morning, if I hadn't already been asleep, it would have woken me up.
> > >
> > > All part of the pro-national-security therapy or whatever you're lying to say your assassination op is now?
> > So yeah I just saw a photo of Meghan Markle looking flattered/impressed....maybe to the extent she is talking about my comments she is not totally thrilled, but, I can see clearly now that the crazy "end date" pressure is done, she probably isn't insincere, so much as official...it sounds like she is saying, with no harm intended to me at least and it's not all that complicated, that her *official* position is that she is not upset regarding any of my comments in the past about her or Prince Harry. If she secretly hates all my comments, she probably isn't thinking about it all that much. When I'm wealthy, which I'm pretty sure I will be, I will definitely not be demanding attention or introductions to famous people, including Meghan Markle...my demands earlier were regarding my captivity. I'm angry that Norton is taking a while, but maybe the "cyst" will truly be gone within 2 weeks. I'll keep checking often! Removing the malware is now the most important thing in my life, truly.
> >
> > Anyway, yes, I am going to need to stop insulting Prince Harry at this point. If I air criticisms, they won't be "outlandish possibly overly-vicious/hurtful comments" about him, since he's not able to be in the ring bothering me or improperly not speaking to me during a crisis involving his friend BHO and maybe him (I forgot exactly all the things that I saw him say that bothered me) or supporting my captivity. I don't know that comments about public figures would constitute stalking if they're just on my page, but I'm not going to explore that...my personal code for conducting myself is a little bit stricter, including in terms of manners, sensitivity, consent, and starting fights, than just US law.
> Based on a hint that occurred to me years ago, I realized CNN.com might have malware on it. The Norton people did not say that at all. I decided to turn off JavaScript for all sites including CNN; glancing at the source code, it appears to be all HTML and JavaScript only. So, maybe turning off JavaScript will help to make the "cyst" that the Norton people half-helpfully mentioned. I deserve better service, I get crap service at every company I try to interact with, for goodness sakes! It is not "cool" or "edgy" to give customers crap service based on a "totally popular cool kid you know" who doesn't like the particular customer. You might get a high-five from an idiot, you aren't really going to keep getting paid for your "work."