On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength....I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email....as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess.. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
>
> I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
>
> I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
>
> I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ....yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp.. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point.. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > >
> > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > >
> > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> >
> > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> >
> > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> >
> > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
>
> An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
>
> In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
>
> What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
>
> Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
>
> In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ....yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure....so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too.. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > >
> > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > >
> > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > >
> > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > >
> > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > >
> > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> >
> > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> >
> > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> >
> > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> >
> > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> >
> > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
>
> In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
>
> It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a ..txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > >
> > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > >
> > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > >
> > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > >
> > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > >
> > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > >
> > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > >
> > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > >
> > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > >
> > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> >
> > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> >
> > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> More comments:
>
> No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
>
> Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
>
> That is my update for now.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > >
> > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > >
> > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > >
> > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > >
> > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > >
> > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture.. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > >
> > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > >
> > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media.. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > More comments:
> >
> > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> >
> > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> >
> > That is my update for now.
> Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
>
> You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
>
> My research will aid me.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student.. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name....can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet.. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now.. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > >
> > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > >
> > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > >
> > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > >
> > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > >
> > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > >
> > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > >
> > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > More comments:
> > >
> > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > >
> > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > >
> > > That is my update for now.
> > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> >
> > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> >
> > My research will aid me.
> Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 9:30:13 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name....can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal.. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me....maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
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> > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit....you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > More comments:
> > > >
> > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > >
> > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > >
> > > > That is my update for now.
> > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > >
> > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > >
> > > My research will aid me.
> > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
>
> Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
>
> - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> - Purely a conicidence
> - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
>
> My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
>
> The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
>
> Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name....can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal.. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me....maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > >
> > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > >
> > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > >
> > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit....you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > More comments:
> > > >
> > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > >
> > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > >
> > > > That is my update for now.
> > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > >
> > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > >
> > > My research will aid me.
> > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
>
> Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
>
> - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> - Purely a conicidence
> - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
>
> My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
>
> The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
>
> Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 9:58:26 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama....I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again..
> > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story....Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list.."
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> > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit....you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > More comments:
> > > > >
> > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > >
> > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > >
> > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment.. I will get it one day.
> > > >
> > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > >
> > > > My research will aid me.
> > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> >
> > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> >
> > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > - Purely a conicidence
> > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> >
> > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> >
> > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> >
> > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
>
> I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
>
> So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
>
> Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
>
> So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama....I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again..
> > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story....Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list.."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit....you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > More comments:
> > > > >
> > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > >
> > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > >
> > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment.. I will get it one day.
> > > >
> > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > >
> > > > My research will aid me.
> > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> >
> > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> >
> > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > - Purely a conicidence
> > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> >
> > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> >
> > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> >
> > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
>
> I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
>
> So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
>
> Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
>
> So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn..com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of.. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough.. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story....Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare.. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > >
> > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > >
> > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > >
> > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > >
> > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > >
> > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful.. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > >
> > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > >
> > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> >
> > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> >
> > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> >
> > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> >
> > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
>
>
> My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
>
> I am just commenting.
>
> I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
>
> It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
>
> I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
>
> Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
>
> Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
>
> The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
>
> What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
>
> I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
>
> Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
>
> I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
>
> Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid.. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
>
> I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube..com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it.. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > >
> > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > >
> > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > >
> > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > >
> > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > >
> > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > >
> > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > >
> > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > >
> > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > >
> > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> >
> >
> > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> >
> > I am just commenting.
> >
> > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> >
> > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> >
> > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> >
> > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> >
> > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> >
> > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> >
> > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> >
> > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> >
> > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> >
> > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> >
> > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> >
> > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
>
> I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
>
>
>
> I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
>
> Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
>
> I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
>
> I'll try to post this to sci.math too.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www..cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know.. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all.. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days....e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting....next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine.. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down....maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
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> > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson....there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > >
> > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > >
> > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > >
> > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > >
> > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > >
> > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > >
> > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > >
> > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > >
> > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > >
> > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > >
> > >
> > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > >
> > > I am just commenting.
> > >
> > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > >
> > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > >
> > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying..
> > >
> > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > >
> > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > >
> > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > >
> > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > >
> > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > >
> > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > >
> > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > >
> > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > >
> > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> >
> > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> >
> >
> >
> > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> >
> > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> >
> > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> >
> > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
>
> I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
>
> I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
>
> So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
>
> The end.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting....next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you....probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal.. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > >
> > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > >
> > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > >
> > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > >
> > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > >
> > > > I am just commenting.
> > > >
> > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > >
> > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > >
> > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > >
> > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > >
> > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > >
> > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > >
> > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > >
> > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > >
> > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > >
> > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > >
> > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > >
> > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > >
> > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > >
> > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > >
> > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > >
> > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> >
> > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> >
> > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> >
> > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> >
> > The end.
> https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
>
> Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
>
> You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter..com/jenshahade
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you....probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > >
> > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > >
> > > > > I am just commenting.
> > > > >
> > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > >
> > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > >
> > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > >
> > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > >
> > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > >
> > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > >
> > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > >
> > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > >
> > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > >
> > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > >
> > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > >
> > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > >
> > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > >
> > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > >
> > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > >
> > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > >
> > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > >
> > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > >
> > > The end.
> > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> >
> > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> >
> > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
>
> Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
>
> Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www..youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat....I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women....I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008....I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing.. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases.. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I am just commenting.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors.. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > >
> > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > >
> > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > >
> > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > >
> > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > >
> > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > >
> > > > The end.
> > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > >
> > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > >
> > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> >
> > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> >
> > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law..
> Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?

On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women....I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much....I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008....I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable.. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave.. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that....probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I am just commenting.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > >
> > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > > >
> > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > > >
> > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > > >
> > > > > The end.
> > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > >
> > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > >
> > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> > >
> > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > >
> > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
>
> I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:40:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues....so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde.. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal....probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me....it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that....probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze....what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it..
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months.. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
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> > > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I am just commenting.
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> > > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
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> > > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k".. It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The end.
> > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > > >
> > > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > > >
> > > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> > > >
> > > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > > >
> > > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> > Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
> >
> > I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????
> A little while ago, I decided to re-listen to some Eminem songs. I listened to "Criminal." I realized that Versace is Gianni Versace, a real life gay murder victim. I now see that Eminem and his colleagues are even more evil than I had realized. I am not planning to listen to his or Dr. Dre's music again. It sounds like Marhsall Mathers has actively aided murders against gays and others, possibly including me. Why isn't he in jail? Has the FBI realized that 09-11 could have been caused based on failure to prosecute Mathers?
>
> Now, I have listened to and even enjoyed many very catchy "Eminem" songs, and if Mr. Versace had started a great electronic music band after having not been murdered if he hadn't died, in real-life reality, I haven't heard a single note of his music. I will remember that also when I listen to "Paris 400" by Mylo, the SebastiAn remix. Oops.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:48:45 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:40:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this....I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal....probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true.. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain....I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait.. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged.. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me....it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
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> > > > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I am just commenting.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > The end.
> > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> > > > >
> > > > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > > > >
> > > > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > > > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> > > Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
> > >
> > > I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????
> > A little while ago, I decided to re-listen to some Eminem songs. I listened to "Criminal." I realized that Versace is Gianni Versace, a real life gay murder victim. I now see that Eminem and his colleagues are even more evil than I had realized. I am not planning to listen to his or Dr. Dre's music again. It sounds like Marhsall Mathers has actively aided murders against gays and others, possibly including me. Why isn't he in jail? Has the FBI realized that 09-11 could have been caused based on failure to prosecute Mathers?
> >
> > Now, I have listened to and even enjoyed many very catchy "Eminem" songs, and if Mr. Versace had started a great electronic music band after having not been murdered if he hadn't died, in real-life reality, I haven't heard a single note of his music. I will remember that also when I listen to "Paris 400" by Mylo, the SebastiAn remix. Oops.
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
>
> I like it as, "Whoops, someone STEM-shot you back."
>
> It's not about homosexuality for me, it's about universal tolerance and opposing hate. Good ideas, not the only ones. I think MM might have been some sort of KKK person too, I saw his white power signal in one of his other ones.
>
> I note that there seems to be some sort of effort to make me question my beliefs and values--"am I really right, am I stuck in fake jail forever because I was too harsh with some people, did I make all the right choices?'--and the answer is that is a psychological "visceral knee-jerk reflex effort" to trip me up. My views and values are right, no one has even objected to a word I've said or a thing I've done in words, every code out there could just be a fake-out or a mockery of how no one talks to me, whomever the critical target is of the criticism.
>
> Is there a way to get my email permissions back?? I don't know. That's not my main concern right now, I never deserved that. I'm sort of pleased with the psych treatment from Robin Jones and whoever else, but I'm very angry that it apparently was not vociferously recommended, months/years ago, that my ability to receive emails and my ability to use my computer malware-free be returned to me. There was never a case against me, and DOD "paid the price" for attacking me without just cause and breaking the law, but they probably don't know which one it really was or how steep the price turned out to be for them. Very bad behavior by DOD, and I strenuously object to Tucker Psych not assisting me with getting my ability to socialize and use computing resources, I don't deserve to be locked into a little box and dehumanized and childified and lied to repeatedly about my treatment. I'm not in an involuntary hospitalization setting, not TDO'd, nothing like that at all..

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:54:40 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:48:45 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:40:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part....am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
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> > > > > > > > > > I am just commenting.
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> > > > > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
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> > > > > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr.. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > The end.
> > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > > > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > > > > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> > > > Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
> > > >
> > > > I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????
> > > A little while ago, I decided to re-listen to some Eminem songs. I listened to "Criminal." I realized that Versace is Gianni Versace, a real life gay murder victim. I now see that Eminem and his colleagues are even more evil than I had realized. I am not planning to listen to his or Dr. Dre's music again. It sounds like Marhsall Mathers has actively aided murders against gays and others, possibly including me. Why isn't he in jail? Has the FBI realized that 09-11 could have been caused based on failure to prosecute Mathers?
> > >
> > > Now, I have listened to and even enjoyed many very catchy "Eminem" songs, and if Mr. Versace had started a great electronic music band after having not been murdered if he hadn't died, in real-life reality, I haven't heard a single note of his music. I will remember that also when I listen to "Paris 400" by Mylo, the SebastiAn remix. Oops.
> > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
> >
> > I like it as, "Whoops, someone STEM-shot you back."
> >
> > It's not about homosexuality for me, it's about universal tolerance and opposing hate. Good ideas, not the only ones. I think MM might have been some sort of KKK person too, I saw his white power signal in one of his other ones.
> >
> > I note that there seems to be some sort of effort to make me question my beliefs and values--"am I really right, am I stuck in fake jail forever because I was too harsh with some people, did I make all the right choices?'--and the answer is that is a psychological "visceral knee-jerk reflex effort" to trip me up. My views and values are right, no one has even objected to a word I've said or a thing I've done in words, every code out there could just be a fake-out or a mockery of how no one talks to me, whomever the critical target is of the criticism.
> >
> > Is there a way to get my email permissions back?? I don't know. That's not my main concern right now, I never deserved that. I'm sort of pleased with the psych treatment from Robin Jones and whoever else, but I'm very angry that it apparently was not vociferously recommended, months/years ago, that my ability to receive emails and my ability to use my computer malware-free be returned to me. There was never a case against me, and DOD "paid the price" for attacking me without just cause and breaking the law, but they probably don't know which one it really was or how steep the price turned out to be for them. Very bad behavior by DOD, and I strenuously object to Tucker Psych not assisting me with getting my ability to socialize and use computing resources, I don't deserve to be locked into a little box and dehumanized and childified and lied to repeatedly about my treatment. I'm not in an involuntary hospitalization setting, not TDO'd, nothing like that at all.
> I remember seeing Robin Jones put her finger on her closed lips at my appointment recently. Maybe she was saying, "It is up to me when you will be allowed to work and socialize again."
>
> I am sorry, but I am not the property or the child of some random psych worker, or any doctor. It is totally outrageous to freeze my whole life and even support choking me with robots, due to some sort of anger regarding my protests and efforts to defend myself.
>
> My guess is, I can invest on Ameritrade, and I can get a job...otherwise, the Tucker Psych squad would just try to keep me locked in a cage indefinitely, basically because I screamed and continued complaining after Howard County General traumatize me. They want nice, fluffy reviews, and plenty of control over and leverage over the patients, or they will strike out at and lash out at the patients and have their lives illegally restricted by govt thugs. Basically, if you're not financially independent and you don't let your psych doctor get their way every time, they'll mess with you like they are 3 year olds with guns and they want to pull the trigger and wound another one of your limbs and say you deserve it. All this because I complained about the horrible, torture-intensive treatment at MCV! I had to complain, or I would have likely died. Why are they whining about my "delusional" complaints and my angry words? It wasn't my doing, MCV and HCG did it--my reaction was the only possible one to survive and they predicted I would react that way, part of this is Bledowski and his crew attacking other psych practices that see me as a patient, basically because he's a lazy serial predator.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:56:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:54:40 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:48:45 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:40:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be...and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part....am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://twitter.com/jenshahade
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Notepad
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > MS Edge
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and Python without IDLE
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out.. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
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> > > > > > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I am just commenting.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > >
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> > > > > > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > The end.
> > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > > > > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > > > > > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> > > > > Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
> > > > >
> > > > > I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????
> > > > A little while ago, I decided to re-listen to some Eminem songs. I listened to "Criminal." I realized that Versace is Gianni Versace, a real life gay murder victim. I now see that Eminem and his colleagues are even more evil than I had realized. I am not planning to listen to his or Dr. Dre's music again. It sounds like Marhsall Mathers has actively aided murders against gays and others, possibly including me. Why isn't he in jail? Has the FBI realized that 09-11 could have been caused based on failure to prosecute Mathers?
> > > >
> > > > Now, I have listened to and even enjoyed many very catchy "Eminem" songs, and if Mr. Versace had started a great electronic music band after having not been murdered if he hadn't died, in real-life reality, I haven't heard a single note of his music. I will remember that also when I listen to "Paris 400" by Mylo, the SebastiAn remix. Oops.
> > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
> > >
> > > I like it as, "Whoops, someone STEM-shot you back."
> > >
> > > It's not about homosexuality for me, it's about universal tolerance and opposing hate. Good ideas, not the only ones. I think MM might have been some sort of KKK person too, I saw his white power signal in one of his other ones.
> > >
> > > I note that there seems to be some sort of effort to make me question my beliefs and values--"am I really right, am I stuck in fake jail forever because I was too harsh with some people, did I make all the right choices?'--and the answer is that is a psychological "visceral knee-jerk reflex effort" to trip me up. My views and values are right, no one has even objected to a word I've said or a thing I've done in words, every code out there could just be a fake-out or a mockery of how no one talks to me, whomever the critical target is of the criticism.
> > >
> > > Is there a way to get my email permissions back?? I don't know. That's not my main concern right now, I never deserved that. I'm sort of pleased with the psych treatment from Robin Jones and whoever else, but I'm very angry that it apparently was not vociferously recommended, months/years ago, that my ability to receive emails and my ability to use my computer malware-free be returned to me. There was never a case against me, and DOD "paid the price" for attacking me without just cause and breaking the law, but they probably don't know which one it really was or how steep the price turned out to be for them. Very bad behavior by DOD, and I strenuously object to Tucker Psych not assisting me with getting my ability to socialize and use computing resources, I don't deserve to be locked into a little box and dehumanized and childified and lied to repeatedly about my treatment. I'm not in an involuntary hospitalization setting, not TDO'd, nothing like that at all.
> > I remember seeing Robin Jones put her finger on her closed lips at my appointment recently. Maybe she was saying, "It is up to me when you will be allowed to work and socialize again."
> >
> > I am sorry, but I am not the property or the child of some random psych worker, or any doctor. It is totally outrageous to freeze my whole life and even support choking me with robots, due to some sort of anger regarding my protests and efforts to defend myself.
> >
> > My guess is, I can invest on Ameritrade, and I can get a job...otherwise, the Tucker Psych squad would just try to keep me locked in a cage indefinitely, basically because I screamed and continued complaining after Howard County General traumatize me. They want nice, fluffy reviews, and plenty of control over and leverage over the patients, or they will strike out at and lash out at the patients and have their lives illegally restricted by govt thugs. Basically, if you're not financially independent and you don't let your psych doctor get their way every time, they'll mess with you like they are 3 year olds with guns and they want to pull the trigger and wound another one of your limbs and say you deserve it. All this because I complained about the horrible, torture-intensive treatment at MCV! I had to complain, or I would have likely died. Why are they whining about my "delusional" complaints and my angry words? It wasn't my doing, MCV and HCG did it--my reaction was the only possible one to survive and they predicted I would react that way, part of this is Bledowski and his crew attacking other psych practices that see me as a patient, basically because he's a lazy serial predator.
> Anyway, I'm still committed to not starting any fights. To remind others: I have not done that ever so far, and I am planning to never do so. I have been very good and virtuous--if English-language speakers would care to challenge anything about my version of events, you know how to get in touch....maybe you have to drive to me, maybe there has been an "honorary nuclear war" on my behalf because of my contributions at DOD, maybe that is what Uncle Welsh was discussing with his comment.
>
> I'm going to take tomorrow off and just look at chess and relaxing.
>
> I felt a little better tonight at around 12:30.

On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 1:17:51 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:56:33 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:54:40 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:48:45 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 12:40:38 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:16:01 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:12:18 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:11:20 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 11:02:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:58:35 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:47:30 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 10:23:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:58:26 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:30:13 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 9:03:04 PM UTC-4, wij wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Thursday, April 27, 2023 at 7:00:15 AM UTC+8, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 6:51:06 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:09:12 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 4:01:00 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:46:47 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:24:52 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:07:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:04:32 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:02:54 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:40:33 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:33:23 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:30:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:13:58 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 3:01:10 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 2:30:18 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:37:55 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 1:15:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:27:28 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:24:49 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:14:41 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Wednesday, April 26, 2023 at 12:07:27 AM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:55:15 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:37:05 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:56 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:01:04 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Tuesday, April 25, 2023 at 11:00:25 PM UTC-4, Philip White wrote:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/01/24/us/how-many-mass-shootings-2023-dg-xpn/index.html
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You have already killed 219 people this year. How many more will you kill?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the malware is going to stop my Python from working.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe I will start to write more psychologically potent posts, maybe I'll write fiction, see if that will change things and help me get out of here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm taking tomorrow off for sure though.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Do you want *anything* rational at all, or just human suffering Christmas tree ornaments?
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You idiots are sick.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > At this point, one really good question is: If someone foreign *really wanted* to set off a nuclear bomb somewhere in the USA, what force, exactly would stop them?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't think there is one any more.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK I'm gonna be calm now and relax and enjoy myself.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IzD4gI1Cs4
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, yeah, I found out about Jenny Slate from the Westfield skit, great idea, you can call me Manson. Maybe famous people cannot email me due to email issues...so I don't have to be angry.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I think she is lying about smoking pot. Maybe A Shawkat was lying too, I don't know. I've gotta do this one a time here.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's the thing: I have investigated and researched "being in your 30's," by being my 30's. As it turns out, there is a special thing called "The Chips Limit," which I actually discovered just today and which is not the same thing as The Tipping Point, and ...yeah I am really handsome, not literally a dentist, I'll date you, sure...so the thing is that you definitely *cannot* eat 20 chips (Harvest Cheddar) in ...is that improv?...it...could be....and yeah I am handsome enough, I'm getting there, getting thinner...so yeah you cannot actually eat 20 Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips in your 30's and feel good about it, I checked. I think the right "chips limit" is somewhere between 10 and 15 chips.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't get the "anyone take me home and put me in a box in a basement" part...am I being honored for being a good critical thinker, reader, and listener? TRL? TLDR, dazzled? Yeah I'm dazzling. Thanks for noticing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Jenny Slate is my type except for the making up elaborate lies thing.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I am good at art, I can be!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I have watched Venom. I'm very cultured and political too, I didn't listen to the Eminem thing at the end because I'm so liberal and tolerant.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I don't know anything about the "Tootsie Roll" limit.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I just decided to change my mind at look at Jennifer Shahade's Twitter again..
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I like that she accepted my request to apparently not mention me. Thanks. At this point, I don't mind if JS wants to mention me again if she is reading this...I don't mind if I am not mentioned at all again. I like that I asked for a reasonable request and was complied with.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it actually over in April? Maybe it is not. I am not complaining about Ms.. Shahde. Also, btw, when I was 9 years old, I got written up in the Maryland chess club (or Maryland chess something) news letter...I was rated like 1000 or 1100, and at a tournament, I beat a man who was maybe in his 40's who was rated like 1600, and the Maryland newsletter wrote about my game. That was neat...I wasn't seen as an up and coming star then though.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, my math-driven chess theories have come along. I might still get back into playing chess someday.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Additionally, regarding this comment:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "The part that surprised me the most is how much he enjoyed the drama and excitement of it all. It even made losing tolerable."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I can't tell if she is expressing some sort of anger about the deaths of the two women...I can't gauge whatever hints or implications are within this, or if she is angry, that is not even close to being anything like a strength of mine yet, I haven't socialized in over a decade...I can only confidently take the comment at close to face value. I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama much...I was stimulated by it very mildly, it was not very dramatic to me. I enjoy certain kinds of drama. The attention I paid is intended as, "I do not want to get in trouble for not saying something and explaining myself clearly, since I just 'bombed Israel' in a way that I claim was legal, moral, and self-defense, and also killed two innocent people." I don't think I *enjoyed* the drama...I debate well, I can go on and on about issues, *finish up making the point and finish strong*--the phrase "finish strong" came from the 3 miles runs at UMW Rugby and I never saw Steven van der Briel there and I am not him. It is like, if you are typing something, and you have a homework assignment, you'd better do it right...that is why I may sound involved or eagerly pursuing something, which is closer to an "A" as in "not an F in some people's eyes who do not see things as I do and do not speak to me." If I enjoyed the drama of explaining why I did something that likely caused two people to die, I enjoyed it about as much as an internet debate with someone I don't agree with. I err on the side of verbosity. I want people to feel that they do understand how I am thinking and feeling clearly and that I am being genuine, so that my own fear, of being fooled by overly subtle/tricky fake people, isn't something I put others through. I have used lots of science/math ideas in my writing at least in the past. I don't want people to feel uncomfortable with that. To me, it would be *refreshing* to have someone take my concerns into account that attentively...maybe others roll their eyes, and I don't know how deep the eye-rolling at everything I value in other people's behavior and conduct goes, since I don't really know any people in terms of conversing with them any more. I know a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and I talk a little bit to a nurse practitioner once a month, other than that, I would appear to be banned from socializing by bad guys.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Is it over in April??? I really do hope so. I'm sure I'll be digging around somewhere nearby, still desperately trying to find out when this nonsense ends! Reading hints and "cracking fakeness/subtlety codes", including normal/appropriate ones, is not my strength...I can't tell which of my own preferences and models for other people's behavior are seen or lame or are inaccurate models of how other people tend to think, interact, and prefer to be treated these days...e.g., I hadn't thought about consent until 2014, and now it is a key part of how I interact with others, and yet as an "interaction shirt" so to speak, I have never worn it in a real conversation with another person who was not simply in character as that woman at Kroger that I fell in love with and then extremely quickly fell out of love with after 10 days was--it was a very sophisticated, very hurtful fake, and my psych doctor wasn't helping.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I am feeling pretty OK. It was kind of not fun to write that post again, but the music I am listening to is OK.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, for those wondering about me psychologically, I have a very good plan to improve my ability to be perceptive about other people and their feelings, especially including sincerity and being genuine, using some basic psychology ideas I thought of. Most of my STEM ideas, which are for publication and for other people, are "industrial strength STEM ideas" that are based largely on mathematical formalisms. Sometimes, I find it worthwhile, as in this case, to focus on less formal ideas that will help me as a sort of "not even biological but real-world guide" to things.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, now that I'm worried about my email...as I sort of expected, I never got a reply from Professor Sipser regarding my malware-and-research-related email. I wonder if he did email me back but the message was shot down? The time before last, I didn't receive his message also...that was years ago, it was just another one of my P vs. NP questions. Professor has only ever not responded to emails me that I have sent those two times; in the past, I was quite impressed with him and liked him a lot not that I knew him well, and he once sent me an unpublished paper he had written about P vs. NP when I was an undergraduate student. I believe I started emailing him in either 2007 or 2008...I remember when I was hit by a car on Nov 20, 2007, crossing the street going from the UMW apartments (like dorm rooms off the main campus for the students) to the main campus of UMW--I was going either to the math/CS academic building, Trinkle, or to the library (I think it was that one), to some light studying related task--that the last thing I remembered before I blacked out and forgot everything else, rather amusingly, was that I had just realized that my extremely simple approach to P = NP didn't work, because I hadn't realized at the time that my mistake was believing that NP = coNP in some argument I was considering. Clearly, I have made *extremely tremendous* progress since then!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think Michael Sipser is probably not evil...it is very difficult to sort through my "paranoia processing"--I think that thought disorders are more about processing issues, rather than "pure extremeness issues," i.e., I'm not "too paranoid," I have "paranoia-related processing issues," where I'll get some "danger-related theory" and either be way too naive and "un-aroused" in the right way, or I'll be quite aroused enough but feeling insanely stressed out and unsure of what's true, or extremely aroused about the wrong thing to focus on.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So anyway, I'll end this post now I guess. I don't have much else to say. I am going to get better at hints and assessing others' moods when I'm back to normal...probably, I'll do great with socializing anyway, but *the feeling of continual improvement* at socializing would make me feel better about my previous *very serious perceptiveness errors* that were truly for real and scary/upsetting...next time, I'll be less likely to be wrong...and maybe it will help me impress women I date more too in the future, better to err on the side of trying to being too skilled at understanding others.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The top lesson of the day is, which I drew my own attention to recently is:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, if you treat others as you want to be treated, and try to be attentive to everything they want, and try to grow up and listen to past criticisms about you having been annoying or unpleasant, and you really try to consider how to treat someone else right and fairly and properly, if you go all out to please the person, the person might *still* find you *extremely irritating*, and the person might not admit it. Maybe "repulsive" in a way is better than "irritating"; most healthy people don't get all that irritated in normal social situations where the other person isn't trying...it is just that some people have very sensitive preferences in socializing--I really am not too sensitive like that, I like most people who aren't mean or "hiding an evil backstabber personality" behind a smile, I can't stand dealing with such malicious people these days--and unless you use your mind and ideas--maybe you should develop a "psych theory/tool" to help you understand others better, that can be helpful--to try to get a better sense of others' wants and preferences including when interacting, including ones they're not even aware of, and ones they wouldn't advertise, maybe for fear of being rude or causing a hassle to someone else.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, you should assume that if you talk to someone for 15 seconds once a month, they won't find that annoying if they're healthy and you are not a bad person. Being willing to go away when asked and respect consent attentively is very smart, because people don't need to go to "DEFCON 20" because they feel trapped by you and don't know what to do about their inability to get rid of you...probably, judging from JRB's horrible conduct with me, he and Obama have problems with "trapping" people who sabotage them quite subtly (probably Jay-Z, I wouldn't be surprised at all, and I'm very allowed to mention the issue), and that is related to how improperly they're dealing with me.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > If someone seems enthusiastic about spending more time with you, then that is probably a good cue that they like you, unless the person has a possible hidden alternate motive or finds you so disgusting and so disgustingly amusing that he/she wants to have fun doing a fake-out around you as some sort of mean and inappropriate satire.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Those are just basic, non-intense-STEMmy thoughts for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So yeah, I can't tell if celebrity people who mentioned me are unable to email me. Some of the flirty women, including the indecent exposure women, from the past probably know my name...can they email me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In case you can't tell, it is very hurtful and upsetting to have, e.g., Jenny Slate and other very pretty female celebrities mention me on the news or in their performances, and act like they would like to date and / or befriend or speak to me, and then at the end of the day--I think I am out--they are just kidding. That is really mean and hurtful, and I know I'm going good places in life in my future with my career and improvements, but I have worked, with some great success (!!), at calming down with my anger and spiteful, intentionally insulting and provocative comments, but I don't understand why people would think that is a good idea to do that to me. In the past, I was less able to be stably in touch with reality than other people, and as of now, given another med increase (last one? I hope so....), I am now even more stable. I was stable enough to talk before, it is very disappointing and hurtful to me that people were so mean to me for no reason, and I will be OK, but I do not like this kind of treatment, and it is clear that I am a very nice and *worthwhile*, to emphasize that word person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think at this point, sounding a little bit whiny is better than sounding/feeling too angry for me, at this point, healthwise.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Here's looking at asking for better treatment, from everyone, in the future! Try to be nice and treat everyone you know, especially including me, with an appropriately high level of respect! Try being nice, even I know that's how you make friends the most effectively!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get my Python project to work effectively, from this computer, soon enough. I'll take some time off before I do it...the idea looks great and an appropriate solution to the specific problem. I'm going to take at least one more day off though, maybe 2 days...I want to feel already relaxed and calm and ready to just work and get some things done, without feeling stressed out. As I often do, I'll probably plan out a schedule and outline for doing all of my work the night before I actually start doing it.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > A nice thought: Probably, one or two things that I *would* like to be true are actually true. E.g., probably, people have tried to email me and my messages are getting zapped by the bad guys and their malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I need to get a password added again, or the wind-tunnel vector bots might figure out how to login to my computer and do things on it when I'm not around or sleeping.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Someone at Walmart hinted at something that might be true: DELETE EJ.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe that means: Delete Python IDLE, and also delete Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What could have happened is, when I opened a .txt file with Notepad++, Notepad++ wrote out to the file and changed it because it had access to it, and then it displayed the file as it was supposed to look. Then, Notepad++ wound up having some code in it that led to the alternate hidden version of the file to basically be doing a "SQL injection attack" to Notepad++, where it exploits some sort of vulnerability in Windows that makes changes to how MS Edge works.. I might need to reinstall some of my programs, and even redownload them. The files should be fine if I only use:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Possibly, Notepad++ didn't do it on purpose, but their website got infected with malware.. No, I don't know if the malware tries to use my computer to launch attacks, and no, VA State police and FBI didn't write back.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is stopped by government crooks, not malware.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK...I wound up reinstalling Notepad++.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I spent a lot of time changing the permissions, esp. denying write permissions for all users I could, for each of the three main programs I'm using: Notepad++, Python, and MSFT Edge.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think I will wind up being fine. I think I will basically solve the problem by building my own HTML-reader browser program in Python, and it will just read HTML source from pages and sometimes submit form/other data.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > This whole set of hoops to jump through is just stupid. I'll be fine soon, at least that's what I think right now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > So, it looks like the typos are here to stay. I just spent time changing all the permissions of the programs I want to run on Windows. This'll have to do for now.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I know how to get around source code detection efforts by the bad guys--I guess I hadn't planned to share that but it's late at night, and it's not a big deal, so why not?--and I'll be sure to mind what sorts of inputs Python programs actually take.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It's sure to be a pain...I saw the MS Windows window change as though affected by malware, so yes, it's in the operating system and/or hardware, for sure.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think the typos will stay in, and I'll have to figure out how reliable Python will be.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The bad guys have been making more coyote sounds and plane noises outside to wake me up, but I haven't gone to sleep yet. They just made a bug-like insect nose near my microwave. It doesn't matter, but they are crazy and so incredibly evil and right-wing. They think they look good--they are so clueless socially, they know how to be fake, but they have *no idea* most people interact with each other when being normal. They are even behind me, and I just figured some new things out based on psych treatment and I have been isolated for over 10 years.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my email is "strangled" too.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thoughts on these sorts of nutty tactics, Jake Stenzler and Mark Krempley? Surely you didn't approve of doing this to me and quietly support it all along while working alongside me as a "co-worker" at ABSG? I wonder whom you work with now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, I should cool it with my vigorous attempt to circumvent the malware.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The thing is, if the bad guys have the *capability* to halt my trades on Ameritrade, then they surely have used it. They surely sought and gained that capability, so they're not going to let my program work right.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess I'll have to wait. Is it over in 12 days? Maybe 12 weeks? I really hope so--I don't know what else to do!
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I might focus on chess in the upcoming days.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think a good way to put it, using Mr. Richardson's clearance metaphor, is, "It turns out, I don't have the right 'clearance' to fix the computing issues and socializing issues that I have, and I don't know who does or how to reach that person."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I would imagine it is in someone else's hands now. I don't know what needs to be done next, I shouldn't need such high-power help to get out of a mess like this--I've been overtly in serious distress and totally innocent for over 10 years, where is the "armada" of people--the legion of people--that ought to be here to show up and surround the bad guys and help me get out of this, and/or protest???
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Maybe, though, even without the clearance, I can sort of get around the issue...like in the past, I could socialize with Marie Coates sometimes, I just had to avoid certain areas, and with the choking and satellite harassment, I just have to avoid non-blocked windows, so maybe with the malware thing, I *can* trade stocks, but I just have to be careful about it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'll find out in a few days when I come back to it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Tonight I'm going to listen to a little more music and then go to bed by 4 I'm sure. I had a pretty good low-stress today, and my medication is up as I said.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think my Dad hinted, "a young female hooker in a Jackie Chan movie." I don't think that's too inaccurate.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > OK, today is my day off, but I just figured out how to deal with the malware issue! I'll probably work on it tomorrow.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I slept a lot last night...didn't wake up really until after 2, and yes, the bad guys keep using noises to wake me up in the middle of the night. I don't like it, but they and their backers *do* pay a steep price for it, so someday, it will simply have made an example of them and conditioned their successors at trying to mess with me to see what they would be up against and how hurt they would be if they assaulted me again.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And I don't know if emails to me are shot down...maybe? It could be that there are some famous people who are innocent who are on similar lists and held unable to use phone/email communications to talk to other people without messages getting shot down in some cases. One possibility: What if Heath Ledger repeatedly *tried* to get in touch with a doctor, but he and Maggie Gyllehnhaal were both on "the list" for being in a Bush satire, and MG was innocent and both of them had blocked communications? It could be true.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > There are probably some "slave employees" who feel forced to stay at NSA due to knowing too much and having similar restrictions placed on them. They might feel that if they ever quit or didn't perform as desired, they might, already being on "the list" of communication blockings, be unable to do anything else. Probably, that has happened to some journalists, too. The hard challenge is to find out who is seriously scared of "the list" and who is just faking it. There is really no way for me to know at this point. The media should really take some chances and run the story...Katie Couric could already be "on the list," and waiting to be "leveled up" and attacked more by conservatives who can change her status on "the list."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No, I had nothing to do with such things at NSA, I barely had any access to anything but however many problems I was asked to solve and what it was claimed it was related to. I won't share anything classified or definitely harmful, i.e., I won't share my contributions or any classified info I heard about, ever.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtrOua-dSuQ
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah, the black guy at the mall who spoke to me for a moment alluded to this movie: "Can you help this person?", about the dummy on the bottom level. I don't know that he was bad; he came by to talk right after the black buy got killed in the mental hospital.. I don't know if he was trying to help or set something up or what. He didn't bother me. All I know about him is that he was a black man, maybe middle aged. He didn't bother me, didn't seem to have too much to say or too much to hide. He smiled on the way back, when I was walking back from the other way and he was walking in that direction. I figure he wouldn't mind me repeating the encounter.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I figured out why almost no one emails me...it is not email blocking, it is *preparation costs*. To email someone who is in as much distress as I am and has posted as many posts as I have, and has a mental problem, would probably take most average people at least 2 hours to prepare. If the average makes $10 or more per hour, that comes out to $20 to email me...maybe that time/money would be better spent helping a homeless person who just wants food.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think this area is worse than that, but I would believe that some people don't know my name and can't find out. They would also need to know my email address at this point.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I firmly believe, at this point, that cancer non-profits, and journalists and media celebrities who have mentioned me and/or alluded to me, are *not* off the hook. You have already invested in altering my local-public image, and now refuse to speak with me after having signed up to be a "(fake) Philip discusser," and you have made money from discussing me without my permission, possibly invading my privacy.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I won't expect too much in the way of proper behavior from politically well-connected or famous people, though..
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/disney-desantis-reedy-creek-power/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > An interesting question about lawsuits in modern times:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In what percentage of the cases are lawsuits designed as "massive public demonstrations intended to humiliate both parties in the courtroom showdown"? In many cases, regular people like me with an actual serious grievance based on laws and serious grounds for a lawsuit do not have the resources for a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > What does it say about people/organizations who do have grounds for a lawsuit, and then wind up as plaintiff and defendant in court? What if it's empirically true, and known to some statisticians, that in many cases, when two parties go to court to have a lawsuit to resolve their differences one way or the other, it is because both parties have one or more "shared victims" for whom legal action either party is not a rational, sensible possibility? Perhaps the idea is, there is a "secret, over-their-heads meaning" to the pitting against each other of two American entities that winds up in civil court with a lawsuit.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps, it is a "14th amendment satire"--"here are two parties with plenty of resources, enough to possibly waste on a lawsuit with an uncertain outcome, rendering such expenditure to really just be a costly public relations stunt, like an advertisement or a stint on Judge Judy but with extra media coverage, and they must both be naive and foolish, or they would have figured out either a cheaper and less risky 'safety plan' to avoid getting taken advantage of to the extent that courtroom action would be necessary, or they would have developed a 'legal action safety plan,' to be so careful that no one could ever sue them with a lawyer who would take the case without the judge immediately dismissing the lawsuit as frivolous upon hearing about it and being in court to act."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In general, these days with such a justice deficit, *actual* lawsuits tend to be a signal about "reckless, John-Hinckley-in-the-past-like obsession" of two parties with each other. It's like a "fine, thank you, thank you, thanks for not killing each other or your other shared victim, here, have some media attention, we're glad this isn't involving such clearly bad and totally reckless behavior that is winding up in criminal court" gesture. It's a way to humiliate two entities that are so reckless and disregarding of the law that they want to play a big, very public game with money in a way that will get them some "pacifier-like attention" and get them to focus on fighting each other, with clear words and in court, rather than stalking their smaller victims more. It's a humiliating distraction, a stealthy huge f--- - you, and a "thank you for at least not having been the very worst."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I think: It's a way to say: "Neither of these guys are *careful* enough at all, they've been like sitting ducks, feel free to study them and the resources that they somehow still have in spite of their lack of sophistication."
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In theory, lawsuits could work better than that...probably, this is how they tend to work in a "low-equality-in-general, low-average-protection" version of America, where the positive version of the 14th amendment has been so callously neglected that almost no one in the county has real, legitimate rights any more, as they may have used to in maybe in the 1990's.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > It might be significant to observe and analyze...what is known about media figure Disney and politician Ron DeSantis? Is this about Scarlett Johnasson's support for Woody Allen and DeSantis' link to Matt Gaetz? What can be inferred about children's rights in modern America from the economy's/system's selection in a sense of these two big players for a famous lawsuit? I won't be paying much attention, but I bet if you're interested in "learning some lessons" about modern society in a safe, and totally ethical and admirable way, you might want to tune into the details of this lawsuit...you might learn a lot, just from reading what they say what their peers (other media/journalism firms, actors, fellow politicians) have to say about this, even just while it's going on in other contexts being quoted in the media. This is the healthy, totally appropriate way to "learn lessons" that involves doing nothing wrong...I'm pleased and proud of myself to be able to be the loudest voice out there today recommending watching it if you're interested to learn some cool lessons!
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > More comments:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > No one outside of the IC who may not speak can be sure of reading of my email or its metadata or the consequences of that without clear confirmation from an internet scraper that reveals evidence of my inbox contents published online or confirmation from a US government spokesperson...there is no evidence at all that my email metadata is read by anyone.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Also, importantly: I am "resigning" from claiming to be in the position of "supporting my extended family," either the White or Stonitsch family branches--I'm on my own. Additionally, when I do research, to ensure that I will not be exploited, I will have certain kinds of blacklists. They will not involve causing harm to anyone or anything violent/illegal. I will include on my blacklists, which will guide me to not help people who fit certain kinds of descriptions of people who have been toxic to me: adamant opponents of me and/or my competitive/values brand, knowing and deliberate/voluntary contributors to *normalizers* of certain toxic/humiliating to me behaviors, and supporters of complicated hurtful scams like the classic "police and laws are down for you, you'll have to get help from the wealthy metaphorical data rape accepting deliberately underperforming and disrespectful bat person squad in your locality that we made a deal with a while ago" scam I have to deal with all the time now. When I publish, I'll make sure, given my list that I'm still working on, that I'm basically "stingily working for myself, citing and adhering to 'research deals' properly (maybe solving a few important open problems for others that I don't mind to build traction/influence), and working for 'my kind of person' and people who might become such a person," and that I have essentially a mathematical proof, including reasonable assumptions, that will show that I'm not publishing research in a way that is getting me exploited, especially by the blacklisted types specifically or that is irrational. I'll be even more careful with giving away money too...I'll be methodical, appropriately helpful, very brilliant and excellent at problem solving, ethical and fair, and extremely careful and stingy about publication.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > That is my update for now.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Somebody who really wanted to pursue the goal of, "No one will ever believe what we did to you, Philip," got angry that I got people to believe and they wanted to teach me a lesson. Did you know that teaching someone as brilliant and fair-minded as I am "a lesson" in a *disrespectful* way, when I make myself available to speak to you, can be *quite dangerous*, not in the sense of causing illegal activity to happen to you typically, but in terms of *you losing the things that you worked hard for*, because you were very disrespectful to someone who is psychologically correlated with both Anne Frank and Jesus Christ? I am an atheist, but, genetics and group membership aside, I do *not* work to treat "disrespectful loud-mouth abuse victims like dirt," and I never well. It is *I*, and the other virtuous abuse victims of the world, who deserve the bows and the "I'm so sorry!" treatment. I will get it one day.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > You did teach me a lesson, but not the one you wanted to: You taught that people like you, who number quite a few, must be blacklisted to fight the "subtle illegal viciousness" trend that has taken off and consumed the goodness of the hearts and minds of so many misguided, now highly evil and okay with that, Americans.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > My research will aid me.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Taiwan has been extracting the suspect using the old tech of serrum long time
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ago and many times. So, the brain is fried. Nothing now can be legal against
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Philippines in the court... Long live, Kim Jong-un, amen.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The messages from outside from a car is unsigned and possibly directed at me, so surely, if someone asked a car driver to have it sent, it cost at least $20 to send.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thus, it is pretty clearly either:
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone doing something weird/unuseful
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Someone who doesn't know my name is driving around for some geographic-location-linked purpose
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - Purely a conicidence
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > - AI manipulating traffic to learn something or achieve some other goal
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > My suspicion is that it is someone doing something weird and unuseful. Maybe I learn things from such weird and unuseful signals, but I am not fooled by them, and if I am going to be "baited" into saying something, it will not be anything useful to anyone. Maybe, worst case scenario, I would pass some message along to someone inadvertently, or reveal something about myself or the area psychologically or otherwise...it really doesn't matter, I'm actually quite predictable now (I'll reveal that), what remains to be guessed at as the precise strength/"magnitude" of my research, taken as a force vector, and how I will spend my money after I've made it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > The only uncertain thing, really, is if my Python script will work as well as I think it will when I host it on the web and get it to make trades for me. As long as I'm right about my idea--I'm pretty sure I am--and I'm not sabotaged by Ameritrade or web hosting companies or any other malware/sabotage related things, I should be fine within a few months. I decided not to write out a proof, I'll just test the idea on data and then start trading. We'll see I guess.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Note, I make posts like this mainly for fun. It doesn't matter that much what i say on here anyway.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > I decided that I am going to take one more day off--tomorrow. I'll just try out some of my new and exciting chess ideas for that day, and then get going with the Python script the day after that.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > I think just running it on the server should be fine, because the (free!) server company, RDP Hostings, is in a Congressional district that is not in CA and controlled by anyone who is likely to obsessively target (Schiff and Pelosi are too linked to the House Intelligence Committee, which they have been (mis)using to drive the USA nuts for many of the past 10-15 years at least).
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > So, my understanding is--I put a little thought into UTM's and operating systems, if you must know, and I read up on scripts that can be run in outputted HTML code (apparently it's mainly just JavaScript and CGI scripts like Perl), so it looks like unless there's a deal, of course, my computer can't infect the hosting company or its server. I'd just need to upload the code and run it from my home computer, and get it to make trades on Ameritrade.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > Worst-case scenario, I could run code at home, and just have the output show all my work, and then I could check the work and act based on the output. I think the server idea is much better.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > > So...chess tomorrow, Python the next day. The full program should be done within 3-4 days for sure.
> > > > > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/politics/montana-house-bans-zooey-zephyr/index.html
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> > > > > > > > > > > > My political comment is, this is obviously a massively-backed Republican assault on free speech.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I am just commenting.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I suspect the trans woman doesn't know my name, so I don't mind being supportive because I don't feel burned by her.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > It is an interesting question--not one I'm likely to tackle with research--but quite important in the USA. How exactly are 14th amendments concerns fought about, when the attack is being responded to by someone who is powerful and doesn't just have to resort to word games like I did in my Constitution-related protest?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I do like the clean/dirty floors metaphor, I got that from Richard Toikka, whatever I think of him. At least he did respond--I just contacted another lawyer to ask a question about market manipulation, and the VA law firm ignored my email, and the Virginia Legal Referral Service shows no lawyers that I can get in touch with about Business--Stocks matters. Disappointing, I'll have to keep looking for a lawyer to consult with to answer my very simple question--I even offered the VA lawyer $50, this is quite annoying.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Anyway, I guess the top question is, how exactly do Repubs think they can get away with 1st amendment attacks in violation of the 14th amendment? There is surely no argument for it; how is the automatic "law enforcement deployment" thwarted?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Probably, the avenue of attack is, in one word: Juries. The death penalty doesn't help. Anyway, the point is, because white people and non-transgender people are not in the majority, the white majority can sway juries more than anything else. The Democrat lawmaker who protested only very feebly, perhaps citing "bigger concerns or polls or practicality," whatever movie that's from, was surely, inadvertently or not, setting a big, metaphorical precedent likely to influence juries, one way or her other--it could even just be via AI--by showing people a clear example a powerful, (white?), "liberal," Democratic elected official, basically stepping aside and clearing the way for a big Republican attack on a transgender woman's free speech rights. That's likely, I think, to be emulated in juries all across Montana and maybe eventually across the USA.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > The "nuclear bomb force" of the jury, the "final strike" of the legal system that does the most damage of any legal instrument, is now locked and loaded to fight transgender free speech.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > What can people do to defend against that? White people are not going to become a minority. I am white. I am educated enough not to fall into the "bad juror" trap. What can be done to target not the force of "mass whiteness" but the force of "mass discrimination and intolerance" and its effort to infiltrate juries, perhaps jumping off of demographics-informed marketing schemes, maybe even using advertisements on TV to suddenly influence large, easily packaged demographic groups, to get them to support the anti-trans agenda, based on the Democrat leader's very bad signal of stepping aside?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I think the issue is, there already *are* forces in play that are set up to attack bad juries. The problem is, the bad jurors on the bad juries are always "in a mask." They are essentially anonymous, as they must be under the law, so the challenge is, when "bad verdicts" start rolling in, who is going to target whom and how to attack the bad guys who are weakening "dirty floor equality" and also getting all of the floors dirtier, maybe based on not caring due to "their floor being clean enough and fairly 'secure' going forward"? If there are problems that rise up for the bad guy groups, how can those problems be linked to failures regarding tolerance and the 14th amendment?
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Perhaps the argument is, "It might not be desirable to write *lengthy mechanics proofs* showing people how they've been hurt for opposing the Constitution." Sometimes, people face grave misfortunes that might be "their group's fault," but as an individual, the person is "wrongly selected" by forces that govern the group as "the scapegoat," when the person is not the one who deserved it...the buck is passed--I tried to address that with game theory, apparently it didn't work as well as I thought, maybe most people hate game theory??--and the big problem goes to the wrong person.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I think the top open problem in US law is, "Is there a way to create a credible system that can be broadcast to *everyone* that would help them fight against inequality?" I am not going to start a startup about this--that's not the career I'm interested in, I'm improperly incentivized, and I have had too many nasty experiences with both computing and politics anyway--but probably, someone should create a popular book, website, TV show or movie, or other media item, presenting some sort of solution--such as, "If you stand up for and defend other people's rights, care will be taken to help you out of your personal predicament for your work at defending the rights of others loudly and verbally," and people could seek to become "big exceptions" to "group curses based on 'crimes against 14'" by speaking out and doing political service.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > Clearly, that media item or organization doesn't exist yet--I am standing out here on the internet, defending people's rights all the time, and I'll probably continue, and it does have a very good impact, but I receive no thanks at all! I think this transgender woman hasn't heard of me, but the problem is, there is almost no incentive for non-lawyers and non-politicians to defend 14, and the lawyers and politicians adamantly refuse to do a good job of helping to defend the Constitution, no matter how much they're paid. So, America is stuck with very dirty and unequally dirty floors. Americans chose bad leaders, time and time again, and failed to adequate protest against university-educated lawyers who just don't care to actually do their jobs sufficiently.
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> > > > > > > > > > > > I tried to do it--I wasn't joined, I was rejected, kicked, tortured, practically killed--and now, basically no one does it. Maybe I had a predecessor who was killed, too. I feel sorry for that person and others like him/her and grateful for his/her service, but I don't know of anyone out there like that except me now. You're mostly on your own, Americans! Watch the heck out regarding your rights indeed!
> > > > > > > > > > > I am feeling kind of restless and unpleasant tonight. I think I am now feeling "stable" and unscared of my sad feelings enough to tell myself, "This is a feeling that I am really feeling," i.e., I don't want to try to *deny* my unpleasant feelings into going away, because they do not feel that bad any more--I can truly accept that I am feeling very bad, because it is not all that bad any more.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I think the source of the bad feeling is just--very serious and utter and painful rejection, aloneness, and friendlessness. That is a very unpleasant feeling to feel. I would like to be able to restart my social life, but I still can't. Too bad.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I think the transgender law maker was saying, "try ec, dr. k". It sounds the person does not know my name, but can tell from the UMW math department's strange photos...but wait, couldn't someone easily go through my photos on the website, and see me in the photographs and what people are trying to do to me?
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> > > > > > > > > > > Maybe the comment is, a lot of people know what I look like from those photos, but people have had a real problem trying to identify me--they can't figure out my name, maybe that is true. What if that is why Jenny Slade is writing skits like that, because she can't identify me in that photo? Well, try checking out sci.math and comp.theory! Should I post to sci.math? Maybe I'll try it.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I think it is a good point...I should not use game theory for commercial purposes unless under duress, since Nash wasn't adequately thanked for his publication, so the copyright should stay his. Fortunately, my ideas for stock predicting are not based on game theory or anything else from recently-alive "under-thanked" people.
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> > > > > > > > > > > I'll try to post this to sci.math too.
> > > > > > > > > > Wow...the UMW newspaper changed its name to "The Weekly Ringer" instead of "The Bullet" or "The Blue and Gray Press."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > I guess I can't post as um, one last time, and reveal my name, again to be: *PHILIP WHITE*! Oh yeah! I could have made this post if comments hadn't been mysteriously banned on the website:
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> > > > > > > > > > I'm back, Konieczny. That's right, in the Tales of Symphonia game that is my life, I am now but a summon spirit for transgender politicians. Would that Corinne and Presea's sister had not also had such a fate.
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> > > > > > > > > > So yeah...I'm being discovered now, right? If you can get me out of Virginia and you are a pretty white woman under 45, I'll probably be happy to give you face! Not in Virginia though...IT'S THE LAW! As a matter of fact, it might be...the only law.
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> > > > > > > > > > The end.
> > > > > > > > > https://www.cnn.com/2023/04/26/tech/south-korea-samsung-q1-profits-plunge-intl-hnk/index.html
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Yeah...should've bought my IP instead of trying to lock me out.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > You know what they say...logic eludes the unfair.
> > > > > > > > I think the satellite-wielding bad guys just tried to choke me again at 11:03. It didn't work, just like the second earlier time today..
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Maybe my email really is shot down??? I remember posting a lot on Reddit, than Pelosifur's husband got bopped with police help, and I didn't get any emails except from "Sherine Sawyer," who have might been a fictitious CIA persona. I don't know.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Can I use Ameritrade? I'll find out for sure in a few weeks for sure if I'm not released...it would just be another company getting bopped by me, like NSA (gov't agency), CIA, Disney, Fox, Samsung, SpaceX, Twitter, Tesla (probably), Lowe's, Best Buy, Macy's, Ross Dress For Less, Costco, Home Depot, Norton Anti-Virus, Google, Facebook in particular, MI6, Mossad, Apple, Berkshire Hathaway, Walmart, Kroger, Food Lion, CVS, Publix...I've ruined large parts of many businesses, all of which seem to think they're invincible, and they keep coming after me and trying to mess with me illegally and it literally never goes their way but they keep trying. They'll keep getting hit if they don't stop, there's really no upper bound on how many large organizations that do bad things that I can attack and damage, within the law.
> > > > > > > Most recently, many of Abigail Spanberger's husbands got bopped--sent to jail--too. Worse to bad?
> > > > > > Maybe to spare myself the stress, I shouldn't try. Based on Reddit, I should have at least received some hate mail. Almost every company is signed up for this, so why would Ameritrade be any different? I could bop them, but what's the point? It's just another big dumb company that I don't care about.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I don't know if I should try it or not...I can use Google to post, but apparently, I'm not getting all of my emails. What should I do next????
> > > > > A little while ago, I decided to re-listen to some Eminem songs. I listened to "Criminal." I realized that Versace is Gianni Versace, a real life gay murder victim. I now see that Eminem and his colleagues are even more evil than I had realized. I am not planning to listen to his or Dr. Dre's music again. It sounds like Marhsall Mathers has actively aided murders against gays and others, possibly including me. Why isn't he in jail? Has the FBI realized that 09-11 could have been caused based on failure to prosecute Mathers?
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> > > > > Now, I have listened to and even enjoyed many very catchy "Eminem" songs, and if Mr. Versace had started a great electronic music band after having not been murdered if he hadn't died, in real-life reality, I haven't heard a single note of his music. I will remember that also when I listen to "Paris 400" by Mylo, the SebastiAn remix. Oops.
> > > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE3Xud7SVd0
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> > > > I like it as, "Whoops, someone STEM-shot you back."
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> > > > It's not about homosexuality for me, it's about universal tolerance and opposing hate. Good ideas, not the only ones. I think MM might have been some sort of KKK person too, I saw his white power signal in one of his other ones.
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> > > > I note that there seems to be some sort of effort to make me question my beliefs and values--"am I really right, am I stuck in fake jail forever because I was too harsh with some people, did I make all the right choices?'--and the answer is that is a psychological "visceral knee-jerk reflex effort" to trip me up. My views and values are right, no one has even objected to a word I've said or a thing I've done in words, every code out there could just be a fake-out or a mockery of how no one talks to me, whomever the critical target is of the criticism.
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> > > > Is there a way to get my email permissions back?? I don't know. That's not my main concern right now, I never deserved that. I'm sort of pleased with the psych treatment from Robin Jones and whoever else, but I'm very angry that it apparently was not vociferously recommended, months/years ago, that my ability to receive emails and my ability to use my computer malware-free be returned to me. There was never a case against me, and DOD "paid the price" for attacking me without just cause and breaking the law, but they probably don't know which one it really was or how steep the price turned out to be for them. Very bad behavior by DOD, and I strenuously object to Tucker Psych not assisting me with getting my ability to socialize and use computing resources, I don't deserve to be locked into a little box and dehumanized and childified and lied to repeatedly about my treatment. I'm not in an involuntary hospitalization setting, not TDO'd, nothing like that at all.
> > > I remember seeing Robin Jones put her finger on her closed lips at my appointment recently. Maybe she was saying, "It is up to me when you will be allowed to work and socialize again."
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> > > I am sorry, but I am not the property or the child of some random psych worker, or any doctor. It is totally outrageous to freeze my whole life and even support choking me with robots, due to some sort of anger regarding my protests and efforts to defend myself.
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> > > My guess is, I can invest on Ameritrade, and I can get a job...otherwise, the Tucker Psych squad would just try to keep me locked in a cage indefinitely, basically because I screamed and continued complaining after Howard County General traumatize me. They want nice, fluffy reviews, and plenty of control over and leverage over the patients, or they will strike out at and lash out at the patients and have their lives illegally restricted by govt thugs. Basically, if you're not financially independent and you don't let your psych doctor get their way every time, they'll mess with you like they are 3 year olds with guns and they want to pull the trigger and wound another one of your limbs and say you deserve it. All this because I complained about the horrible, torture-intensive treatment at MCV! I had to complain, or I would have likely died. Why are they whining about my "delusional" complaints and my angry words? It wasn't my doing, MCV and HCG did it--my reaction was the only possible one to survive and they predicted I would react that way, part of this is Bledowski and his crew attacking other psych practices that see me as a patient, basically because he's a lazy serial predator.
> > Anyway, I'm still committed to not starting any fights. To remind others: I have not done that ever so far, and I am planning to never do so. I have been very good and virtuous--if English-language speakers would care to challenge anything about my version of events, you know how to get in touch....maybe you have to drive to me, maybe there has been an "honorary nuclear war" on my behalf because of my contributions at DOD, maybe that is what Uncle Welsh was discussing with his comment.
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> > I'm going to take tomorrow off and just look at chess and relaxing.
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> > I felt a little better tonight at around 12:30.
> I remember Dr. K dropped some visual non-verbal hint about Caroline Coster years ago during a Zoom appointment. I think Dr. K thinks a lot more people like him than who actually do. He thinks he's young, has a good haircut, is normal, has a psychiatrist job and education, went to the same school as (fellow bad guy) Dr. Coster, and therefore, she must really like him pretty well, and he ought to stand up for her regarding my numerous very angry and distraught complaints. So, he helps me a little, but puts me in tremendous emotional pain with meds, and doesn't allow that to be fixed until long after he has quit Tucker Psych. He doesn't get it...standing up for "Caroline's Coster anger about very serious and true complaints being filed about her" is not a good investment of his time. The bad guys who keep attacking me maybe think that if they *just keep doing it intensely enough*, I will stop complaining. I have *no choice* but complaining, or I would suffer for years and eventually die like this.
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> The UK hinted, "triple ire" recently. What does that mean ,"they get it," they're totally up to speed and highly irritable, subtle British people with a certain carefully cultivated sense of humor and type of upbringing, and therefore, they too are not maddeningly obnoxious and annoying to 80% of the people they've ever forced to interact with them, because gosh, they're homicidal predators, but, why, they think they are good people and it doesn't matter, and no one ever came out criticizing them.
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> You'll note, in the USA, not everyone is friends with everyone else. My easygoing attitude, including regarding Dr. K's personality and mannerisms, is very almost universally accepting personality-wise, and not anti-weirdness at all, although I strenuously despise immoral people, and that attitude of mine is very rare, I think. I can tell, I think, that most men and women in their thirties would not enjoy socializing with someone who speaks as weakly vocally as Dr. K does; he seemed like a quick, cues-aware thinker who doesn't understand that most women are *typically* not kidding when they talk about how they would like their kids, everyone's else's kids, and other vulnerable people in general, to be treated.
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> There are so many people out there who do the most obnoxious, bothersome, infuriating things, like steal someone's after having seen them on the internet and then go around bragging about in spite of coming across as an effeminate eight-year-old, and people think, because they haven't been *specifically* notified, in a way *custom-tailored to their communication style* by *a courier, of sorts, delegated by someone they would really trust and admire and find appealing*, that they have done something "horridly repulsive and now everyone despises them*, that it must not be true, there must not be any objections.
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> Here's an example: When I caused two Israeli women to die in Israel, I might have, unfortunately for me in the sense of having connections someday (since I'm planning to get into chess) who would approve of me, caused Jennifer Shahade, who might read my Twitter, to never consider liking me in the future. That is possible, and I'm not that likely to raise the subject of the Israeli attack in a normal polite conversation in the future, with anyone. Indeed, many people, including Jewish people, might appropriately and in a way I cannot totally object to , see the two women as "like their kids" much more than I am, maybe because I don't believe in anything about the bible seriously. Probably, most concerned people would totally understand my argument; since I felt I had to do that and I stand by my decision adamantly, in spite of sad costs, of course, there might be people who will permanently never forgive me, even after I help bring the two victims back to life (outrageously, given what I had to do to not die, I must have that STEM talent and use it to mitigate the "F+" I might receive from angry people--killing is not minor, I do agree with that), simply because they have their way of making decisions and might not talk about how they reason about values.. I cannot control other people's feelings and adjudications about my actions while desperate and unspoken to, and I might indeed lose support from people who don't think they should decide that they accept my action, in that case or any other case. I don't think I did anything really serious other than that--abortion rights beliefs are fine, etc., and not supporting Ukraine was just "not showing up" any more...I did give Ukraine many 0's, but it was mainly clear, in spite of my stated with that I "hoped Ukraine got invaded after all"--I was sort of speaking out of desperate anguished anger from torture, I just mainly meant "I just stopped caring completely," at least that is what I translate that too after having cooled off and "caught my breath", partly literally--I didn't really do anything active to Ukraine. My protests were in some cases in support of Ukrainian children. I forgot if I gloated to myself when some Ukrainians and the war didn't go that well. Maybe I did gloat. I don't know what to say, I said, why should help a country that apparently wants to slaughter me and keep me in this cage? I agreed to support Navalny, I don't even get spoken to...WTH???
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> Anyway, yeah, I think a lot of smug "quite cheerfully understated" British people think, like many Americans, definitely including me in the past, that *really no hates me or can't stand me, why would they?"*, and that is not really about paranoia most of the time, it is not understanding people who politely tolerate or at least act polite and friendly around people they can't stand. I think it happens to all kinds of people, not just me. People don't take the time to *analyze* their interactions, and question, "Does this person like me?", because a lot of people are much less outspoken and genuine/sincere/transparent than I am in my 30's right now. A lot of the very unperceptive people even anger and dislike each other, simply being below average at "having worked on not bothering or annoying or being obnoxious/overly-persistent/invasive towards others," and they don't realize that they're living on "Very Disliked By Peers Island."